Bitchniggaz
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I know there is a trip report section here.
However i feel i need to share this in a more discussion kind of setting!
To start of, its not the first time ive done this, a few years ao i managed to open this gateway before with dpt.
That time a few gollum looking demons came through and messed with me, they looked very very real however they didnt have material form.
They did have the power to go in my head and basicly mind rape me!
Pure fear is the only thing they wanted me to fell, they wanted me to flip out and kill myself, that time i was all alone also.
Anyway they left once the dpt wore off and i just burst into tears of happyness to be alive basicly.
fast forward 2years and i did it again!
This time i was on some 4-aco-dmt and mescaline, the trip was awesome and i was feeling like god himself.
Well untill i injected a shitbunch of dpt in my deltoid that is!
At first it was very very good to me, i felt that i conquered my fears and i started mocking the dark creatures to come and try to scare me!
Big mistake that was!
After my last redose i felt how the whole room started shaking, i was getting very very messed up.
I went back to my living room where a lady friend of mine was chilling, she had not taken anything except smoked some hash.
And this is where shit gets very very weird!
My reality splits into 2 seperate timelines, in the first timeline i feel the gateway open just like it did a few years ago, however this time they are alot more of these dark hellspawn, and they are pissed off!
First i just lay there and try to ride it out, however i notice that my friend is also feeling them!
She is sober but got sucked into my trip!
We lay there on the couch scared to death since we are under attack by real fucking demons!!!
I tell her we are gonna make it and we just have to ride it out, they dont have much time and they cant really hurt us.
At the same time this is happening im deep into a very weird vision, im having a conversation with my friend, but she is not her.
She is this vampire looking kind of demonic hell bitch.
I was playing the role of satan and she was my mistress.
We have this very weird sexual energy and it was like we overtaken by these ancient hellish overlords.
Also while all of this is happening im getting fed with enormous amounts of information about all kinds of very dark stuff, about how the humans have been corrupted by greed and fear etc.
It all ends with me throwing up on my floor in a very nasty fashion!
Im totally shook and very very scared from what we have experienced.
All in all this was a very intense and frightening experience, i am lucky enough to know a ayahuasca shaman who i talked to after this.
She told me that all of this is probably just my deep fears manifesting in the form of demons and devils.
That whatever im really scared off might be something much worse(suppresed abuse or similar)
, and that i need to make this storyline in my head to explain how i feel.
IDk really, it was very real and im never touching dpt again.
Also i want to add that im not really a religous guy, i dont have any christianity in my family so its weird to see these kinds of visions.
Ive done alot of psychs including ayauasca a bunch.
And im a true doubter of everything, however i do feel a shamanic calling and this just be a part of my training.
I never get these realistic visions except from dpt, im usually in fractal land just chillin.
This was very different and almost more real then anything ive experienced before.
However i feel i need to share this in a more discussion kind of setting!
To start of, its not the first time ive done this, a few years ao i managed to open this gateway before with dpt.
That time a few gollum looking demons came through and messed with me, they looked very very real however they didnt have material form.
They did have the power to go in my head and basicly mind rape me!
Pure fear is the only thing they wanted me to fell, they wanted me to flip out and kill myself, that time i was all alone also.
Anyway they left once the dpt wore off and i just burst into tears of happyness to be alive basicly.
fast forward 2years and i did it again!
This time i was on some 4-aco-dmt and mescaline, the trip was awesome and i was feeling like god himself.
Well untill i injected a shitbunch of dpt in my deltoid that is!
At first it was very very good to me, i felt that i conquered my fears and i started mocking the dark creatures to come and try to scare me!
Big mistake that was!
After my last redose i felt how the whole room started shaking, i was getting very very messed up.
I went back to my living room where a lady friend of mine was chilling, she had not taken anything except smoked some hash.
And this is where shit gets very very weird!
My reality splits into 2 seperate timelines, in the first timeline i feel the gateway open just like it did a few years ago, however this time they are alot more of these dark hellspawn, and they are pissed off!
First i just lay there and try to ride it out, however i notice that my friend is also feeling them!
She is sober but got sucked into my trip!
We lay there on the couch scared to death since we are under attack by real fucking demons!!!
I tell her we are gonna make it and we just have to ride it out, they dont have much time and they cant really hurt us.
At the same time this is happening im deep into a very weird vision, im having a conversation with my friend, but she is not her.
She is this vampire looking kind of demonic hell bitch.
I was playing the role of satan and she was my mistress.
We have this very weird sexual energy and it was like we overtaken by these ancient hellish overlords.
Also while all of this is happening im getting fed with enormous amounts of information about all kinds of very dark stuff, about how the humans have been corrupted by greed and fear etc.
It all ends with me throwing up on my floor in a very nasty fashion!
Im totally shook and very very scared from what we have experienced.
All in all this was a very intense and frightening experience, i am lucky enough to know a ayahuasca shaman who i talked to after this.
She told me that all of this is probably just my deep fears manifesting in the form of demons and devils.
That whatever im really scared off might be something much worse(suppresed abuse or similar)
, and that i need to make this storyline in my head to explain how i feel.
IDk really, it was very real and im never touching dpt again.
Also i want to add that im not really a religous guy, i dont have any christianity in my family so its weird to see these kinds of visions.
Ive done alot of psychs including ayauasca a bunch.
And im a true doubter of everything, however i do feel a shamanic calling and this just be a part of my training.
I never get these realistic visions except from dpt, im usually in fractal land just chillin.
This was very different and almost more real then anything ive experienced before.
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