About a month after LSD and still feel depressed/emotionally empty

[jammin83]

Hang in there OP. When dealing with these types of things, know that they will pass. Mental conditions are tough to deal with but can and will change, that is a fact. Things will improve, sometimes they just take time. I would advise against using some type of pharmaceutical, they have the potential to make things much worse. Sometimes these experiences can rock the boat a bit, but try not to focus so much on how this experience has damaged you. It's unfortunate but not permanent. Hope you feel better soon.

 

[Doldrugs]

You will get better. Are you getting any exercise? Sunlight? You may want to take vitamin D supplements.

You will get better.

 

[velmwend]

It's perfectly normal for people to feel depressed after taking LSD. Take it easy, rest, take vitamins, especially Bvits and maybe some 5-htp supplement.
Monitor yourself. I predict that you'll recover well in a couple of weeks. If you don't and you still feel depressed, discuss it with your doctor.
Take care.

 

[Odamiani]

thank you all, yes I am getting exercise and sunlight. now I'm getting the weirdest thoughts, I know none of them are trye but they're panicking me, like "if you do this youre going to die" which I know I'm not or "you don't love your boyfriend because you're a lesbian" which im absolutey positive im not. it literally seems like my brain is trying to upset me more. I don't know what the fuck is going on but I've never regretted something so much in my life.

 

[Odamiani]

and before anyone comments and says how lsd brings up subconscious thoughts-I know these thoughts are wrong im just confused as to why I'm getting them and how they'll stop. ugh what a nightmare. thank you for all your help.

 

[Doldrugs]

I'll share something I learned in a class I took on mindfulness and meditation that changed my life.

You are not your thoughts. As these thoughts arise, acknowledge them. Allow them to pass through your mind. Then move on. Dont fight them, but also don't dwell on them. Don't judge yourself for having them. It's not your fault you have any particular thoughts. They don't define you or represent you.

There may be things you can learn from this experience, but I'd leave that for when your mind is healthy again. For now, just allow these thoughts to pass through your mind and know that you don't owe them anything.

 

[Toltec]

LSD can make you detached from things for a while if you're not used it, it's good to understand that this is how it works and is actually a therapeutic effect of it not anything sinister, if you try to stay attached to things then it will be more difficult as you have to let it run it's course, just like during the trip you have to learn how to have little resistance and let things go

I recommedn taking some time to reflect on things, somewhere quiet with little distraction, rather than obsessively thinking about things meditation is ideal, and exercise, fresh air, hydration, lay off the pharmas.. read more about LSD, its effects, how to integrate the experience...

If you don't try to fight the process and instead trust that its fine or even good for you, you will come off better for it

Very true and great advice...

 

[AA357]

Ever looked into anticonvulsants? Benzodiazepines, levetiracetam and lamotrigine have been found be effective treatments for HPPD and other long-term cognitive and emotional abnormalities resulting from psychedelic use/abuse. They work by normalizing electrical activity in the brain and double up as mood stabilizers.

 

[Odamiani]

I'll share something I learned in a class I took on mindfulness and meditation that changed my life.

You are not your thoughts. As these thoughts arise, acknowledge them. Allow them to pass through your mind. Then move on. Dont fight them, but also don't dwell on them. Don't judge yourself for having them. It's not your fault you have any particular thoughts. They don't define you or represent you.

There may be things you can learn from this experience, but I'd leave that for when your mind is healthy again. For now, just allow these thoughts to pass through your mind and know that you don't owe them anything.

I'm trying really hard to think of it this way, but it just feels like this is getting worse there is absolutely no relief it seems. these thoughts are seriously terrifying me im thinking of things differently, but not in a good way. I know people say psychedelics change your way of thinking, but it shouldn't be like this. I don't feel attached to anyone I don't have like a sex drive i don't know

 

[Odamiani]

Ever looked into anticonvulsants? Benzodiazepines, levetiracetam and lamotrigine have been found be effective treatments for HPPD and other long-term cognitive and emotional abnormalities resulting from psychedelic use/abuse. They work by normalizing electrical activity in the brain and double up as mood stabilizers.

I've heard they help but im pretty sure taking any other type of drug would just push me backwards as I got extremely depressed again after I took just vyvanse

 

[Doldrugs]

Vyvanse is exactly the wrong drug to take in this situation.

Benzos could help, but I think they could also be a mistake. Benzo addiction and withdrawal are notoriously awful.

 

[murphythecat]

most of your problems seems to come from what YOU THINK.
you think you dont love enough yur BF, your mom, ect.

most likely, lsd showed you how much it hurts when you dont love.
sometimes we accept ourselve to not feel love, sometimes, for people we love and actually feel hate toward them. on a psy, you will often see quite clearly how stupid, foolish and wrong to accept ourselves toward such negativity.

the thing to always remember, you cannot THINK and LOVE at the same time.
you either FEEL or THINK.

normally, when we focus on feelings in the body, feeling of love, life is quite good.
most of our problems comes from thinking.

I think lsd showed you your inner world which contains quite a lot of thinkingand we can make ourselves believe anything with that thinking of ours.





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I'm trying really hard to think of it this way, but it just feels like this is getting worse there is absolutely no relief it seems. these thoughts are seriously terrifying me im thinking of things differently, but not in a good way. I know people say psychedelics change your way of thinking, but it shouldn't be like this. I don't feel attached to anyone I don't have like a sex drive i don't know

 

[Burnt Offerings]

No, you're not better than anyone else. You're actually coming across as a bit of a self important bully.

Whether you lose your shit on psychedelics comes down to a dizzying number of factors, many of them not under your control. It's not "weakness," "soundness of mind," or any other insulting, groundless bullshit. It can happen to anyone. Bragging about having never had an uncontrollable trip, or insulting those who have, is like bragging about not having cancer. Not only is it silly, it's pointlessly cruel.

Hmm. Perhaps you're right and my post did come off as insulting. If so I apologize, that wasn't my intention.

I just become frustrated by people who "lose their shit" on drugs (whether that's a justified or unjustified reaction on my part, it still occurs) because I think it helps contribute to an overall image of drug users, and psychedelic drug users in particular, that I dislike and encounter frequently in society.

 

[dibiasea]

Odamiani, I'm going through the exact same thing. I had two LSD trips that went south on me, made me feel like I was responsible for the destruction of the universe and the disappearance of people around me. Afterwards my mind was so geared towards depravity that it was impossible for me to connect to my emotional self. I feel as if I am completely detached from my left Amygdala (which is the part of the brain responsible for emotion). It's been over a year since the first trip and about a year since the second one and I am still feeling the repercussions of the trip. It's still a hard slog and things are only just (within the past couple of weeks) seeming to get better (no longer suicidal). I'm still not feeling much but my memory is starting to come back, the weird and ridiculous thought patterns are starting to disappear.

I found that exercise, lots of sun, socialising and reading of books has really helped me get my mind back on track. I'm still far away from where I was before the first trip, and with University study looming I'm finding it daunting to contemplate going outside and learning. If i don't then ill feel more depressed thinking that I'm falling so far behind everyone else....

Anyways if you want to talk, I've done a lot of research and have sought medical advice so I've got some things to share. Hit me up

 

[alfredosauce]

I've tripped probably 50-100x over last 5 years. About every 2 weeks. I've had plenty of bad trips, like REALLY FUCKING BAD from HIGH doses (500-1000 ug lsd). I quit tripping only about 2 months ago and I'm COMPLETELY fine. I think its all in ur head...try to snap out of it.