Going back to rehab

[aihfl]

I've just come off a two week drinking binge. I think I really need to go back to rehab. I self-detoxed (my ex girlfriend took my wallet and keys so I couldn't taper - not that tapering always works or get my Ativan prescripton filled) I feel like shit, my life and my house is a mess and I can barely take care of myself. 28 days last time didn't do it. I think I need a 60 day program. I'm sick of this hell. I think alcohol withdrawal is the worst of all the substances I've abused. I haven't eaten in days - I can't even keep water down. I haven't had any alcohol in over 24 hours and I still have a .01 BAC.

 

[nygiants1313]

Congrats on the previous 30. Although you just binged, knowing you can do 30 is something special as not many can. Everyone falls, but ya gotta get back up. What triggered this binge? Because learning to handle whatever causes this will be what keeps you frim drinking, not an extra 30 days. Do that soul searching and be honest with yourself.

Regardless you can do this soul searching while at 60 day rehab ? so if u think u need it, then ur right, you do. So take care of business and keep your head up. And just maybe this will be the last time. Stay positive ?

 

[manboychef]

You should check out lifestream behavioral healthcare. It straightened me out. If you want since I am on the way you will need to take to get there, you can pick me up or I will follow you up in my car and wait with you during your intake. Here is their website. It is in leesburg so I will buy you lunch at the sonic before you go into detox.

Lifestream Detox, Long term residential rehab, and IOP

 

[aihfl]

Thanks. I'll give them a call today. I detoxed myself with Ativan (having been medically detoxed 6-7 times, I know the drill for the Ativan taper) so I won't need to be detoxed, I'll just go straight into residential. And I'm in the middle of a nasty divorce so I have to see what's going on with that before I lock myself up for two months.

 

[aihfl]

Ugh, just visited the first of the four rehabs I've made inquiries at. Why do I always feel dirty like I've just talked to the slickest of used car salesmen afterwards? Every time I would ask what the bottom line would be…"Think of it as an investment in the rest of your life." Fuck you, it's my money, it's going to cost a lot and I have a fucking right to know. It's this part of rehab that makes me cynical about the treatment industry. They really might care (they might not) but damn, do they want your money in the worst way.

This first place is out of the question. I have to commit to living in a sober living house immediately upon discharge (which I concede is not a bad idea where I'm at), but I'm not paying through the nose to break a lease. Also they'd cold turkey me off benzos and that scares the shit out of me. At least they were upfront about it.

EDIT: This was weird: when I told them that unless I fell of the wagon again before intake, I would not need detox. The guy hemmed and hawed and finally he said, "well that's something you'd have to talk to our psychiatrist about." They'd detox someone who's detoxed? W-T-F?????

EDIT: The admissions guy kept calling benzos a narcotic. What a dumbfuck, especially for a former junkie himself. I called him out on it and explained to him controlled substance≠narcotic. If that's the knowledgeability of the people working there…NO THANK YOU

 

[Moreaux]

Ugh, just visited the first of the four rehabs I've made inquiries at. Why do I always feel dirty like I've just talked to the slickest of used car salesmen afterwards? Every time I would ask what the bottom line would be…"Think of it as an investment in the rest of your life." Fuck you, it's my money, it's going to cost a lot and I have a fucking right to know. It's this part of rehab that makes me cynical about the treatment industry. They really might care (they might not) but damn, do they want your money in the worst way.

This first place is out of the question. I have to commit to living in a sober living house immediately upon discharge (which I concede is not a bad idea where I'm at), but I'm not paying through the nose to break a lease. Also they'd cold turkey me off benzos and that scares the shit out of me. At least they were upfront about it.

EDIT: This was weird: when I told them that unless I fell of the wagon again before intake, I would not need detox. The guy hemmed and hawed and finally he said, "well that's something you'd have to talk to our psychiatrist about." They'd detox someone who's detoxed? W-T-F?????

EDIT: The admissions guy kept calling benzos a narcotic. What a dumbfuck, especially for a former junkie himself. I called him out on it and explained to him controlled substance≠narcotic. If that's the knowledgeability of the people working there…NO THANK YOU

A benzo taper may not necessarily be a bad thing if you've been using benzos regularly. I was a terrible alcoholic with an endless supply of benzos. I found as long as I was still taking benzos I couldn't stay away from booze for any decent length of time. My first stint in rehab I was cut off from both benzos and booze cold turkey. The program was 28 days. The issues with getting off benzos didn't really hit me until I was out of the facility. I relapsed on booze shortly after being out of rehab. I continued to drink for a few months, and then was able to quit for a year. I tried my hardest to stay away from booze, but the benzo PAWS was so terrible I started drinking again. During this time I tried naltrexone in both pill and shot forms. While I wasn't able to quit drinking, it did help me to drink less. I'm 5 foot 2, female, and weighed 120 lbs and was drinking between 18 - 24 beers a day. Many days I would drink more or throw liquor on top of the beer. I finally checked myself back into rehab, and had everything scheduled to get the shot a few days before I was set to leave. I found that getting the shot before leaving made a huge impact in my success at being sober once I left treatment. I didn't have cravings or obsessive thoughts regarding alcohol. I stayed on the shot for 8 months. I feel like it's reset my brain to how it was before I was an alcoholic. I am no longer tempted to drink, even if I smell it or am around it. I don't have cravings either. I've been sober for two years, and never in my wildest dreams thought I would be able to go this long. I wanted to share my experience in hopes that it may help you. Alcoholism is insidious, and it's a killer. I have lost so many friends to the disease I have lost count.

Kudos to you for seeking out treatment! I wish you the best!