I'm 20 years old. My drug use is pretty extensive. I started smoking weed and drinking at 13. Cigarettes at 15. Between 15-18 I was addicted as FUCK to synthetic gas station weed. All while tripping cough syrup every day. I had a 6 month addiction to cocaine after I quit the spice, followed by a month addicted as shit to meth. I've tried heroin once. In between all of this I've done various psychedelics and pharmaceuticals. Dmt, LSD, 2c-B/I/E/P/C/D, xanax, klonopin, Valium, hydrocodone, oxy.
Basically, I've done a shit ton of drugs given my age.
Its taken it's toll on my mental and physical health. Spice really did a number on my mind, effects that I still deal with daily two years later. Constant anxiety, panic attacks, etc. I've managed to cut out EVERYTHING, except alcohol and REAL marijuana maybe twice a month.
I drink basically every day. My usual consumption is 12-15 beers a night. Somtimes more, sometimes less. If I manage to find someone 21 before 7pm, I get liquor. I drink with the same 2-3 friends every single night. We either sit in one of our cars, or walk out into the woods. There's rarely much else to do in the small town I live in. I quit cigarettes and switched to vaping a year ago. My lungs started not functioning right and I switched vaping for sweedish snus a little over a month ago. My lungs have not improved. It feels like only 1 out of 10 breaths I take I'm able to get enough air.
Lately I've been reflecting on my life. Where I'm at, where I want to be, and I honestly think I need to cut alcohol out of my daily routine. I feel like shit every single morning. I make bad decisions on a daily basis. I'm not even 21 yet and I feel like I'm leaning towards alcoholism. In the past, I rarely drank. Weed used to be my #1 drug until spice hit the market. Now when I smoke, it makes me feel weird and anxious, so I get drunk first to counteract the ill effects of thc in my brain.
I'm not sure what my question is here really. Any pointers on how to cut back on alcohol. I know "just stop" seems like the common advice, but somehow I just always find myself drinking. I also went through a hardcore phenibut withdrawal from 8 months of abuse in July. I feel like maybe I'm experiencing PAWS and self medicating with alcohol. Sound reasonable?
Idk. I really want to get healthy, repair my body, and drinking large amounts of alcohol every single day isn't the way to do it. I appreciate any advice guys.
Basically, I've done a shit ton of drugs given my age.
Its taken it's toll on my mental and physical health. Spice really did a number on my mind, effects that I still deal with daily two years later. Constant anxiety, panic attacks, etc. I've managed to cut out EVERYTHING, except alcohol and REAL marijuana maybe twice a month.
I drink basically every day. My usual consumption is 12-15 beers a night. Somtimes more, sometimes less. If I manage to find someone 21 before 7pm, I get liquor. I drink with the same 2-3 friends every single night. We either sit in one of our cars, or walk out into the woods. There's rarely much else to do in the small town I live in. I quit cigarettes and switched to vaping a year ago. My lungs started not functioning right and I switched vaping for sweedish snus a little over a month ago. My lungs have not improved. It feels like only 1 out of 10 breaths I take I'm able to get enough air.
Lately I've been reflecting on my life. Where I'm at, where I want to be, and I honestly think I need to cut alcohol out of my daily routine. I feel like shit every single morning. I make bad decisions on a daily basis. I'm not even 21 yet and I feel like I'm leaning towards alcoholism. In the past, I rarely drank. Weed used to be my #1 drug until spice hit the market. Now when I smoke, it makes me feel weird and anxious, so I get drunk first to counteract the ill effects of thc in my brain.
I'm not sure what my question is here really. Any pointers on how to cut back on alcohol. I know "just stop" seems like the common advice, but somehow I just always find myself drinking. I also went through a hardcore phenibut withdrawal from 8 months of abuse in July. I feel like maybe I'm experiencing PAWS and self medicating with alcohol. Sound reasonable?
Idk. I really want to get healthy, repair my body, and drinking large amounts of alcohol every single day isn't the way to do it. I appreciate any advice guys.
