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  • EADD Moderators: Pissed_and_messed | Shinji Ikari

evey, clear yer inbox dear

Ok ive had a drunk here but i've issues with loss/abandonment. Whenever someone tears me away from something I love I attach myself harder to another think I may be BPD its tge only thing that makes with my behaviour, though I could be imagining it.

Bluelight means everyone to me. Losing this place was like pure grief. It was horrible. My world crashed down. Maybe I'm a freak/loser but i wish i knew why this happens i need some relief from the torture n pain n for help n understanding rather than people thinking the worst of me. People say i need help i try to get it but they think I'm ok n say I don't need them. It's soul destroying. But my defence mechanism is to deny all.

Ask Raasy how I've treated him.

I've obviously hurt someone in a previous life to have sll this pain :(

Evey
 
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Errrr I was in the Lounge banging on about trolls n how admin should read Google to learn their tricks (there's some right sad ppl out there seriously) n prevent them hurting this site. When I spout bollox like that yea I need to poor it away hah :D

Criiiiiinging :\

Edit: seriously though, when I was banned I was told it was for being disruptive. I wasn't exactly sure how I had been so I googled "disruptive behaviour on Internet forums" to work out where I had gone wrong. There was heaps of tutorials on on how to bring down forums - I really do not understand why people would that let alone make tutorials teaching others to do such things. I think that all owners/admins of forums should read them, learn their tricks in order to prevent them the same way technicians should learn about computer viruses to prevent them with anti-virus software.

Evey
 
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