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I have been using 4- 10/325 a day for about a year and had been up to 8 a day for a little bit but noticed I had a problem. So I backed down to 4 a day and 4 days ago I took only 1 in the morning and half at night. Then the last 3 days only half in the morning. I have had most of wds but not as bad as I have read described on here. I have no more and am nervous about what is about to happen. Do you think it will get worse or do you think I'm ok. Thanks and good luck to everyone.
 
If you stop taking the drug completely then you will have more withdrawals that will last about a week. It shouldn't be much worse than what you have already felt though.
 
For me I felt like that week I tapered off using 10/325 and the anticipation of getting the withdrawals were worse than the withdrawls themselves. Keep a positive outlook, keep your mind busy and look up the Thomas Recipe. It helped me a ton. It goes by faster then you feel like it will. I'm on Day 41. All physical symptoms were gone awhile ago. The mental part is sticking around but that just takes time. Believe in yourself and really want to quit!! It will be uncomfortable but you can do it ?
 
But does taking 5mg after taking 40-50 really prolong the withdraws or does it help?
 
It is better to follow a taper plan. If you are already at zero it is probably just better to ride it out. That 5mg will make you feel better for a half hour, but afterwards you will be right back where you were.

You are at a point now before you move on to more potent opiates. Stop digging, you struck oil my friend. If you can make it through this week, and then setup some sort of support to stay sober you have a very high likelihood of making it long term.
 
manboychef said:
It is better to follow a taper plan. If you are already at zero it is probably just better to ride it out. That 5mg will make you feel better for a half hour, but afterwards you will be right back where you were.

You are at a point now before you move on to more potent opiates. Stop digging, you struck oil my friend. If you can make it through this week, and then setup some sort of support to stay sober you have a very high likelihood of making it long term.
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Exactly. A little bit of pain over the next 3 or 4 days will save you mountains of pain over the long term.
 
Thank you for the support. I have no more, came completely clean to my wife, and am not getting anymore. I'm just hoping the wds don't get any worse because I have a good job that provides our insurance. But I will make it and having an amazing wife that is here to support me. Was just curious of what I was in for.
 
Good job!! You have not only dodged a bullet, but a grenade launcher in terms of how this could and will turn out if you went forward with opiate abuse. The ending is the same with opiate abuse, just the variable of circumstances.

So glad you have a supportive wife....that is huge. Its amazing that you put a stop to it. I know that wasnt' easy.
 
25 hrs since I put an opiate in my body. No motivation but stomach isn't that bad. Didn't sleep much. But I feel ok. Let honest sobriety begin. You guys are a great motivation. I'm not a junkie, but I am an addict. No different from a junkie other than I got very lucky my wife had noticed my upswing at one point and asked. ( I ofcourse lied)
 
Just wanted you check in and see how it's going? I would have checked in earlier but was dealing with family stuff. Stuff that I usually would run straight for a pill just to numb myself but I held strong. The emotional part is still there and I'm dealing with a lot but I feel clear. Once you can own your emotions and just except them for what they are it's easier too get through. Sorry venting on your post!! Hope all is well ❤ Glad your wife is with you. Didn't feel good telling?!?
 
You are through the woods of withdrawal...now the real work begins; "Who am I and how do I deal with life without drugs?"

This is a question you have to ask yourself everyday. Remember, small advancements end up equally big change!
 
It's been one week and the fear was the worst part. Don't sleep well but that is the only physical symptom that remains. Mentally I feel ok. I don't want for it at all but I keep in mind how fast it happened and won't let myself off the hook for it. Not punishing myself but remind myself. I'm very lucky to have my wife and all the little things and never had pushed to the levels of others. Definately can see how quick it can progress. Thanks for the support. I hope one day to be able to pay it back to someone else.
 
One thing to do is set goals for yourself. Accomplish small things....even if it is just telling your wife you love her and wrapping her up in a hug with a deep passionate kiss. Even if it is just playing with your kids for a while. Even if it is just writing a journal entry.

making babysteps you will be surprised at how fast you make it to a goal.

Be wary though of "moving goal posts". This is when you set a goal for yourself, accomplish it and don't congratulate yourself or feel any sort of pleasure because you think to yourself "I could have done it better"

Here is a goal post I have read in your posts. You made it a week and you are understanding the symptom that is causing you anguish. Be proud...many people don't understand why they feel the way they feel.

have you considered a therapist? This will be a tool in the old toolbox of sobriety that has been beneficial not just to myself but to many others.
 
You'll be fine. Just don't buy any more pain pills or other opiates such as heroin. If you still feel the need to get high in some way, try OTC Benzedrex or marijuana.
 
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