Update.
Anxiety and paniking at an all time high still but its due to the medication which i have to live with and it sucks because i cant control it even though i logically understand whats going on in my environment and the work itself is not stressfully. Like for instance i went to my happyhour with my coworkers and i was completely normal and myself but 10 minutes before i left my job i was dealing with anxiety even though i had no work to do and was just chillen smh... The old me would punch the current me in the face and then give me a hug.. Still smoke herb occasionally(im alot calmer when i do) havent touched mdma since my initial break through and dont plan too... its alot of up and down process but its better then dealing with the stuff i dealt with last year..(rip liandra)
if any off you guys play games my xbox live and psn are oneshot09 (send me a pm)
Also checkout soundcloud.com/oneshot09 if you have a chance.
#getbetter
Update.
Anxiety and paniking at an all time high still but its due to the medication which i have to live with and it sucks because i cant control it even though i logically understand whats going on in my environment and the work itself is not stressfully. Like for instance i went to my happyhour with my coworkers and i was completely normal and myself but 10 minutes before i left my job i was dealing with anxiety even though i had no work to do and was just chillen smh... The old me would punch the current me in the face and then give me a hug.. Still smoke herb occasionally(im alot calmer when i do) havent touched mdma since my initial break through and dont plan too... its alot of up and down process but its better then dealing with the stuff i dealt with last year..(rip liandra)
if any off you guys play games my xbox live and psn are oneshot09 (send me a pm)
Also checkout soundcloud.com/oneshot09 if you have a chance.
#getbetter
Yes and no. Im not 100 precent sure. sometimes i feel disconnected from everything and not interested in anything external.. Their are times where i can say now ... Hey im feeling like my old self and have some type of normality... I guess the emotional connection to the world for me is still lacking. But i do have my moments.. I think part of my mind is just still stuck on the last 2 years. I focus so much on trying to be my old self... And don't want to come to the conclusion that I'm probably never going to be 100 % old me as far as emotions, being social.. And feeling spiritual connected to whats going on in the world..i have/had to accept who i am currently and go from there though , sometimes i forget about that realization when I'm dealing with my problems.... I definitially believe that i can become an even better person... Its going to take time and effort but i definitely see progression made from 8-9 months ago and have the hope and motivation to overcome everything...Do you still have derealization or has that subsided?
Update.
Anxiety and paniking at an all time high still but its due to the medication which i have to live with and it sucks because i cant control it even though i logically understand whats going on in my environment and the work itself is not stressfully. Like for instance i went to my happyhour with my coworkers and i was completely normal and myself but 10 minutes before i left my job i was dealing with anxiety even though i had no work to do and was just chillen smh... The old me would punch the current me in the face and then give me a hug.. Still smoke herb occasionally(im alot calmer when i do) havent touched mdma since my initial break through and dont plan too... its alot of up and down process but its better then dealing with the stuff i dealt with last year..(rip liandra)
if any off you guys play games my xbox live and psn are oneshot09 (send me a pm)
Also checkout soundcloud.com/oneshot09 if you have a chance.
#getbetter
Wellbutrin 450mgsAt least you have a job and are around people, what meds do you still take ?
Had a window this morning where i woke up and didn't feel anxious
Back on the procycledine the other tablets made me worse
Its hard being on the sick when your recovering from these injections and your not socialising and are trying to avoid alcohol and weed
After being a pothead for 15 years, i'm going to have to give it up permanently i think, it scares me after 2 episodes a year apart
I just want this shit out my system and my dopamine receptors and my leg to stop shaking
The doctor wouldn't even prescribe me mirapex which should have helped
Good luck with the gaming
Yes and no. Im not 100 precent sure. sometimes i feel disconnected from everything and not interested in anything external.. Their are times where i can say now ... Hey im feeling like my old self and have some type of normality... I guess the emotional connection to the world for me is still lacking. But i do have my moments.. I think part of my mind is just still stuck on the last 2 years. I focus so much on trying to be my old self... And don't want to come to the conclusion that I'm probably never going to be 100 % old me as far as emotions, being social.. And feeling spiritual connected to whats going on in the world..i have/had to accept who i am currently and go from there though , sometimes i forget about that realization when I'm dealing with my problems.... I definitially believe that i can become an even better person... Its going to take time and effort but i definitely see progression made from 8-9 months ago and have the hope and motivation to overcome everything...
Hope all of that makes sense lol.
A few days over month five from my last injection of 117mg of Invega Sustenna. Things are looking great.
I've lately come to terms with the fact that this is just a part of my journey... a sad, slow process of a seemingly endless road, a step for my recovery and a start to a new life. I don't know what to expect when I hit month seven. From what I've read on this thread it seems that month seven is where the medication really starts to dip off to the point where creativity and imagination comes back. But I'm in no hurry... not anymore.
It seems my life is just full of things that I need to work on. I'm eating healthier and starting to really look it. Some of my imagination and creativity is back... but for the most part I can't expect it to stay too long when it does, because soon the medication's effect jumps back into defense mode and I lose those creative bursts. I'm not complaining though. This is some serious poison, but I'm sure if you took a humble man and put him on this drug, he'd still find a way to be complacent... and that's what I'm doing. Just gotta go with the flow and rock of the ship.
I'm still not entirely sure I understand dp and dr after reading briefly about them, but I think I may have experienced them even prior to being on Invega. I sometimes get these moments where I have to kind of step back briefly, while I realize "I am here in this moment", and kind of whisp myself back into reality. I've had them ever since I was a kid, where I'd do the same thing, mentally, and say "I am this thing in this body...?" Not sure if that's what it means.hey great to hear of the improvements, do you experience depersonalization/derealization symptoms
I understand breh . That was the worst period of my life... Im still not myself smh. My brain is still kinda warped and i feel stuck. All off a misdiagnosis SMFH.Hey everyone, I can relate to how you all feel from the Invega sustenna injection. I received the starter shot of 234mg followed by 156mg/ml a few days later on Sep. 24th. I've been doing a lot of research to try and figure out ways to alleviate the anhedonia and severe fatigue that I've been experiencing ever since and I wanted to reply to this thread because it's tough to explain to people how horrible this feels. It makes me realize why people become suicidal because right now this feels almost unbearable.
I made another thread to look for tips and success stories for and from people who received neuroleptic injections such as Invega and I'm hoping to get some good feedback. So far I've heard Prolintane and Pregnenolone might be able to alleviate some symptoms of anhedonia. I know someone mentioned Prolintane previously in this post. I only found anecdotal evidence for the Prolintane but there is research backing up the use of Pregnenolone. I can post what I've found but I'm not a doctor so do your own research if you think you might want to try it. Hope this helps...I ordered some today and I'll keep everyone posted on if it helps or not.
Anyone have other suggestions on how to ease the pain, both physically and mentally, of coming of this drug?
Currently I'm prescribed Adderall for adhd, 30xr in the morning and 20mg ir in the afternoon. Without it idk how I would get anything done during the day. Just getting out of bed would be a monumental task without it. I already had to take the semester off school and quit my job...but I don't want to use Adderall daily and become dependent upon it to function. Also, I was recently prescribed Lexapro 10mg about a week ago because my pdoc is CONVINCED this is just a depressive episode of my Bipolar. He also has me on Lamictal as a mood stabilizer.
I need to to be able to talk to some other people going through this and who can actual relate to what Invega sustenna is like to endure. I should note that my pdoc wants me off Invega too. Although I'm nervous about trusting doctors now since the doctor who gave me the Invega injection made it sound like the best medicine around with next to NO side effects. I volunteered to go to the hospital for a manic episode and ever since I received that shot my life has been miserable. I can't function mentally and I can function physically JUST enough to get through the day...I hope that together we can all research a way to make coming off Invega at least a little easier to endure and become fully recovered success stories someday. I just want a little hope...
I understand breh . That was the worst period of my life... Im still not myself smh. My brain is still kinda warped and i feel stuck. All off a misdiagnosis SMFH.
3 months after invega i noticed little improvement..
6months. In i noticed a good bit of improvement but this was from trying everything. Walks , therapy , different meds. Etc etc.
7 months in i eventually was like u know what swim would try M and i had a decent breakthrough..
If you check my previous post . You can see the dangers off those substances..
I still deal with derealization which has just changed my mentality and i need to find a way to change it to a more positive one but its like damn theirs no end to this ish. I mean im doing things that i am a shamed of smh. But you just wanna feel emotion and i totally understand the anhedonia ... You feel empty and emotionless . Not sad or happy or upset or bored .. Literally empty...
That feeling for the most part gone away but thier are times when it can creep up but its no where as bad as before... You have to literally just keep thinking about the future, even tho you may not do anything productive become that. Keep your mind strong and dont give up.
Im still not out of the thick of things but i at least see a little bit of light at the end of the tunnel. If you have any questions send me a pm. I can talk about this experience for days.
Yea i have reached the one year mark. The main thing that im thankful for is not having anhedonia.. The derealization still exist but i can at least live with it.hey how many months have it been for you? -
heard one year's the marker. i can somewhat relate to your current recovery timeline.