A1ch3mystNY
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Aug 21, 2015
- Messages
- 8
I got hooked by accident.. i had been sniffing for about 8yrs and had never seen it in rock form. I went to a Memorial Day Weekend party and a couple of us went from the pub to a friend's house to have a 'poetry session' (share blow) and the host was cooking some up in a spoon so i asked what he was doing and got closer. He asked me if i wanted to try it and being the curious cat that I'm, i did. He set up a rock on a can with ashes. I only did one hit that night and don't really remember getting a bellringer or even high really; i had been sniffing coke and drinking all night plus i don't think i held the smoke in long enough. Anyway, fastforward 2 months and i tell an old friend i bump into about my experience and he tells me he'll show me how to cook as soon as we get back to our neighborhood. In the meantime, he gives me a bag of dope to sniff... mind u i had never done dope b4. I loved the down high right away and that first cigarette was amazing. In my neighborhood there are but 3-5 ppl dealing rock in a 2.5mile radius, and maybe 15-20 that amount dealing powder. No lie. Problem is i didn't know how to cook, but my boy taught me the bicarb method and even introduced me to a rock dealer and a dope dealer. At first, $50 would suffice and 2 bags of dope snorted after for the comedown... problem is after about 2 more months, i was smoking after doing the dope not knowing the krills actually killed the dope so i started doing more dope. Before i knew it, i was hooked on both. Stimulants were always my thing and after getting on meth and walking off 50mg so i wouldn't get hooked on that as i was told it was worse, i was getting sub strips and selling them or trading them for coke to cook. I now had a $150 a day habit. At the height of my addiction, it became more like $300 a day for like 2-3 months, because i knew sooner or later i was going to face the music (i had charges pending) and i didn't want to even think about having to go away. They weren't drug related nor violent or sexual in nature. When i first got arrested, i got so scared that i knew i couldn't keep doing what i was doing for money and soon enough i was running out and i found myself doing some stupid shit for a hit. I sold a $400 piece of luggage for $20, $240 shoes for $10. I literally hit rock bottom. I even roughed up other fiends for a dealer in exchange for a hit. The inevitable happened and i had to respond for my charges and I'm home now on bail after doing 18months... still facing 6.5-8yrs and a month. My mental health diagnosis along with my substance abuse history are going to get me time served most likely, but I'll still have to do 3yrs parole. No crack for me right now, but it's always on my mind. I just think if you do honest work and have something for the comedown, and a clear conscience you can definitely enjoy it responsibly. I have close to half a million dollars in restitution i have to pay also and it'll probably take 2 lifetimes of honest work to pay it back, but jail truly is for birds and i can't wait for the next 3 years to fly so i can treat myself and truly enjoy my freedom once again. So am i addicted? No, I'm in love with the coco
. Maybe a g or 2 a week followed with some valium or ativan and a nice joint of some Cali bud. No alcohol, no dope.
