Do I have a chance?

[cyberius]

I've done e about 60 times in the past four years, along with a bunch of other stimulants and depressants strewn around. I've survived many overdoses from all kinds of drugs too.

Will I be able to recover from this if I quit now? I've been kind of spiraling out of control a lot lately because I feel like the damage I've done is carved in stone and I'm not even 20 yet.

Tell me I have a chance?... Please?

I don't feel anything amiss when I'm sober but the comedowns are getting exponentially harder and I don't feel like im fully coming down anymore. I don't seem to be experiencing any physical damage as of yet, I jog a few miles a day and my heart is keeping up just fine. I feel like I'm getting weird psychological issues though, I've always been bipolar but the ups are getting way higher and the downs are getting way lower.

 

[supersoup]

First of all: You have a chance. As long as you haven't died or caused severe psychological problems (which it definitely doesn't seem you have), then you have a chance. I think the best thing you can do for yourself is stop using MDMA. Experiencing longer lasting side effects is very common with MDMA, especially when it's used so often. Are you on medication for bipolar disorder? If not, you definitely should be. Take a long break - at least 6 months, a year would be better - and I can almost guarantee you'll feel much much better. After that, you can resume rolling occasionally if you choose to, but make sure you're spacing your doses much further apart. No more than four or five times a year. MDMA is not a forgiving drug if you don't respect it.

 

[Clocktower]

Of course! You have more than "a chance." If you simply stop using drugs for a while, you're practically guaranteed to feel better and healthier (mentally healthier) in a few months to a year.

 

[Pretty_Diamonds]

Of course my dear. xP

If you're worried about your mental health, go see a professional like a psychologist. They could test you, access your symptoms, and really provide some great coping methods.

 

[lalapanda]

I've done e about 60 times in the past four years, along with a bunch of other stimulants and depressants strewn around. I've survived many overdoses from all kinds of drugs too.

Will I be able to recover from this if I quit now? I've been kind of spiraling out of control a lot lately because I feel like the damage I've done is carved in stone and I'm not even 20 yet.

Tell me I have a chance?... Please?

I don't feel anything amiss when I'm sober but the comedowns are getting exponentially harder and I don't feel like im fully coming down anymore. I don't seem to be experiencing any physical damage as of yet, I jog a few miles a day and my heart is keeping up just fine. I feel like I'm getting weird psychological issues though, I've always been bipolar but the ups are getting way higher and the downs are getting way lower.

Comedowns always suck, no matter what.
But to answer your question; yes you have a chance.
The sooner you quit XTC the easier your life will be! Not to mention all the things your XTC could be laced/mixed with.
If I was you I'd focus on getting my BPD treated (Talking to someone, taking medication, both, mediation, whatever your method may be.)

My sister did too many drugs and basically turned her BPD into Schizophrenia.... I mean she could be a lot worse, but she *was* a lot better, mentally.