hi okay so about a month ago I did acid for the first time.. my friend and I dropped it in a tent with a few of our close friends babysitting us. the first few hours of the trip were the happiest I've ever been but a few hours in my friend convinced herself that I was a vampire and trying to attack her and starting having a bad trip. her vibes kinda brought me down so I started freaking out. towards the end of the trip I convinced myself I was the only person in the world and that the trip would never stop. obviously it eventually did, but the next day I felt the most depressed I ever have in my life. I honestly wanted to kill myself and that scared me because I've never had those thoughts in my life. the root of how I felt was because I realized I wasn't really feeling emotions. I didn't feel attached to my mom or boyfriend and I felt super out of my body for a day. the thing that's really bothering me is my emotions. I feel like I don't care about anything or anyone especially my boyfriend. it's fucking scaring me because I KNOW I'm in love with him and I know I have these feelings towards my friends and family but I feel like I can't get in touch with them anymore. about two weeks later I was feeling a little better and had a lot of homework to do so I decided to take a vyvanse. after I took that I felt super depressed kind of like after acid and would panic about the absence of my emotions. I didn't realize how happy I was prior to acid and now I'm so upset. I don't want to keep dealing with this I honestly can't anymore. I need to know what the fuck is going on. why can't I feel when I know my emotions towards others? I never abuses drugs before only smoked and drank before acid. I didn't have any mental health problems i was actually super strong mentally. someone please help me im so scared. by the way my friend is going through the same thing and felt the same
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About a month after LSD and still feel depressed/emotionally empty
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First of all acid doesn't change your brain chemistry permanently. What probably happened is that you suffered a traumatic experience during your trip and you're feeling the emotional consequences of this. This is a natural process after such an experience, it would be the same kind of thing you would go through in any other similarly stressful or emotionally painful situation (if your boyfriend left you for instance). You just need time to recuperate, but it will happen eventually. Being anxious stops you from going through the process, so try to relax as much as you can and avoid other drugs (including alcohol and vyvanse) until you feel better (and you will). Do something that you enjoy doing, go to your favorite place, talk to your favorite people, and in while you'll be back to normal.
spikeycloud
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It is probably all in your mind. And nothing with your serotonin or dopamine. I think you have not yet integrated the trip yet. About the emotion thing. It often is that because you think you don't have emotions you don't feel them. The mind is a powerful thing and what you think creates your reality basically. It hard hard to help you from what is written above. But try to think and believe everyday that eventually your emotions and the feelings for other people are getting back. Say it to yourself every day three times. Like I said, it's not like and MDMA or Amphetamine comedown where your brain chemistry is messed up.
What kind of dose did you take btw? Let us know if you make any progress.
What kind of dose did you take btw? Let us know if you make any progress.
summa iru
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LSD can make you detached from things for a while if you're not used it, it's good to understand that this is how it works and is actually a therapeutic effect of it not anything sinister, if you try to stay attached to things then it will be more difficult as you have to let it run it's course, just like during the trip you have to learn how to have little resistance and let things go
I recommedn taking some time to reflect on things, somewhere quiet with little distraction, rather than obsessively thinking about things meditation is ideal, and exercise, fresh air, hydration, lay off the pharmas.. read more about LSD, its effects, how to integrate the experience...
If you don't try to fight the process and instead trust that its fine or even good for you, you will come off better for it
I recommedn taking some time to reflect on things, somewhere quiet with little distraction, rather than obsessively thinking about things meditation is ideal, and exercise, fresh air, hydration, lay off the pharmas.. read more about LSD, its effects, how to integrate the experience...
If you don't try to fight the process and instead trust that its fine or even good for you, you will come off better for it
thank you that made me feel a little better but I just am freaked out because I don't know how long this will last.. how long should it? I'm so confused too like some days I'll be happy but then I think about how I can't really feel anything and get super sad I dont know its so weird.. like does this always go away im so nervous it won't.. I feel like I have no motivation and don't want to do things I love or have interest in. it's super scary.
frostypaws
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You will get better. The trip was tough so you shut down your emotions and there still shut down. It's normal and you will open up again.
I suggest you start moving your body, swimming, yoga, running do it all and get your heart rate up. If you can do this every day after a few weeks you will start getting better.
I think what your feeling is a contraction and exercise is a cheep and quick way to expand again. Tripping can be so extreme so be gentle with yourself, your not damaged. You had a crazy trip and it had an effect on you.
I suggest you start moving your body, swimming, yoga, running do it all and get your heart rate up. If you can do this every day after a few weeks you will start getting better.
I think what your feeling is a contraction and exercise is a cheep and quick way to expand again. Tripping can be so extreme so be gentle with yourself, your not damaged. You had a crazy trip and it had an effect on you.
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Burnt Offerings
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It still blows me away that people like that actually exist, although I've never actually encountered that reaction despite having done lots of acid & having done lots of acid with other people. A vampire? LOL it almost defies belief and makes one think twice about who they do the drug with (although, like I said, I've only read about people having such retarded delusions on this website).
Anyway, like others said, you endured a traumatic experience and eventually you'll get over it. How long it'll take, that I don't know, but I do know for sure that you'll get over it. LSD does not damage your brain.
uh just because we had a bad trip doesn't make us retarded? obviously we did not wish for one. I was extremely comfortable with the setting and people, who were all my best friends. and none of them were psychotic. thank you for your input though.
Wutang_Forever
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Life's a trip, the drugs just changed your perception of it.
People have bad trips. I don't know what's so hard to understand about that, or why you think it's helpful to insult them.
This is horrible, stupid advice. Do not do drugs until your head is in the right place.
Burnt Offerings
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I can understand that some people have bad experiences, but if you sincerely believe that your friends are mythical beasts (regardless of whether you're high or sober), you probably shouldn't take psychedelics 8)
are you serious? when you trip and see things they seem real to you. so imagine if all the awesome things you saw turned into nightmares? I dont know what's so hard for you to understand about a bad trip. if she knew she was going to see those kind of things there is no way we would have taken them. that's a terrible argument.
Burnt Offerings
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LOL I've taken my share of psychedelic drugs so I know all about seeing things that are "not real" (although usually visual hallucinations while on LSD have a basis in material reality). Luckily I'm mentally sound enough to temper such delusions with the knowledge that I've recently taken drugs, though.
LOL I've taken my share of psychedelic drugs so I know all about seeing things that are "not real" (although usually visual hallucinations while on LSD have a basis in material reality). Luckily I'm mentally sound enough to temper such delusions with the knowledge that I've recently taken drugs, though.
man you're so right I must be a nut case for having a bad trip on DRUGS. I really do appreciate your intelligent feedback it's helped a great deal
once I develop into as "mentally sound" a person as you are, I'll know I really made it!Luckily I'm mentally sound enough to temper such delusions with the knowledge that I've recently taken drugs, though.
No, you're not better than anyone else. You're actually coming across as a bit of a self important bully.
Whether you lose your shit on psychedelics comes down to a dizzying number of factors, many of them not under your control. It's not "weakness," "soundness of mind," or any other insulting, groundless bullshit. It can happen to anyone. Bragging about having never had an uncontrollable trip, or insulting those who have, is like bragging about not having cancer. Not only is it silly, it's pointlessly cruel.
