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a good start to the new year and the rest of my life

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Fatjosh

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Well for the past 2 months I have been tapering from 320mg of oxy. At the end of November I switched to 4 mg of suboxone for 2 weeks then methadone for 2 weeks. December 30 was my last 20mg dose of methadone cause I wanted to start the new year clean. 4 days doesn't seem like a lot to some but I'm hopefull because it feels a lot longer. I haven't been high in over 2 months and I am now to the point of completely detoxing.

It really hasn't been bad doing it this way with the suboxone and methadone. I have used a little kratom and immodium at night along with a little benzo to put me out but only 2 more days of that and I will be done with the benzos and kratom.

I have a very positive outlook this time as it will be my first time getting sober without a significant other. Being in a relationship has always sabotaged my sobriety so a 1 year dating hiatus is in place. My plan is to carry a rape whistle and any chick that I find attractive that tries to conversate with me will get a quick toot of the rape whistle as I kick her right in her bearded clam and run for the hills! So here's to the new year and a new life cheers everyone!
 
Cheers mate.
I am on day 3 of heroin withdrawal and I am still feeling very hopeful.
There are others here going thru the exact same thing as us!

To a new year, and a new life my friend!
 
Awesome stuff man. Congrats on the taper. That takes some crazy discipline to stick to a strict taper plan. I've never been one to possess that willpower for that effort. Hope your coming days are better and better. I'm 3 full days off the oxy myself. Have had minor amount of codeine and a few 5's of hydro but that's a helluva lot different than up to 100 or so mg of oxy in a day which is what I was capable of any day before then. Definitely keep us posted on your progress if ya would. Best of luck to ya!
 
Congrats on the 3 days to u too, I hope things go smoothly for u too buddy. Remember "one day at a time" that's what I'm telling myself atleast! Thanks for the kind words brother
 
Congratulations, Fatjosh! I think that you are very wise to make this about you and you alone. Relationships may be wonderful when they are wonderful but they can certainly get you off course and distract you when they are falling apart. Learning to rely on yourself, healing your own wounds and creating a good relationship with your life makes all other relationships healthier and less about need than love. Stay strong and keep going!<3
 
Have to agree with herbavore on that. I've been on a dating hiatus myself until I can get some good quality time in on my own. Plus it gives me time to whip my body back into shape, doesn't take long, but I feel a lot more confident when I'm in good shape. I see it as a win/win. Physical activity is the best thing for getting the brain back on track to feel good as well imho.
 
That is my exact sentiment herbavore, I gotta learn to love me again before I can try to love somone els. Last time I got sober while a relationship was budding and in that vulnerable state the relationship worked it's way into my self worth if that makes any difference.

Stillkickin- I need to get into better shape I have always been a big guy but I have definitely been in better shape which helps tremendously with self confidence and women in general so I need to get more active for sure. Thank you both
 
Fatjosh said:
Stillkickin- I need to get into better shape I have always been a big guy but I have definitely been in better shape which helps tremendously with self confidence and women in general so I need to get more active for sure. Thank you both
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Definitely man, just start somewhere, whether it be a walk down the road and back or whatever. I have stayed in relatively good shape my whole life. I am blessed with a very fast metabolism and also not so blessed with pretty bad chronic stomach problems. Between those two, I always stay thin regardless of what I eat. I have to exercise though to stay healthy as thin doesn't equal healthy. Today was my 3rd day back in the gym after a 5-7 month absence. So sore, but very worth it.
 
I wish I had a hard time gaining weight lol so u started back at the gym with all the new year new me people hahahaha
 
Fatjosh said:
I wish I had a hard time gaining weight lol so u started back at the gym with all the new year new me people hahahaha
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Dude, I used to be a person that resented the new year's resolutioners (still am to a degree but who am I to question anyone that wants to make a better themself??) .... Sucks that my timing meets up with all of them. I used to always watch as the crazy influx of people would be there at the new year and then trickle out over the next 40 days. It happens every year without fail. I'll still be there though over the next few months regardless if things go proper.
 
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