HerbConnoisseur
Greenlighter
Hello there,
Still very new here, long time reader, however I'm a new user. About a week ago I made a post in the dark section about my struggles of my painkiller abuse, and how it has devastated my life. I have decided enough is enough, it is time for me to move on, and leave this part of my life behind me. To give you a little back story, I am 23 years old. I have been heavily abusing painkillers, hydrocodone in specifics, for 2-3 years non-stop. I was prescribed 90 10/325 for some sever injuries, and I've been on them since, at the end of my rope, I was taking anywhere from 15-20 a day on average. I'm only prescribed 90 per month, thus leaving me to the black market to retrieve the rest, at 5-7$ per pill, we're talking some big bucks. I'm not rich by any means, I have a very decent job, but not to where i can spent a couple grand a month on this pathetic habit I've acquired. I have decided to do somewhat of a rapid taper. I just received my prescription of 90. I also have a decent amount I have left before my refill. I am planning to give them to my fiance, who I've been with for 5 years, and has never known of my drug abuse. I just very recently sat down and told her where I'm at, and I need help. Amazingly she completely understood, and was willing to be with me every step of the way
I guess that's another reason why I decided to ask this amazing woman to marry me. So the game plan is, shes going to administer a set dose to me for 3 days intervals, dropping down 10-20mg at a time. I made sure I had enough medication for this process. Now I know there is some of you who will totally disagree with this method, but I think it will work for me. My mind is in a state where I want to be clean as much as I want oxygen in my lungs. I have a lot of people in my life, friends, family, nephews & nieces who all think quite highly of me, almost as a role model. This is mainly because I am an absolute expert at hiding my opiate abuse. I've come to the conclusion, this isn't just about me anymore, this is for the people I love in my life, I want to be around for awhile. Taking medication like i have for the past 2-3 years, will eventually kill me sooner or later, or run everyone out of my life completely. I don't wanna be broke, and alone, or better yet dead. I have overcome prior severe addictions, such and alcohol, cocaine, and pretty much anything else you can think of. I have a very colorful background.. I managed to always pull my head out of my behind, and get my head back on my shoulders. Opiates are a special kind of evil. I never would in a million years think, such a thing could be so powerful, and grab a hold of literally anyone. In my prior post I got nothing but positive feedback, which intern gave me that extra boost I needed to say "you know what, it's time to do this, and get your life back". If anyone has any tips for me that would be great, or if anyone has had prior experience with tapering and success, thank you for taking the time to read my post.
Still very new here, long time reader, however I'm a new user. About a week ago I made a post in the dark section about my struggles of my painkiller abuse, and how it has devastated my life. I have decided enough is enough, it is time for me to move on, and leave this part of my life behind me. To give you a little back story, I am 23 years old. I have been heavily abusing painkillers, hydrocodone in specifics, for 2-3 years non-stop. I was prescribed 90 10/325 for some sever injuries, and I've been on them since, at the end of my rope, I was taking anywhere from 15-20 a day on average. I'm only prescribed 90 per month, thus leaving me to the black market to retrieve the rest, at 5-7$ per pill, we're talking some big bucks. I'm not rich by any means, I have a very decent job, but not to where i can spent a couple grand a month on this pathetic habit I've acquired. I have decided to do somewhat of a rapid taper. I just received my prescription of 90. I also have a decent amount I have left before my refill. I am planning to give them to my fiance, who I've been with for 5 years, and has never known of my drug abuse. I just very recently sat down and told her where I'm at, and I need help. Amazingly she completely understood, and was willing to be with me every step of the way
I guess that's another reason why I decided to ask this amazing woman to marry me. So the game plan is, shes going to administer a set dose to me for 3 days intervals, dropping down 10-20mg at a time. I made sure I had enough medication for this process. Now I know there is some of you who will totally disagree with this method, but I think it will work for me. My mind is in a state where I want to be clean as much as I want oxygen in my lungs. I have a lot of people in my life, friends, family, nephews & nieces who all think quite highly of me, almost as a role model. This is mainly because I am an absolute expert at hiding my opiate abuse. I've come to the conclusion, this isn't just about me anymore, this is for the people I love in my life, I want to be around for awhile. Taking medication like i have for the past 2-3 years, will eventually kill me sooner or later, or run everyone out of my life completely. I don't wanna be broke, and alone, or better yet dead. I have overcome prior severe addictions, such and alcohol, cocaine, and pretty much anything else you can think of. I have a very colorful background.. I managed to always pull my head out of my behind, and get my head back on my shoulders. Opiates are a special kind of evil. I never would in a million years think, such a thing could be so powerful, and grab a hold of literally anyone. In my prior post I got nothing but positive feedback, which intern gave me that extra boost I needed to say "you know what, it's time to do this, and get your life back". If anyone has any tips for me that would be great, or if anyone has had prior experience with tapering and success, thank you for taking the time to read my post.
