opinaivekush
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- Dec 28, 2015
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Hey, what's up guys? Has anyone successfully used opiates after being off them for a few months? I wanna use percocet or vicodin just once a day when im sick as it helps tremendously with colds and such. Would I suffer from any withdrawl? I also use cannabis daily for about 4 years and have been taking 1mg ativan for a month before I sleep. I feel like i'm a little depressed, just wanting to get high. I wanna get my life together, become a successful doctor as per my dreams.
I know that if I focus I can achieve anything that come to mind, but after a period of focusing for a while I just say fuck this, start smoking ounces of cannabis every 1-2 weeks, and my grades just fall from 90's to 70's. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me. I am in my last year of highschool and have basically given up with around an 80-85avg, and with college coming, I would like to start over again.
During my period of high school, I was always seeking attention. Dealing large amounts of cannabis, being a class clown, popping pills in class, and drinking liquor in class from bottles, were some of the stupid things i've amounted to doing. I got out of school suspension in my school twice for drinking and another stupid stunt I pulled.
My parents are extremely loving and caring, while I am appreciative for that, they compensate by being the most overprotective people in the world. I'm not even allowed to hang out with my friends after 11, never allowed to drink as I am muslim and it is against my religion.
Should I see a psychiatrist or something, I feel as if there is so much wrong with me. I think most of it has to do with being self conscious from being overweight when I was younger and faced off a lot off ridicule from my classmates, eventually making fun of myself to gain others approval. I lost all the weight but still feel like the fat kid I use to be, embarrassed of myself. I still haven't even kissed a girl for christsake. The one time I did, the girl I was talking to for a few weeks blacked out, and she pushed me off of her eventually, saying how much she loved this other kid to her friends. I got so angry and fed up, downing a whole handle of smirnoff in about an hour, just leaning against the wall during a party, gulping the bottle down smh.
Can anybody help me regain a life. What should I do!? Would quitting cannabis help, it sort of fogs my mind. I wanna take girls out on dates, educate myself, and pursue a career, but it is as if there are some shackles on my ankles preventing me from leaving my current state of mind. Should I try antidepressants from my doc or something? Someone please help me im honestly on the verge of tears and just feel like there is no life worth living, just wanting to go get as many pills I can and drink myself to death as my uncle had done in the past.
I know that if I focus I can achieve anything that come to mind, but after a period of focusing for a while I just say fuck this, start smoking ounces of cannabis every 1-2 weeks, and my grades just fall from 90's to 70's. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me. I am in my last year of highschool and have basically given up with around an 80-85avg, and with college coming, I would like to start over again.
During my period of high school, I was always seeking attention. Dealing large amounts of cannabis, being a class clown, popping pills in class, and drinking liquor in class from bottles, were some of the stupid things i've amounted to doing. I got out of school suspension in my school twice for drinking and another stupid stunt I pulled.
My parents are extremely loving and caring, while I am appreciative for that, they compensate by being the most overprotective people in the world. I'm not even allowed to hang out with my friends after 11, never allowed to drink as I am muslim and it is against my religion.
Should I see a psychiatrist or something, I feel as if there is so much wrong with me. I think most of it has to do with being self conscious from being overweight when I was younger and faced off a lot off ridicule from my classmates, eventually making fun of myself to gain others approval. I lost all the weight but still feel like the fat kid I use to be, embarrassed of myself. I still haven't even kissed a girl for christsake. The one time I did, the girl I was talking to for a few weeks blacked out, and she pushed me off of her eventually, saying how much she loved this other kid to her friends. I got so angry and fed up, downing a whole handle of smirnoff in about an hour, just leaning against the wall during a party, gulping the bottle down smh.
Can anybody help me regain a life. What should I do!? Would quitting cannabis help, it sort of fogs my mind. I wanna take girls out on dates, educate myself, and pursue a career, but it is as if there are some shackles on my ankles preventing me from leaving my current state of mind. Should I try antidepressants from my doc or something? Someone please help me im honestly on the verge of tears and just feel like there is no life worth living, just wanting to go get as many pills I can and drink myself to death as my uncle had done in the past.