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You Might Be A Junkie If... v. Oops, I nodded with the needle still in.

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OT: If you don't know why your even on this sober kick still... :p
 
OT: if a week without anything that can kill you in wd (benzo or booze) sound like unmanageable hell. I've !managed a week without either but a week without both? Kill me before the gaba does.
 
You know your a junky when your prepping your shot and you got it in the rig and your getting rid of all the air and you start sliding the plunger up till all the air is gone and you barley start to see the dope coming out of the needle like a micro bubble and you then either dab that little spec back onto your cotton or flick it into your cooker so you still get it in your next dose. Or the opposite, you know your a junky when your doing that same scenario and you push just a little too hard and a few drops come out and slide down the needle and your stomach sinks to the ground and feel anger because you just lost about 15 cents worth of dope. You also know your a junky when you dilute your shots more on purpose for when incase that does happen and you lose a few droplets, those few droplets you lost are atleast less potent than they would of been if you would of had a more concentrated dose. Also you know your a junky if you dilute your shots on purpose so just in case for that rare instance that you start to miss and you stop pushing down on the plunger atleast you missed less dope than what you would of if it would of been a more concentrated dose. You know your a junky if when your sick and you have absolutley no dope you re cook up cottons over and over that are absolutely worthless and you know will do nothing for you. You know your a junky if you would pick a shot of dope over sex with the most beautiful girl every single time. You know your a junky when you are willing to drive to the hood which is about a 1 hour round trip in a car with absolutely no breaks (maybe 5% stopping ability) in the middle of winter, in a snow starm in Wisconsin.. You know your a junky if you made that same trip every single day in that same car the entire winter just waiting for the breaks to completely shit out 100% You know your a junky when you would basically cry your eyes out if you would spill your last shot and or go into an insane rage punching shit till your hands were raw. You know your a junky when you cant fall asleep because you know you got dope and you wanna do another shot so bad but you just want to instantly close your eyes and wake up so you can do that morning shot, you know your a junky when you fail to do so and you end up laying there with your eyes closed wide awake for about 30-60 minutes and end up doing that shot and are extremely pissed in the morning that you dont have your morning shot now. You know your a junky when the best sight in the world is putting the needle in and you see yourself register perfectly. You know your a junky when you basically have it down to science to know exactly how much gas you got to put in when your completley on EMPTY so when you arive back home you literally have barley barrrlleeeyyy enough gas just to make it to the gas station again (because thats all you can afford to put in because obviously the rest is going to dope) to repeat the cycle. You know your a junky when this list could go on and on but now you gotta go do something more important ;)
 
The hardest decision you make is whether to take time out from a Stim binge to score Opies and *Ball, or pick up after for the comedown.
 
When you've pretty much hit and surpassed all of your "I would Nevers" to get dope money.

You'd rather suffer thru your hours trip back, after the trip there and during whatever illegal activity to get your dope $ than take your shit with you, so you won't also get hit with a drug charge which would just have you sick in jail longer instead of let out within a day.

You crave the stability of a regular job, even willing to go on MMT for the first time, til payday, but finding a full time job that pays enough per hour to support your habit is unlikely to impossible.

You end up with multiple credits out from different sources, so whatever you make for the foreseeable future will be eaten up.

The longest you've gone without opiates in 7+ years was a week, only bc you were stuck somewhere without access. The longest without in 3-4 is a day to day and a half- just as long as it takes to get your broke ass straightened out.

You've been long accustomed to "repurposing" - napkins for toilet paper, dishwashing soap for shampoo, etc.

When your significant other complains about you prioritizing dope above all else, rather than change a thing or be sorry at all, you're angry because you admitted that yourself from the start.

Your family now keeps you at the same distance you keep them, and that's just the way you like it.
 
Your a junky when you start collecting stuff off the floor to inject like sand .... Fuck that must be so bad
 
I wouldn't say I'm a junkie as I use only in the evenings in moderate amounts, albeit daily - I don't go into withdrawals and live an otherwise "normal" life. Yet the things about losing minimal amounts of the drug and diluting is absolutely on point for me. A lot of other points you make also apply so well to me it's scary. I guess the main sign for me that makes me feel like a junkie is the fact that I think about getting high almost all the time, every day - I plan how and when and for how long. Also I can't remember the last time I went to a social event completely sober; it's almost a ritual to get me "medicated" before attending one.

I guess one doesn't have to be on the needle 24/7 to be a junkie. It's all about how with every decision and situation there's a that argument that says "get high". Reminds me of the prologue of Trainspotting.
 
belligerent drunk said:
I guess one doesn't have to be on the needle 24/7 to be a junkie.
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thats true even tho people who smoke pipes (meth) can smoke 24/7 spend all there money on it steal from there family, sell there girlfriend etc.... Think there not junkies but have the nerve to call someone who has a shot once in a while a junkie because they use needles even tho it doesn't affect there life
 
When the wds got you blowin' snot bubbles into your coffee. The struggle is real..
 
when you're supposed to be at work right now (2 hours away) but you're still laying in bed waiting on your connect to call you back so you can score before you go out of town all week
 
EyeLick said:
You've been long accustomed to "repurposing" - napkins for toilet paper, dishwashing soap for shampoo, etc.
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Oh my god that's so true. I remember those days. Because, of course, you can't spend that extra $3 for shampoo or that $1 for tp lol. That's a pack of new rigs! Or almost a bag!

This thread used to make me laugh even when in the midst of addiction (maybe cause I didn't feel so alone). But it's far better to read now, look back and laugh but then think "I'm so glad that's over"
 
You know if your a junkie when you have dreams of having a normal BM.
Or when you hit an artery on accident and don't even worry about it, just get pissed that you lost a few cents of dope.
 
Drderms said:
thats true even tho people who smoke pipes (meth) can smoke 24/7 spend all there money on it steal from there family, sell there girlfriend etc.... Think there not junkies but have the nerve to call someone who has a shot once in a while a junkie because they use needles even tho it doesn't affect there life
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their, their, they're, their

Sorry. couldn't help myself.
 
If you wear long sleeves to work when it's 100°F out.

If you've ever hit a friend while they are driving away from the spot. Extra points if you can hit yourself when driving.

If your partner and you hitting one another and lying down together is pretty much the most erotic act you can imagine. Because who needs body parts inserted into other body parts when you can insert a needle into your veins?

If you regularly check the hosts medicine cabinet at social functions.

If you've gone over the logistics of robbing a pharmacy in some detail.

If you keep a "safety bag" (or bun) hidden somewhere you don't remember, but obvious enough to find it when you are truly desperate.

If you post regularly on OD.

If you post ITT.
 
You might be a junkie if you've perfected whining to the level of high artistry.
 
.. If you haven't had a crap in days, weeks even. When you can eventually go, you're so sweaty and ill you almost slide off the toilet seat.

.. If you get a bit too excited finding bottles of kaolin & morphine in your families medicine cabinet.

.. If after moving to a new town, with no connections, you end up driving 4 hours back to your old town, not to see friends, but to see your dealer.
 
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You consider Cannabis blasphemy.

You know roughly six dealers for every half mile of less than picturesque urban landscape.

You've ever looked at this thread and instead of thinking 'been there', you instead think 'yeah, just wait'.

Bitterness, eh?

;) <3
 
J
SKL said:
If you keep a "safety bag" (or bun) hidden somewhere you don't remember, but obvious enough to find it when you are truly desperate.
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I have done this, forgotten I did so, and come across bags out of dumb luck. Of course that led to me ripping rooms apart every time I got dope sick, just in case.


Or along that line, if you stash some cash somewhere when you have extra so you won't find it until truly needed. I can remember being so sick I could barely stand, yet I almost did a dance when I came across the $75 I had stashed a few weeks ago in some clothes in the closet!

You might be a junkie if you know your mailman's entire route and hunt him down rather than waiting on a check to be delivered to your house, because you live on the absolute last block on his route and you could get the check, cash it, cop, and feel better hours before it would arrive if you didn't stalk the mailman. Oh, and you do this weekly
 
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