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New here: 3rd Day off Methadone

Hey all,

I'm still here. I don't even know what day this is, day 5 I think? Im still trucking through, although today has been particularly tough. I've been breaking down in tears over anything. But Abetterway, yes I ending up getting the Bali strain, and it was in capsules. According the guy at the shop ( and he seemed really informed) there was a gram in each capsule. I got lucky and got what I believe to be the "right" dosage for me, 5 capsules. I've dosed twice once in the am and once in the pm yesterday and today. It helps me to get a little energy to where I can actually get up and clean a tad.. (not a lot, but its a start!) It has a very "earthy" taste, and even swallowing the pills is extremely hard.. makes me want to vomit. The only thing that worries me is Ive heard it fills the opiate receptors just like methadone, so i hope I'm not just delaying the inevitable. I did buy some Loperamide 2 mg capsules. I've heard that can help as well. Does anyone know the dosage to help with withdrawals? I just feel like I'm sinking into depression.. anyhow, I'm glad you all are here. And thanks for all your replys and good wishes. I'll update tomorrow!
 
It does bind to some of the reseptors but I found out that you take as much as you need to just so you can get off the couch and feel a little better. And I read somewhere that it won't flood the reseptors like any opiates would so it will let them heal at the same time when only taking a few grams at a time. I would only take it for the first week and take a little less every time you take some. I have known a bunch of my friends that quit this way including me. I started taking 1.5 oz to feel ok from H
 
@z06-frank

Hey, I sent you a PM (I think??? I thought I was not allowed to???), let me know if you get it, it contains my email address.

Sorry to hijack this thread in any way. :(

Peace.
 
Hey SC-

How goes it today? You feelin alright? How are your depression symptoms?

Did you research supplements like 5-HTP? Just be CAREFUL... just because something is a supplement and legal, does not prevent interactions. It boosts serotonin, so if you are taking, for example, antidepressants, it could raise serotonin levels dangerously and produce "Serotonin Syndrome" which can be fatal.

Just be sure to do your research. You can probably even call pharmacists and ask them questions. Probably could call head nurse at a hospital with some questions too if you need more info than what a drug interaction checker can provide.

They are generally helpful. I have spoken with pharmacists before, they will generally tell you whatever they know to help you.

Let us know how you are!

Peace :)
 
Hey op. I highly suggest you look into Kratom. I am on day 4 with no methadone today after over 3 years of use and abuse, ( never taking that fucking poison again). I know what your going though and the only thing that has helped with the withdrawal has been the Kratom. I don't know what state your in (some states outlawed it). But if your local headshop sells it, you should try and see if it helps you as much as it has for me. Don't over use it if it helps though because I hear it has a very similar withdrawal. Kratom helps with all the opiate withdrawal symptoms. It does not fully cure them by any means. But it will make life live able while you wait for your body to rid itself of the methadone. Do some research and see if it's something you want to try. Get some red veined for night and green veined for the day. After you figure out what kind helps the most order some online. It's about 20 times cheaper than my local sources. Best of luck. Just remember your not the only one going through it rite now and sober life can be great. I sure miss not needing anything but food and water to survive.
 
How you holding up love? I'm on day 2going no H. I'm fighting with ya!!! Stay strong!!! :-)

Peace.
 
scarolina1886 said:
Hey all,

I'm still here. I don't even know what day this is, day 5 I think? Im still trucking through, although today has been particularly tough. I've been breaking down in tears over anything. But Abetterway, yes I ending up getting the Bali strain, and it was in capsules. According the guy at the shop ( and he seemed really informed) there was a gram in each capsule. I got lucky and got what I believe to be the "right" dosage for me, 5 capsules. I've dosed twice once in the am and once in the pm yesterday and today. It helps me to get a little energy to where I can actually get up and clean a tad.. (not a lot, but its a start!) It has a very "earthy" taste, and even swallowing the pills is extremely hard.. makes me want to vomit. The only thing that worries me is Ive heard it fills the opiate receptors just like methadone, so i hope I'm not just delaying the inevitable. I did buy some Loperamide 2 mg capsules. I've heard that can help as well. Does anyone know the dosage to help with withdrawals? I just feel like I'm sinking into depression.. anyhow, I'm glad you all are here. And thanks for all your replys and good wishes. I'll update tomorrow!
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stay strong!

welcome to the site, and feel free to come visit us in Sober Living to let us know how you're doing. :)
 
Hey everyone,
I havent updated in a while. I did do the Kratom for several days which was awesome in terms of helping. Then I sat on the couch a few more days feeling shitty then a few more days shitty and pheening for my pain pills. Then the next few days in various clinics attempting to get said pills. I was successful on two occasions, so unfortunatley I did relapse. I know Methadone helps so many ppl, it did me for the 2 years I was on it. But it's hell to get off it. I'm going to take these 17 lortabs I have left and slowly taper myself down. I know I'm just prlonging the inevitable however since I'm once again filling up those opium receptors. While on Methadone I was a pretty nice person. Now I just feel angry, depressed, anxious all the time and just bitter. very, very bitter. I'm starting to hate who Im becoming. I wish so bad I could be happy without a narcotic. My 6 year old even told me "cant you go back to the clinic? your being really mean" :( That's sad as shit. I love my kids but he's right I've been mean. Anything will set me off. My husband told me yesterday at 5pm, "cant you just go to bed? i don't know whats wrong with yuo but your getting on everyones nerves" But he's right. He has never been an addict( he can geta buzz from pills or alchohol and dosent have that addictive personality) so he dosent understand Methadone withdrawl or what im dealing with. His mindset is I'm a wife im a mother and i just need to get over it deal with it and learn to live sober. I just dont know how to do that. Yesterday while laying in bed i even had the though of "i wonderhow many clonidine it would take to bottom out my blood pressure and heartrate" Just stupid shit. I would never do anything to hurt myself especially bc of my kids but it's scaring me that im even having those thoughts. But anyhow i did want to update, even thought its not a good update but it' reality i guess.. Thank you to everyone who has commented on my posts and cheered me on.. i really appreciate it more than you will ever know. It's hard bc I have no family or friends down here. At this point im not even taking the lortabs to get any type of buzz like i used too, im just using them to fill those opiote receptors. My heart goes out to anyone detoxing or who has detoxed. Only an addict can understand the true struggles we go through, and it's not that were lazy or just want to get *ucked up. It's truly a brain imbalance. I'm not making excuses for myself. I want more than anyone to put these days behind me.. I'm almost 29 a mother of 2 (and would like a 3rd child someday but it's not a possibilty obviously while im using) I've been married to my husband since I was 19 and with the exception of my two pregnancies he has never seen my clean( the only reason i was able to stay clean throughout my pregnancies was the excitment and knowlege that i would ahve a baby at the end of it) so this is a huge shock to him, and i think hes worried im going to be a bitch for the rest of my life. But thanks for listening everyone and GL to you all in everything that you do. I will check this post again for any comments and reply :)
 
Hey there sweet lady :-)

Don't feel bad. I fucked up a bit too....thought I'd fuck up from physical pain ....but nope! I always forget how AWFUL my anxiety is when I'm not even smoking weed....

For now I too am filling those receptors, but not as much, as I look for natural alternatives. Valerian Root has helped me sleep before. I'm wondering if in lower doses it'll help my anxiety without knocking me out.

We will get there. Together. I'll keep in touch with ya. Later on I'll PM you my email address.

No, no one who hasn't gone through a nasty withdrawal "gets it". But, I do :-)

We will figure it out! There has to be a way to calm our brains down that isn't troublesome, illegal, etc. We will find it! I believe in working out our issues by being mindful and self-aware. Yes. Absolutely. I also know that sometimes, at least temporary help is needed as well. Iow, my goal is to overcome my anxiety, through growing and changing. Right now, however, my anxiety is so strong I'm blocking myself. And I won't feel bad taking Valerian or something, until I'm in a safer, better position to make more permanent changes via hard work. And I am working hard at it now, too. Given my history I know it's the chemicals in my brain. I believe in the power of positivity, the POWER of LOVE, and the power of neuroplasticity, too! We can be better :-)


Keep your chin up girl.

Peace. :-)

2nd Edit: Here is a beautiful article. Maybe it will cheer you up :-)

http://tinybuddha.com/blog/you-are-broken-let-me-fix-you/

3rd edit lol: Are you into anything creative? Drawing, writing (articles, poems, stories, etc), photography, refurbishing furniture, repurposing items, etc etc?
 
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