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Falsely Accused

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Husband and I tried jib for the third time. I'm aware it causes paranoia in him, but tonight was different. I was accused of trying to run off with a friend to fuck, texting someone else ( another friend, asking how she was doing), and that seemed to be taken as me wanting to fuck her. He was completely convinced that I was ready to throw away eight years of being together because he was afraid I would leave. I was, and still am, afraid to say or do anything because of fear of being scrutinized and accused of something else.

I gave him my phone and he went through everything trying to find something to prove I was being unfaithful or planning to leave. I started to cry, and he said that I was doing it because I was guilty of something. I cried for hours, I have no idea what I'm supposed to do or say. At one point I was so stressed out that I vomited, which opened up another stress response attack. I love this man, but the man that I saw tonight is not the man I married. He accused me of fingering myself in front of a friend, even though I just need to adjust my pants. Anything I did, I felt watched and judged.

Is this a normal experience of paranoia? Can anyone please tell me?
 
I am very sorry to hear that. When drugs come to our lives we become different, possessed and we hurt those who are most near, and very often those who we love the most.
We do that because such anger are easier to dispose to those we have spontaneously lived together for so long.
Things like that happens and you need to look for your strong point/side and don't allow yourself to go through this.
Make sure he knows that you are trying.
Suggest you start drawing limits for what you can't accept.
He loves you, he'll regret be strong and don't let yourself down like that.
 
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As has been said, your description most definitely matches that of someone with stimulant psychosis. Most likely though you'll both go back to normal once the drugs + hangover dissipate.

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Yes as everyone above has stated this is a case of meth psychosis. You know he was not himselff during this time and when he snaps out of it and comes back I am sure he will feel bad and ask for your forgiveness, especially if you two truly love each other. If possible at all costs try to not use this stuff again as clearly he has very nasty reactions to the stuff as most do I would imagine. My best wishes <3 things will get better.
 
baooozs said:
As has been said, your description most definitely matches that of someone with stimulant psychosis. Most likely though you'll both go back to normal once the drugs + hangover
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Agree with that, but don't settle and DO move on as quickly as you can.
This person clearly loves you but nothing is worth having suffer like that much.
It makes you deeply sad and feel that you put yourself down and the feelings of being unappreciated hurts you immensely.

If both of you were influenced one great reason not repeat the dose.

Seek help (as you see there are better threads) but make sure you don't take more than what you can handle.

Nobody can cope with that much mental breakdown.
I deeply related to your post, it made me real sad. When you love someone that much you become too vulnerable and that affects your physical health more than you can imagine.
 
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Is he controlling and jealous in general, or did this come completely out of left field only while he was experiencing psychosis (which he clearly was)?
 
My question is does his doubt and paranoia still linger? Since I cannot imagine any high being worth that (now that you know that's what it does), have you both decided to leave that one alone? Seems the logical conclusion to me.
 
I believe he is deeply sorry. It was paranoia but it was also him and his character.
 
As has been stated this really screams stimulant induced paranoia/psychosis.

Its interesting that he is a male. Usually its females that experience the cheating paranoia. Women have been known to think other women are climbing in through the ventilation system to cheat with thier partners.

This induced paranoia usually take one of a few forms..

Government/police type surveillance.. where people start to think they are being surveilled and that there are cameras and listening devices recording them and that they are being monitored.

Criminals/bad people.. where people think there are people intent on doing them harm.

Cheating.. where people think thier partners are cheating or planning to cheat on them.

I would not use meth or other stimulants and this should prevent this from happening.
 
Yeah I've heard of this happening a lot before...particularly with crystal and MDMA, those are both infamous for ruining relationships IMO. Nothing I could that hasn't been said; basically does he still feel this way about you? Could be simply paranoia but it could also be digging up some deep subconscious fears of his. Being afraid and being suspicious are two completely different things though. If he's still suspicious, then that's a huge issue.
 
neversickanymore said:
As has been stated this really screams stimulant induced paranoia/psychosis.

Its interesting that he is a male. Usually its females that experience the cheating paranoia. Women have been known to think other women are climbing in through the ventilation system to cheat with thier partners.

This induced paranoia usually take one of a few forms..

Government/police type surveillance.. where people start to think they are being surveilled and that there are cameras and listening devices recording them and that they are being monitored.

Criminals/bad people.. where people think there are people intent on doing them harm.

Cheating.. where people think thier partners are cheating or planning to cheat on them.

I would not use meth or other stimulants and this should prevent this from happening.
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This.
 
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