My Meth story..

[TheUseOff]

hello im a male 23 years old

i wanted to post my story somewhere and what would be better then bluelight
its about my accidental use off crystal meth ...
It all started when i met this girl at a party, who was selling the most intresting things .
wich she brought al the way from india to europe.

it felt like i knew her a long time even if i just met her..


only a week later she told me she was coming again to a party near me
so i just could not resist to go there again and meet up with her
first it was al fun until the music started to get really bad and in combination with to many drugs and alcohol
(2cb-coke) i went bad so i had to leave her and went home early


when i woke up i had a call from her she asked me if i wanted to join her on a trip to holland
first i was in big doubt! if i shud do it or not since i wasnt feeling so wel
after the party yesterday


but in the end i was like what do i have to lose Nothing !
so i went to her and we both drived to the party with her car (3hours drive)
the drive to the party was fun we went to a store eat a little bit and bought some other things also




for the party i still wasnt feeling to wel but it was fun
wierd at first since the party was at a nudebeach
but after a while i did understand the people there where much more open and friendly then most people




because i went with her i tought i could atleast trust her
since she saw i wasnt feeling to wel she gave me something supposedly it shud be mdma (not sure since it was in a rizla paper )
but because i trusted her i did not ask any questions and toke it ( not smart in the end probbally was meth )
because i still wasnt feeliing well she said maybe we shud go come since i was having cold all the time!
wich we did we left around 4am and went to her home


we had alot of fun at her home talked alot about everything really everything
i really felt she was a person i could trust like i had no other (also because she did not know my friends so i felt safer to tell her about my life and so on )
at her home we also did alot off drugs mostly speed
after that she said she had some bad speed and if i wasnted to try it since she did not like it and otherwise sell it!
i was like sure why not , i tryed it but i did not like it at all ( probally this was meth also ...)
after all we had a good weekend i did not had any idea that i could not trust her
the day after we went to see amsterdam wich i wanted to go for a reaaaalllyyyy long time
it was fun we walked trough amsterdam , went to view some stores and stuff i had a good memoriable day
i tought i met the best girl ever but i geuss i was wrong
after that i took the train to home
we kept having contact almost called each day had a good talk


the that weekend after i went to a party with a dj that i really liked so i felt like i must go!


it was fun but i really felt like i needed some speed even after taking some xtc and 2cb...
wich was not normal for me so i i started to looking around
no1 could sell me some but they gave me free speed wich was also to nice to be true i geuss (probally also meth..)


after getting some speed (not so much ) from different people at first i was feeling great
untill..
after a while i started to get really paranoia wich normally does not happen atleast not like than so hard!
i just went home without saying goodbye to anyone
also not really my style ...


then i had to work the workweek was okay for me no problems at all
also was looking forward to a festival this weekend


well then finally it was saturday and i left to the party
well it did not start out great
when i arrived cops pulled me aside and did alcoholtest , drugtest
result = lost my licence 2 weeks
so not such a good start for the festival
but when i got there i was happy again
saw some familiar faces had fun and many good talks
then i saw the guy from the week before
i went to sit with them after a while i asked them if they had some speed for sale
he said no but he could share a line he told me
i was like nice why not since his friend also snorted the line
i did not suspect anything wrong
i snorting it was feeling great for a while
had some fun danced a bit drink a bit
then he offered me another line and asked if i wanted to buy a pill as ive always know it it would be xtc or 2cb but i would reconice 2cb
so i was like sure why not and i bought the pill(probally a meth pill...)
took half of it and went partying and started to get a little bit paranoia or something again really had no idea what was wrong with me
so i tought maybe i shud get some speed
normally i never had the urge to take speed but now i did very wierd
i started to wander off alone did not feel like to stay/talk with people
after a long while someone asked me if i wanted to buy some speed it was wet so i was almost sure it was fresh speed bcause of the taste and the smell
then i already really got addicted i think i was feelling really great again
on the way back home on the train someone asked if i had some speed
i was like no i aint got noithing i wanted to keep it all for myself no idea why normally i love to share drugs
i geuss the addiction took over...
after getting home stayed up for 34h total that weekend
still was feeling great because i still had speed
then it begun
monday at work was still feeling great untill me and my boss had some words
i got so angry i told him to fck off and i walked home wich was like 10km atleast but i did not care at all


@ home i was was still mad my parents where mad also and i told em i would not go work the next day and that i would go to docter so it was ok
then the next day i was feeling okay did not feel like going to the docter but by the evening me and my parent had a BIG fight i tould them i could not take it anymore
and i left home packed a bag and walked away ive never been so mad at anyone in my whole life!
i had no idea where to go to so i just whent to go somewhere sit under a bridge with the tought of sleeping there
did not give a fuck about anything
later that night i took a very big line of speed was feeling great and happy i was like why did i leave home
kinda scared to go back a 4am..
i went home and took a sleeping and slept in my own garden
my parent said sorry to me and i moved in back home
some family came over told my i shud start actting normal
that set my to think
i started browsing the internet (i knew something wasnt right with the speed)
after a few hours on the internet
i found out i was being on meth for a while
it made me think about last weekend wich i talked about
Thenit finally it all made sense

for some off you this may all sound wierd
but where i live people dont even know crystal meth
exept from tv shows maybe
so it never crossed my mind i had taken meth instead off speed

things that did me notices

stayed awake for 20hours easyly , took a sleepping pill and woke up the day after still full energy
very odd
the times i got mad at people i really got mad alot and also was alot meaner i would not even let people speak out or i had to say my tought about it
also the way
my teeth and body looks after only a very few times meth use!!!
and then the last
the urge to keep doing more speed
wich also aint normal for me !
well this is my meth story
hope i helped anyone or anyone liked my story
if i could only help one person it was a succes for me to post this


so in the end
watch out with wath you use and with who you use
even if youre taking drugs for a long time , watch out!!!








Hope its not to long but i had to post it somewhere
hope i can help someone and thx for reading

 

[mikethedevil]

Hi guy, welcome to Bluelight.

 

[TheUseOff]

Thx!

 

[legaluser]

careful with meth man, that stuff could really ruin your life, remember to never stay up for more than a day, always get a good nights rest, because the real damage comes when you stop brushing your teeth, stop taking showers, using 24/7 and have sleep deprivation and then that equals a recipe for disaster, please keep it under control or dont use at all.

 

[ankshih]

@ home i was was still mad my parents where mad also and i told em i would not go work the next day and that i would go to docter so it was ok
then the next day i was feeling okay did not feel like going to the docter but by the evening me and my parent had a BIG fight i tould them i could not take it anymore
and i left home packed a bag and walked away ive never been so mad at anyone in my whole life!
i had no idea where to go to so i just whent to go somewhere sit under a bridge with the tought of sleeping there
did not give a fuck about anything
later that night i took a very big line of speed was feeling great and happy i was like why did i leave home
kinda scared to go back a 4am..
i went home and took a sleeping and slept in my own garden
my parent said sorry to me and i moved in back home
some family came over told my i shud start actting normal
that set my to think

This sounds like a psychotic episode, hope you've visited a doctor. It may help to prevent some unpleasant after-effects and reduce probability of irreversible consequences. Sleep is extremely needed in such situation, but recovery meds (and proper nutrition!) may be necessary too.

 

[TheUseOff]

This was when the meth worked out after a few nights good sleep and eating Healty im feeling fine no paranoia at al not even when i use other drugs i geuss meth made me Crazy wich speed dousnt on me

 

[Johndoedoe.junk]

i geuss meth made me Crazy wich speed dousnt on me

You keep saying speed doesn't make you crazy but meth does. Form where I cove from they're one and the same. By your definition what is speed?

 

[TheUseOff]

well for me speed is the one u mostly snort (amfetamine) and crystal meth (methamfetamine) is the one u smoke snort or iv/inject excuse me if i wrong In my opinion speed is ok meth really destroys Youre body ..

 

[sonicwhite]

ICE kept me going for like four months until crap hit the fan and had a psychosis that lasted seven months. Suck so bad. I have PTSD now because of it.