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Brahhhh said:
Just calm down man, have you been using any drugs lately? Drinking too much alcohol perhaps? I know from experience that can put me back a few steps as well. Try to go to bed not too late, exercise, eat healthy, go out, that kinda stuff. Makes you feel much better! Oh yeah, and try to put your focus on something else than thinking about how your brain is fucked. Have a laugh, or occupy yourself with something you like to do. So you don't think about it, works for me atleast.
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I haven't taken any drugs since June 2013, apart from alcohol and very occasional weed - like maybe once or twice a year. I've had the occasional beer but I haven't had a big night drinking in over a month.

I really shouldn't have read that shit on Google eh.
 
Jiraiya said:
I haven't taken any drugs since June 2013, apart from alcohol and very occasional weed - like maybe once or twice a year. I've had the occasional beer but I haven't had a big night drinking in over a month.

I really shouldn't have read that shit on Google eh.
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Ah okay, well I just fully read your other threads. I don't think your permanently damaged, but like some guy says it's probably more a traumatic experience. And you're worrying too much. Sometimes I think, maybe when I'm 50+ years old I will still carry this with me. Okay maybe I will carry it with me, so what, I'm not gonna stress over it. I just let it be. Just say to yourself, you're fine. I'm sure it will go away the next week. Just put your focus on something else.
 
Jiraiya said:
Basically my anxiety/depression is back and I feel like I'm at square one. I have been googling brain damage studies the last few days and now I believe that I am completely fucked! The googling has definitely messed with my head. Even though I came right for a long period of time. Is this damage?

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/696430-Is-this-considered-abuse

The above link outlines my usage over the years.
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You should NEVER Google that kind of thing! It's like doing a Google search on a headache. You'll get lots of results about a brain tumor, and that's probably not the reason!

Just take it easy, I know it's hard, I'm having a hard time as well, also on a LTC comedown which seemed to gone away, but now it's back. Struggling with (almost) the same things as 6-8 months ago..
 
nightElf said:
You should NEVER Google that kind of thing! It's like doing a Google search on a headache. You'll get lots of results about a brain tumor, and that's probably not the reason!

Just take it easy, I know it's hard, I'm having a hard time as well, also on a LTC comedown which seemed to gone away, but now it's back. Struggling with (almost) the same things as 6-8 months ago..
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Yeah the google search definitely fueled my anxiety. It's such a pain, but I'm going to keep away from it now. I guess you can't fix the problem with the problem.

Logically though it can't be brain damage, I mean I returned to my old self for so long. If I had brain damage that wouldn't have happened. Now all I need to do is convince myself of that, can be hard with all the raging anxiety and all haha.
 
Jiraiya said:
Yeah the google search definitely fueled my anxiety. It's such a pain, but I'm going to keep away from it now. I guess you can't fix the problem with the problem.

Logically though it can't be brain damage, I mean I returned to my old self for so long. If I had brain damage that wouldn't have happened. Now all I need to do is convince myself of that, can be hard with all the raging anxiety and all haha.
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Theres absoloutley no way you caused brain damage. You returned to your old self. If you were permanently damaged that would of never happened. I think your break up is to blame for your symptoms. You only think that MDMA has caused them because it did in the past and now you relate these symptoms to an MDMA comedown but a serious break up can cause these depressive/anxious symptoms also
 
I've got a MRI scan, of course EVERYTHING turned normal. Blood tests as well, only a bit high on the Prolactin, which could be linked to a problem in dopamine, but the value is not THAT high, that's what the Dr. told me.

Tomorrow will be my last doctor that I'll try, to see what happens. I get like "waves" of comedowns. All of them marked by involuntary movements. No depression, no memory issues, nothing else outside the movements (small during the day, more violent when I go to sleep). Pretty annoying if you ask me.
 
nightElf said:
I've got a MRI scan, of course EVERYTHING turned normal. Blood tests as well, only a bit high on the Prolactin, which could be linked to a problem in dopamine, but the value is not THAT high, that's what the Dr. told me.

Tomorrow will be my last doctor that I'll try, to see what happens. I get like "waves" of comedowns. All of them marked by involuntary movements. No depression, no memory issues, nothing else outside the movements (small during the day, more violent when I go to sleep). Pretty annoying if you ask me.
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Hmm, are you still using drugs? Hows your life? Active or sleeping too much? I know my LTC comes in waves, i mainly feel down when i dont do alot in the day. When Im active i feel much better
 
Brahhhh said:
Hmm, are you still using drugs? Hows your life? Active or sleeping too much? I know my LTC comes in waves, i mainly feel down when i dont do alot in the day. When Im active i feel much better
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My life tends to be sedentary, I spend lots of time in my computer (working and gaming), but I manage to do 40-45 mins of exercise almost daily (walking).

I've spent more than 3 months clean, and I got a wave of the ticks anyway. It seems to be triggered by hormones? Or something like that? Not really sure, honestly. I do not drink alcohol, consume weed or have lots of caffeine. Do not smoke either.
 
nightElf said:
My life tends to be sedentary, I spend lots of time in my computer (working and gaming), but I manage to do 40-45 mins of exercise almost daily (walking).

I've spent more than 3 months clean, and I got a wave of the ticks anyway. It seems to be triggered by hormones? Or something like that? Not really sure, honestly. I do not drink alcohol, consume weed or have lots of caffeine. Do not smoke either.
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Hmm okay, yeah could be hormones. What I know from myself is if I'm on the computer whole day gaming or whatever I feel more down than when I went to the gym, school, friends etc. So going on computer all day during LTC isn't that great Imo.
 
I believe I got Seratonin Syndrome from a supposedly natural supplement, which turned out to contain Sibrutramine, a seratonin enhancer.My symptoms are similar to yours. 15 days ago I stopped usage of the supplement after almost fainting. Since then my head feels lite like jet lag, sensitive to light, pupils occasionally dilated, increased pulse. In fact 9 days after stopping was in hospital with fast heart 135 bps. At this point my heart seems to have stabilized back to a normal rhythm. .pulse at rest 62 to 80..versus 90 to 100. However I keep getting new symptoms like left hand jittery, exaggerated reflexes, dilated pupils. How long will this keep up
 
Re. full-on (non-mild) concussions - you guys probably won't believe me (especially if you're suffering from severe LTC symptoms at present - I'm truly sorry for all you who are), but regardless, I contend that there's a far greater risk of brain damage from that compared to an occasion spent consuming MDMA.

And even if, for example, a P.E.T. scan is able to clearly show brain lesioning due to a severe concussion, thanks a process known as neuroplasticity, the human brain is able to reorganize itself by way of altering its neural synapses and pathways, thus, compensating for the damage done. But such changes can take upwards of 2 years and perhaps longer in a few cases (seems to have taken my noodle ~1.66 years based on my LTC experience), and in order for it to get 'r done as quick as possible, it's highly recommended that the brain's owner aid in the facilitation of the compensation process in the form of staying away from all recreational drug use - including Alcohol because it's a well-known neurotoxin (kills brain cells) and hepatotoxin (and liver cells) as well as a carcinogen (causes cancer) - and healthy living in general (both physically and mentally). And supplementation with Eicosapentaenoic Acid (EPA) and Docosahexaenoic Acid (DHA) (also known as Omega 3 Fatty Acids) may further aid mental health and cognitive function.

Bottom line - all we tend to hear or read when it comes to the risks of consuming Alcoholic Beverages is as follows: "please drink responsibly," or, "please enjoy responsibly." Unfortunately, the acute and long-term health risks associated with Ethyl Alcohol consumption are very real, and can be very serious in certain situations. It's your choice whether you wish to drink (or smoke, or do whatever), and I'm not here to judge you, but I do urge extreme caution to those suffering from LTC symptoms who wish to (understandably so given the pain and suffering) drink. Best wishes and hang in there!
 
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