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ScotchMist
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Ha
In drug news I seemed to of ballsed up rocking this coke up.. I just tried it with 250mg to start with, think I put too much water in to start with. Put it by the fire to dry it out, see how that goes...
Just noticed that the guy also put a couple if pills in too, pink Brietling. Looked on PR, found a single and vague report.
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Sprout
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The animals who are massacring innocent men, women, and children allowed those who could recite their delusion/Shahada to leave the Mali hotel today, as did Al Qaeda (well, technically The Shabab) in Nairobi a few years ago.
Thus, these few words bear learning: Ash-hadu an laa ilaaha illallah
“I bear witness that there is no god except Allah”
Wa ash-hadu anna Muhammadan rasulullah
“And I bear witness that Muhammad is the messenger of Allah.”
Thus, these few words bear learning: Ash-hadu an laa ilaaha illallah
“I bear witness that there is no god except Allah”
Wa ash-hadu anna Muhammadan rasulullah
“And I bear witness that Muhammad is the messenger of Allah.”
mmmm that looks nice, havent done any in time but never rated it as an indoor drug.
Hope you got rocked up, were you just heating in a spoon ? worst comes to worst you could plug it and have a numb bum :D
Now go get some ammonia and get on it like Whitney
Hope you got rocked up, were you just heating in a spoon ? worst comes to worst you could plug it and have a numb bum :D
Now go get some ammonia and get on it like Whitney
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Do you ever think of your ex's and want to die ![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
not because she is bad, but you fucked it, and everything since. I just cannot think since and feel like it will be like this forever.
not because she is bad, but you fucked it, and everything since. I just cannot think since and feel like it will be like this forever.Do you ever think of your ex's and want to die
I can't say I do, I've been with Mrs A for nearly 30 years, coincidentally she decked my ex with one punch many moons ago.
We've been together since we were 15, I can't even bear to contemplate losing her....I would be fucked
Sprout
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^^I may have been fucked, but I meant every word I spoke/typed when we stim-ranted about feelingzzz.
Your love for Mrs Allein is a goal I still strive for.
On the subject of relationships, I've broke down and cried six fucking times today (yesterday?) upon trying to incorporate the fact that the woman I planned to marry was the definition of emotionally abusive.
I was ordered, point blank, tio not open my mouth, in the literal sense, in public due to her fear of someone noticing I have a filling on a molar tooth...
Sadie
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Aw, cuddles her sprout
Evening all you sexy fuckers. Hope everyone's night has been good. Just in from work and I'm bloody shattered!
Evening all you sexy fuckers. Hope everyone's night has been good. Just in from work and I'm bloody shattered!
I may have been fucked, but I meant every word I spoke/typed when we stim-ranted about feelingzzz.
I wasnt making any reference to your good self, I would be genuinely fucked.
Sorry to hear of your bad day, crying is a good thing and something I genuinely wish I did more easily.
Me and Mrs A have had some dark and difficult times over the years but I have never regretted being with her, we spent our 20s partying hard and generally misbehaving, well I did most of the misbehaving but Mrs A could rip up the floor for 10 hours with the best of them
Now we have 2 kids and I would need surgery if I tried dancing like that for more than 30 seconds, we have a good life and I consider myself a very lucky loser
I'm clearly no expert in relationships given my narrow experience but I would say that if you want something more than superficial you have to open up and that carries the real risk that you will feel pain, I would say it shows you are genuine in your intentions but I doubt that;s much comfort
Sprout
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Oh for fuck's fucking sake.
I came out 5 years ago and my family somehow possesses the cognitive dissonance to completely forget that, and now tomorrow I'm going to have to do it all over a-fucking-gain.
I came out 5 years ago and my family somehow possesses the cognitive dissonance to completely forget that, and now tomorrow I'm going to have to do it all over a-fucking-gain.
Jesus, that is fukin rough
Do you think it's some kind of denial? or they didnt take it all in the first time around.
Family drives me nuts, I will place money that my father in law tries to fouste (sp) alcohol on me over and over again this Xmas despite me not having touched the stuff for a good 3 years or more. I've told him multiple times that I don't drink anymore because it doesnt help my depression, he must know I was drinking too much as well FFS.
I can do no wrong in my mothers eyes, which is nice if I'm honest. She just doesnt ever mention drugs or booze but it is more than obvious that I've been into more than Tizer over the years, they had to lock me up for a bit and she came to see me ! my father who I never connected with is now lost to dementia, which is shit.
Families can't live with 'em....wouldnt be livin at all without them
Do you think it's some kind of denial? or they didnt take it all in the first time around.
Family drives me nuts, I will place money that my father in law tries to fouste (sp) alcohol on me over and over again this Xmas despite me not having touched the stuff for a good 3 years or more. I've told him multiple times that I don't drink anymore because it doesnt help my depression, he must know I was drinking too much as well FFS.
I can do no wrong in my mothers eyes, which is nice if I'm honest. She just doesnt ever mention drugs or booze but it is more than obvious that I've been into more than Tizer over the years, they had to lock me up for a bit and she came to see me ! my father who I never connected with is now lost to dementia, which is shit.
Families can't live with 'em....wouldnt be livin at all without them
Sadie
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Oddly enough all of my "family" aside from my kids are not blood related. They are my only family I'm actually blood related to.
I think that's why I tend to form close bonds to the ones I care about. Mutual love and sense of family.
I think that's why I tend to form close bonds to the ones I care about. Mutual love and sense of family.
Good morning ma'am
I'm blood related to most of mine but most of the relationships are dysfunctional at their very core, although I'm no longer at odds with any of them.
I hope my kids wont view me the same way, I try to do the things I felt were missing.
I just don't enjoy family gatherings and such and never have but as the parents have got older ( we lost my mother law some years ago) they need our help and care, in both cases me and Mrs A are not the only children but the other lives a distance away and tends to do FA to help in looking out for them. My older brother was in denial for a long time about my fathers illness suggesting it was all in my (deranged) mind, he promised to speak to our mother and let me down...twice.
It's a weird situation where me, the black sheep who never got on with him has ended up in a role reversal as he regresses whilst my brother continues to ignore the problems my mother faces.
I used to get annoyed with them but I see now that they have failings like I do and I appreciate their tolerance of me also, I'm not close to my brother but we get along and I would do anything for him at anytime, but happy families is will never be
I'm blood related to most of mine but most of the relationships are dysfunctional at their very core, although I'm no longer at odds with any of them.
I hope my kids wont view me the same way, I try to do the things I felt were missing.
I just don't enjoy family gatherings and such and never have but as the parents have got older ( we lost my mother law some years ago) they need our help and care, in both cases me and Mrs A are not the only children but the other lives a distance away and tends to do FA to help in looking out for them. My older brother was in denial for a long time about my fathers illness suggesting it was all in my (deranged) mind, he promised to speak to our mother and let me down...twice.
It's a weird situation where me, the black sheep who never got on with him has ended up in a role reversal as he regresses whilst my brother continues to ignore the problems my mother faces.
I used to get annoyed with them but I see now that they have failings like I do and I appreciate their tolerance of me also, I'm not close to my brother but we get along and I would do anything for him at anytime, but happy families is will never be
Sadie
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Sounds a lot like the dynamics of my soon to be ex In-law family. They're so odd. When my blood related family were alive we were so close. I base all my relationships with people based on the love that I got in my own childhood. ( Don't get me wrong, it wasn't perfect ) Love was always abundant.
I'm sorry to hear about the passing of your mother. My mother hung on until I flew back from Germany. She lasted two weeks. My heart has never recovered. She was my best friend. Fuck I'm crying now and she died in 2002! I do miss her so damn much.
I don't know how I would cope if I had to see her go the same way as your father. You're a good son. Black sheep happen to be the best and most unique of them all. Wear your colour with pride. You're a great son! Perhaps it's because you care and have a heart.
I'm sorry to hear about the passing of your mother. My mother hung on until I flew back from Germany. She lasted two weeks. My heart has never recovered. She was my best friend. Fuck I'm crying now and she died in 2002! I do miss her so damn much.
I don't know how I would cope if I had to see her go the same way as your father. You're a good son. Black sheep happen to be the best and most unique of them all. Wear your colour with pride. You're a great son! Perhaps it's because you care and have a heart.
It was my mother in law that died after a long fight with cancer that went on for 7 years, its been maybe 3 or 4 years but Mrs A is still deeply affected by it, the end was dreadful.
We manged to get her father to sell up and move into a bungalow just down the road from us, he has been more of a father to me TBH and was very kind to me when I had a full on wobble and lost the plot a few years ago.
My parents don't live far away and I'm grateful to have become closer to my mother and Mrs A is the daughter she never had. My parents relationship was always quite volatile and as a grew older I didnt like the way he treated her and behaved....complicated like anyones family. When he retired he went down hill fast, I think it was depression to start with but I started to notice other unusual problems with his cognition and changes in his behaviour, I knew it was dementia but felt helpless.
Things progressed and he started to become really aggressive towards my mother which enabled a conversion which eventually led to us finding a way to get him to the doctors on another premise. They can't do much for his condition but they do monitor its progress and offer support to my mum.
I'm lucky in many ways, my childhood was stable in terms of a home environment and I never felt poor. I don't think I've ever met someone with a 'normal' family so I don't think I've had a raw deal.
We manged to get her father to sell up and move into a bungalow just down the road from us, he has been more of a father to me TBH and was very kind to me when I had a full on wobble and lost the plot a few years ago.
My parents don't live far away and I'm grateful to have become closer to my mother and Mrs A is the daughter she never had. My parents relationship was always quite volatile and as a grew older I didnt like the way he treated her and behaved....complicated like anyones family. When he retired he went down hill fast, I think it was depression to start with but I started to notice other unusual problems with his cognition and changes in his behaviour, I knew it was dementia but felt helpless.
Things progressed and he started to become really aggressive towards my mother which enabled a conversion which eventually led to us finding a way to get him to the doctors on another premise. They can't do much for his condition but they do monitor its progress and offer support to my mum.
I'm lucky in many ways, my childhood was stable in terms of a home environment and I never felt poor. I don't think I've ever met someone with a 'normal' family so I don't think I've had a raw deal.
Sadie
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Yeah, there were a few "bumps" in my childhood that no child should have to go through but hey, as you say, no one's was perfect.
Sorry, I got mixed up. I doubt your Mrs will ever be the same. I find my own way in life but having my mum there to comfort or encourage me will be something I can never get back. It's good to know you have your loved ones so close around you. My life is complicated. My "uncle" who is not my uncle he's married to my godmother was pretty much a father to me. He always made sure he included me in every holiday, camping trip etc. I'm having to hear stories from back home how he's going down hill fast! It breaks my heart. I don't wanna lose him too!
Sounds like you've got an amazing father in law. Your wife is a lucky girl to have been gifted such wonderful parents. You're lucky too.
Sadly aggression can be one of the side affects of dementia. Confusion leads to frustration rapidly.
Sorry, I got mixed up. I doubt your Mrs will ever be the same. I find my own way in life but having my mum there to comfort or encourage me will be something I can never get back. It's good to know you have your loved ones so close around you. My life is complicated. My "uncle" who is not my uncle he's married to my godmother was pretty much a father to me. He always made sure he included me in every holiday, camping trip etc. I'm having to hear stories from back home how he's going down hill fast! It breaks my heart. I don't wanna lose him too!
Sounds like you've got an amazing father in law. Your wife is a lucky girl to have been gifted such wonderful parents. You're lucky too.
Sadly aggression can be one of the side affects of dementia. Confusion leads to frustration rapidly.
My father in law is a pain in the arse much of the time, like his mother he is a constant prophet of doom...you have a headache you're bound to have a blood clot or something. His anxiety makes mine pale into insignificance and he has a very narrow view of the world largely sourced from the daily mail.
But he is a kind a sensitive man who cared for his wife and didnt crumble in her time of need and has always (well maybe not so much when I showed up at the house at 15) been good to me and made me feel like he was happy with his daughter choice.
He spends almost all his time working on a large National Trust estate as a volunteer, I'm humbled by the way he has managed without his wife, I know he is broken by it but the our kids and his children keep him going, she was a formidable woman and wouldnt be impressed if he rolled over and gave up.
But he is a kind a sensitive man who cared for his wife and didnt crumble in her time of need and has always (well maybe not so much when I showed up at the house at 15) been good to me and made me feel like he was happy with his daughter choice.
He spends almost all his time working on a large National Trust estate as a volunteer, I'm humbled by the way he has managed without his wife, I know he is broken by it but the our kids and his children keep him going, she was a formidable woman and wouldnt be impressed if he rolled over and gave up.
Sadie
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I couldn't / don't want to ever think about a life with out Sham. I know we're in the honeymoon phase but it doesn't bear thinking about. No one wants to lose the one they love. We've only just come upon our one year anniversary with hopefully many more years to come. That must be so damn hard!
HAHA, He sounds so much Like Sham! He's such a hypochondriac. It's adorable and... WHAAAAAAAAA at the same time!
You sound like you adore your wife, of course he's proud. You only want your baby to be as loved as you love them. As parents we can understand this. You cherish his baby girl, that's respect!
HAHA, He sounds so much Like Sham! He's such a hypochondriac. It's adorable and... WHAAAAAAAAA at the same time!
You sound like you adore your wife, of course he's proud. You only want your baby to be as loved as you love them. As parents we can understand this. You cherish his baby girl, that's respect!
I guess if you commit your life to someone you may have to face that in the end, you save them from it in doing so.
We lost a close friend recently, she was one half of a couple we've known for 20+ years and probably the closest friends I have despite them not living very near. She was diagnosed with lung cancer and died in 6 weeks, 2 children and a partner who is just inconsolable. I was one of those to carry the coffin at her funeral, it was a tough day, she had a little time to make plans, we even managed to get her to Strawberry Fair in the sunshine.
She had this played at the end of the funeral which was a big tune from the free parties we used to go to together, I still can't believe she has gone, I loved her so very much but she had her time to shine and shine she did.
I have a daughter just about to turn 13, I've seen no indication of romance as yet but I'm getting my head round it in advance....I have tactics
It is fekin snowing outside...cheek of it
We lost a close friend recently, she was one half of a couple we've known for 20+ years and probably the closest friends I have despite them not living very near. She was diagnosed with lung cancer and died in 6 weeks, 2 children and a partner who is just inconsolable. I was one of those to carry the coffin at her funeral, it was a tough day, she had a little time to make plans, we even managed to get her to Strawberry Fair in the sunshine.
She had this played at the end of the funeral which was a big tune from the free parties we used to go to together, I still can't believe she has gone, I loved her so very much but she had her time to shine and shine she did.
I have a daughter just about to turn 13, I've seen no indication of romance as yet but I'm getting my head round it in advance....I have tactics
It is fekin snowing outside...cheek of it
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Sadie
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I just woke up and happened to be listening to this When I read your post. How absolutely heartbreaking! I'm so sorry for your loss. I bet her partner has many wounds that will never heal. They may become bearable in time but never gone.
I know I go on and on about being "tough" and a tomboy but I cry. I'm very empathetic.
My twins are 14 and neither have any indication of any romance! They've already had "the talk". Beware the man/ woman ( I have a boy and a girl) who hurts them. You don't mess with parents that are ex-military! I can do things! JK.
In the end I don't care Who or what gender either of my children end up with for a partner, as long as that person loves them beyond words and vice versa and they make each other happy. I just want to see them happy. That's the best, BEST possible desire a parent can have.
I know I go on and on about being "tough" and a tomboy but I cry. I'm very empathetic.
My twins are 14 and neither have any indication of any romance! They've already had "the talk". Beware the man/ woman ( I have a boy and a girl) who hurts them. You don't mess with parents that are ex-military! I can do things!
JK. In the end I don't care Who or what gender either of my children end up with for a partner, as long as that person loves them beyond words and vice versa and they make each other happy. I just want to see them happy. That's the best, BEST possible desire a parent can have.
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