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Welp- I'm off to rehab

bdomihizayka

bdomihizayka

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I cannot kick suboxone. It has won. I tried everything, and ended up with a benzo dependency as an added bonus for my tirals and tribulations.

I have been on 1mg of klonopin for 5 months (initially to get off subs, now just to maintain). I don't abuse it.

I have come off benzos before- 5mg of valium after 3 or 4 months and was stuck in depersonalization/ derealization permatrip mode for nearly a month. I have no idea how i got through it because I was literally panicking every moment of the day.

I am scared to death this is going to be so much worse and last so much longer as 5mg of valium is merely .5 - .25mg of klonopin.




Any tips? How to get through depersonalization/derealization?

Anyone have any profound questions they want answered as I'm blasted off into the benzo astral-plane?
 
I wish you luck man

I'm pretty sure i'm right behind ya.

Cant get off shit. Goin back and forth between sub/oxy/heroin

Got a court case in 1 month for heroin possession. I think rehab will help with that as well as in general.

Good luck man, shy fukin sucks. I feel your pain. Just know you're not alone
 
nygiants1313 said:
I wish you luck man

I'm pretty sure i'm right behind ya.

Cant get off shit. Goin back and forth between sub/oxy/heroin

Got a court case in 1 month for heroin possession. I think rehab will help with that as well as in general.

Good luck man, shy fukin sucks. I feel your pain. Just know you're not alone
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Definitely go to rehab. Don't know about NY but in Jersey it's usually an automatic aquital / bumped down to something stupid if you go to rehab.

It's so much easier withdrawaling around others going through the same thing. It's just that not so many people get hit so bad with benzos where the withdrawal lasts months and you don't even feel human and you're permatripin'.

Good luck and thank you dude!
 
Curious as to how they get you off suboxene, I was in rehab for alcohol but my rehab drugged us all into oblivion and gave all the opiate users suboxene.
They even made me take phenobarbital when I showed up sober with no sign of withdrawals after a few days of staying clean already.
 
how much subs do u maintain at? you know that you can't just jump off of suboxone right? you must taper down to nothing, have you been doing that? And I don't mean jumping off at 1mg... no.. i mean tapering down to half a mg then even cutting that in half and so on.

subs is very tough i know, i been on and off a regime for 4 years but the key to getting off is tapering. only reason why i fail once i get down to 0mg is because i never work on my self while I'm on the regime. lemme know if u have any questions.
 
mrsnowygrainius said:
how much subs do u maintain at? you know that you can't just jump off of suboxone right? you must taper down to nothing, have you been doing that? And I don't mean jumping off at 1mg... no.. i mean tapering down to half a mg then even cutting that in half and so on.

subs is very tough i know, i been on and off a regime for 4 years but the key to getting off is tapering. only reason why i fail once i get down to 0mg is because i never work on my self while I'm on the regime. lemme know if u have any questions.
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Agree, OP I take it you've tried to stop subs n u didn't last right? ...what was the last dose u took & jumped from? I've lowered from 8mg to the .4mg I'm on now (less than half of 1mg) & the w/d's have been extremely minor....like easiest of my life I wish all w/d's were like this, although I am nervous to go lower n stop taking them altogether
 
mrsnowygrainius said:
how much subs do u maintain at? you know that you can't just jump off of suboxone right? you must taper down to nothing, have you been doing that? And I don't mean jumping off at 1mg... no.. i mean tapering down to half a mg then even cutting that in half and so on.

subs is very tough i know, i been on and off a regime for 4 years but the key to getting off is tapering. only reason why i fail once i get down to 0mg is because i never work on my self while I'm on the regime. lemme know if u have any questions.
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poloblue said:
Agree, OP I take it you've tried to stop subs n u didn't last right? ...what was the last dose u took & jumped from? I've lowered from 8mg to the .4mg I'm on now (less than half of 1mg) & the w/d's have been extremely minor....like easiest of my life I wish all w/d's were like this, although I am nervous to go lower n stop taking them altogether
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I am on crumbs of a 2mg pill a day. I'd say .25mg. And honestly, it's just because I'm a bitch about withdrawal- it's not terrible by any means, but I feel any discomfort, then there's a magnet in my car that starts driving right to North Philly/ Camden which I am 10 minutes away from in Jersey lol. The whole knowing I can feel better instantly part is what always gets me. The sub withdrawal is tolerable, I admit, a little restless legs, and no regulation of your body temperature- hot cold hot cold, maybe a little insomnia.... it's all a head game, and I just cannot seem to win it- though I do want sobriety, I am definitely done with chasing the dragon, or at least want to be when this is all over.
 
Yeh I guess I ain't doin as good as I thought lol the head games fuckin w/ me too. Wish you best of luck
 
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