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terrible acid after effects

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Odamiani

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hello, I've posted about this before but now im just going to get straight to the point. dropped acid about a month and a half ago, completely fucked me up. very depressed, terrible mood swings, obsessive and intrusive thoughts, but the worst is this loss of emotions I seem to be dealing with. lost them towards the people I love most, barely interested in my boyfriend, things don't affect me like they used to. I don't feel like myself at all. I have no motivation or strong desire to do the things I obsessed over before I took acid. it's gotten so bad I can't even enjoy my summer. will this go away or did I fuck my head up? anyone with similar experiences?
 
and when I say "obsessed over" I mean in a good way. things I loved doing that don't seem that important to me anymore.
 
Have you discussed this with your bf, family? You seem to have a pretty solid support system in your life.

How is the HOCD going?
 
Maybe you connected with a deeper level that scared you? I'm not sure what happened but regardless what is important right now is not to think that you somehow chemically changed anything in your brain but that you have a psychological challenge to deal with. In the present you feel a lack of emotions. This could be depression or extreme anxiety and your coping mechanism is emotional blunting. I would really suggest counseling to try to get to the core of it. Perhaps you love the people in your life very much but you need more substance in the relationships or you need deeper intimacy and trust. Or perhaps it has nothing to do with relationships at all and is simply a problem with your most important relationship which is the one with yourself (that many of us walk around oblivious of). Whatever it is that is at the root of your suffering, have faith that you have everything it takes to heal right inside your own mind--you just need some guidance maybe to access it.<3
 
jammin83 said:
Why are you so intent on blaming all of this on acid? Nobody forced you to take it. You didn't understand that there were risks? I am honestly trying to help you girl but quit playing the blame game. Hallucinogens are powerful chemicals, give yourself time to heal. It can take time but I believe you to be putting a lot of this on a chemical that you purposely ingested. It didn't give you the buzz you were looking for so now it's all acid's fault? You have got a brief and short-lived glimpse into what some of us deal with on a daily basis. Be happy that it will be over in a few months.
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blaming it all on acid? first of all, these problems definitely developed because I took it, so they were the reason for it. and secondly, do you think I don't think about the fact that I'm the one who put myself in this situation every day? do you think I don't depress myself over the fact this was my choice? I understand you are trying to help, but pointing out the fact that I did this myself isn't helping nor is it new information. I was wondering if this will end or if I'll somehow have to live with it. I'm not experienced with hallucinogens so I need all the feedback I can get.
 
and thank you to the others, I've been looking into counseling but I just am not an open person so it'll be difficult to have to discuss these problems and the reason they began-because of my dumb decision. but I'm hoping for this to go away because it is extremely hard to cope with.
 
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and thank you to the others, I've been looking into counseling but I just am not an open person so it'll be difficult to have to discuss these problems and the reason they began-because of my dumb decision. but I'm hoping for this to go away because it is extremely hard to cope with.
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Well, have you talked to anyone about this? (I don't recommend withholding information from a counselor, but it's fine if it will make you more comfortable)

Instead of mentioning 'acid' focus on your present predicament. A therapist will dig, but it's okay, you're entitled confidentiality. You suffered a traumatic event and are having trouble moving on, happens to a lot of people. Instead of focusing on the cause try to find a rational solution.
 
LSD and thought loops go hand in hand.

If you trip out way too hard and think "omg I'm having a bad trip... My head is fucked..." You'll have a bad trip. Then the next few weeks you repeat in thought "I'm fucked. I'm perma fried....everything is bad..." And you'll have a bad month.

Think of it like a radio,repeat "I hate everything" and you'll tap into the collective unconscious thought bubble of negativity.

Take it as a lesson in how easy (frustratingly so) it can be to be happy.

Can't break the negative thought pattern? That too is a thought. You tap into the thought, you tap into the frequency and suddenly your world will become it.

All else fails try eating vegan.
 
these replies are really helpful, thank you :) im going to try and be positive and pray this ends soon.
 
Chill

Hi - I've only just joined but I've got quite a bit of experience dealing with this. I'm a manic depressive who has used acid on a fairly regular basis for about 10 years. From the sounds of things you need to take a break from acid and take a few days off work just to sort your own head out. Personally I find getting out into the countryside and meeting people better than sitting in a darkened room but you need to find what motivates you .
If I was in your shoes I'd seriously reconsider doing it as a drug but there will be no permanent damage that you can't resolve within yourself. The human brain has amazing powers of recovery and although you may feel unhappy at the moment you'll soon realise it's not the acid and come of this in a better place.

Good luck!

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Give yourself time to recover. Eat good food, rest up, get outside when you can/walk in nature. I would also recommend scaling back sexual activity for a little while.. that burns up a lot of mental energy.. and will help decrease recovery time.
 
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Give yourself time to recover. Eat good food, rest up, get outside when you can/walk in nature. I would also recommend scaling back sexual activity for a little while.. that burns up a lot of mental energy.. and will help decrease recovery time.
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Do this. Also, take a break from all drugs if you are using other drugs like alcohol or cannabis/hash. Plus talking about your issues on here, or with a friend or family member can help. Good luck.
 
I went through this kind of thing a few years ago. You are not perma-fried, don't stress. The brain's plasticity is pretty vast, if you can still function (going to the toilet, cooking and eating when you're hungry, etc) then your brain will heal. As previously mentioned, though, do take a break from mind-altering substances.

I know the situations are slightly different, but you might want to check out my post. I dealt with a lot of what you're describing as well as the anxiety I was mainly suffering over.

I know it's frustrating, but be patient. Everyone changes over time, the thing that might be causing you so much distress might be that a huge change in your feelings and thoughts happened so suddenly. The longer it is since the trip, the more you will feel 'normal' again. I promise. It's not as much fun, but just going through the motions of what you used to enjoy and do without dwelling on the differences in the way you feel will help immensely.
 
mannam, just read your post and it was extremely assuring. something I really needed to read right now. I'm hoping to feel how I did before the trip again. like i said, I'm not very motivated to do the things I once was extremely excited for but I'm going to try and take things slowly. thank you again.
 
also, would you say you are 100% recovered and it how you were before you took it?
 
hey bud, after my first acid trip, which was also my first psychedelic experience ever, I started vomiting every morning, and all day, unless I was given chemo-patient anti-nausea meds, or if I smoked weed. I also had basically no appetite. Staying alive, let alone sane, was a constant battle. The docs say it was anxiety related and diagnosed generalized anxiety disorder, which I don't disagree with, I just wish I had help getting to the source and not just putting band aids on it. I wanted to off myself numerous times. I felt like god or whoever was punishing me for being a shitty person.

I also had just like what you describe, mood swings, loss of reality, the trip really opened my eyes to how the inner workings of my being/brain function and it was too much too handle. It took 3 years before I could wake up in the morning and NOT vomiting the rest of the day. 3 years before I could wake up and even eat a single waffle by the time the sun went down.

Point of this is, you seem like an open minded and also a tough cookie and while you may think you're permanently fucked just keep in mind that for many of us out there, a "trip" isnt just some fun experience where you see colors. It's a fucking mind-fuck skull fucking brain opening experience that words can't describe. If you are mentally developed enough that will fuck ANYONE up for a little bit of time.

Stay strong, and if you feel its getting very bad head to the doc and see if you can't get a couple xanax or klonopin a month to help ease your stress/anxiety. Peace and love from cousinskeeter.
 
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