Middle school Addiction?

[Willz]

I have read many threads of the difficulties addicts face when trying to slow down or completly "shut off" their drug use, short term or long term. They experience minor to serious withdraws, especially in the first week of cutting there daily high off. Constant Headaches, Insomnia, Abdominal cramping, and Muscle aches that are extremely uncomfortable. I have taken high doses of Opiates to Benzos routinely, yet I have experienced nothing. Let me give you so background information.

I have never touched or thought about drugs two months prior to 2015 New Year. I was doing well in school with a 4.00 GPA, and not much absences. Then, I took my first narcotic ever that my friend gave me, a OxyContin 5 mg Pill. Nothing much really happened other than the slightest buzz because it was 5 mg. As things lead to one another, me and my friend start stealing from our loved ones and family. We found Opiates, Benzodiazepines, Barbiturates, Stimulants, basically anything that Yahoo Answers said you could get a nice high off of. This included Methadone, Percocet, Norco, Valium, Xanax, Adderall, Ritalin, Fioricet, Desoyxn.

I started not only taking these pills, but sooner I became known as the middle school drug dealer. Kids from the 7th grade would text me asking to buy Xanax, this was quite surprising because the middle school I was attending was one of the best in Michigan. I would only sell to two of my good friends that I could trust, anything from just making a 20$ deal, to bringing up to 20 Percocet's >no prices< Deal. Within a month I made up to above 500$, which is great for a kid who isn't even old enough to work.

I don't believe I was a addict, my friend and I promised to only take it once a week every Friday to avoid any serious addiction. I used to take 25mg of Hydrocodone every Friday in school, then it escalated to 40mg-50mg of Hydrocodone every Monday and Friday. Things were speeding up but my grades were still all A's so I decided what the hell. At this point I wasn't taking drugs in school just to be more social with friends, but now I was literally trying to become "Fucked Up. Once, I took 16 Norcos at once (7.5/325) which was 120mg of Hydrocodone, I had no concern of the acetaminophen amount, I just was anticipating to doze off in class. For a middle school kid with a mid tolerance, that much Hydrocodone was enough to almost make me pass out in the middle of second hour.

I was ready to experiment with new drugs from the other school (mainly weed) drug dealer. I wouldv'e taken PCP, DMT, MDMA, GHB, 4-ACO-DipT, Mescaline, Psilocybin, basically anything that can screw me up more than my current customary routine. I never did try any of these because I was caught in the middle of school, and arrested which was a good thing I guess. I was charged with distribution of a controlled substance and possession of a controlled substance, and got a 2 year probation because of my age.

After getting caught and going clean, nothing physically or mentally happened to me. I felt the same, I didn't really want to get high anymore after seeing the consequences that it put on my family and education(expelled for the rest of the school year, able to resume school in beginning of high school.) Is there different levels of addiction? Is there a difference between just wanting to get high and being mentally addicted? I never did experience any withdraws, depression, or pain.

Thank you

 

[Ringo88]

I have read many threads of the difficulties addicts face when trying to slow down or completly "shut off" their drug use, short term or long term. They experience minor to serious withdraws, especially in the first week of cutting there daily high off. Constant Headaches, Insomnia, Abdominal cramping, and Muscle aches that are extremely uncomfortable. I have taken high doses of Opiates to Benzos routinely, yet I have experienced nothing. Let me give you so background information.

I have never touched or thought about drugs two months prior to 2015 New Year. I was doing well in school with a 4.00 GPA, and not much absences. Then, I took my first narcotic ever that my friend gave me, a OxyContin 5 mg Pill. Nothing much really happened other than the slightest buzz because it was 5 mg. As things lead to one another, me and my friend start stealing from our loved ones and family. We found Opiates, Benzodiazepines, Barbiturates, Stimulants, basically anything that Yahoo Answers said you could get a nice high off of. This included Methadone, Percocet, Norco, Valium, Xanax, Adderall, Ritalin, Fioricet, Desoyxn.

I started not only taking these pills, but sooner I became known as the middle school drug dealer. Kids from the 7th grade would text me asking to buy Xanax, this was quite surprising because the middle school I was attending was one of the best in Michigan. I would only sell to two of my good friends that I could trust, anything from just making a 20$ deal, to bringing up to 20 Percocet's and attending a 200$ Deal. Within a month I made up to above 500$, which is great for a kid who isn't even old enough to work.

I don't believe I was a addict, my friend and I promised to only take it once a week every Friday to avoid any serious addiction. I used to take 25mg of Hydrocodone every Friday in school, then it escalated to 40mg-50mg of Hydrocodone every Monday and Friday. Things were speeding up but my grades were still all A's so I decided what the hell. At this point I wasn't taking drugs in school just to be more social with friends, but now I was literally trying to become "Fucked Up. Once, I took 16 Norcos at once (7.5/325) which was 120mg of Hydrocodone, I had no concern of the acetaminophen amount, I just was anticipating to doze off in class. For a middle school kid with a mid tolerance, that much Hydrocodone was enough to almost make me pass out in the middle of second hour.

I was ready to experiment with new drugs from the other school (mainly weed) drug dealer. I wouldv'e taken PCP, DMT, MDMA, GHB, 4-ACO-DipT, Mescaline, Psilocybin, basically anything that can screw me up more than my current customary routine. I never did try any of these because I was caught in the middle of school, and arrested which was a good thing I guess. I was charged with distribution of a controlled substance and possession of a controlled substance, and got a 2 year probation because of my age.

After getting caught and going clean, nothing physically or mentally happened to me. I felt the same, I didn't really want to get high anymore after seeing the consequences that it put on my family and education(expelled for the rest of the school year, able to resume school in beginning of high school.) Is there different levels of addiction? Is there a difference between just wanting to get high and being mentally addicted? I never did experience any withdraws, depression, or pain.

Thank you

Man, that's quite the story, and I'm glad you got caught, because you were headed down a path of destruction brother. I'm guessing, because you took them throughout the week, and not every day, you didn't develop full blown addiction, but from the sounds of it, you were well on your way. Your young man, you have your ENTIRE life ahead of you! How I envy you, being young and having the best years of your life right in front of you. Please buddy, learn from this experience. It sounds like you have, but trust me, you don't want to be addicted to any of those drugs.

I'm addicted to benzos (Xanax, Valium, Klonopin). Valium is the benzo that I take everyday. These are Dr. prescribed mind you, but my body is dependent on them. If I were to stop taking them, I could have a seizure after a couple of days and die. It's hell man, a real living hell. I'm glad you can see what you put not only yourself through, but your family through as well. I take 15mg of Valium a day, and every time I make a cut off that dose, it puts me through hell. It will probably take me another year to be completely off, then another year or two years for my brain to heal. I'll be close to 30 by then.

I'm surprised you didn't have any consequences taking that much acetaminophen, that's over 5 grams if you took 16 7.5/325 Norcos. The body is amazing at getting rid of toxic substances though, and I've heard of people taking much more and being fine. Just learn from this man, just because you didn't get addicted this time, doesn't mean you won't the next. Addiction is hell.

The last few weeks, I've contemplated suicide for the first time in my life. That's how hard it is to get off some of these drugs, in my case benzos. Like I said, I envy you, I wish I was your age and could start over, but I can't. I'm 27 years old, and I wasted most of the best years of my life doing drugs, abusing Adderall for the most part, then Xanax, which got me addicted to benzodiazepines.

I pray you learn from this, and I wish you the best. You don't need any of that shit man, your young and full of life. Good luck you to, you sound like a smart guy. Use that intelligence and stay away from this bullshit.

 

[nygiants1313]

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All my aquaintences from middle school that were using drugs are either dead, in jail, wishing they were dead, homeless or in and out of rehab and im only 25 lol.

go keep your grades good, and stay outta trouble and live a nice life. Save this to look back in a few years and I promise you'll thank us, as this will be the best advice you will receive.