So, I feel like the shittiest of friends... I got really hammered last night and hung out with my best friend and his new girlfriend, and in my drunkenness I blabbed multiple times about doing psychedelics with him, of which he had yet to tell his girlfriend about. Obviously it's not great to hide stuff from people, but my friend isn't the type who trips much anyways, so by mentioning it I was putting him in a bad situation and forced him to talk to his girlfriend about it the next day. He said she seems indifferent about it, but in my experience, girlfriends dislike it when they find out you've been doing wild drugs like lsd, even if they say otherwise... I think I'm starting to have a problem with drinking, because a week ago I got blackout drunk and the same friend had to baby sit me essentially and I was a dick about it when I was blacked out... and here I went again, causing him trouble because I was too drunk and lost control of myself. It's a terrible realization and an even worse thing for me to have done to him, he didn't deserve that.
I just feel like a shitty ass person now. And I have no idea what to do about it now, other than trying to quit drinking, but that's a long term thing... I don't know how to make amends with my friend, he's my best buddy and I would hate to drive him away. In the mean time I think I'll just mope...