I overdosed on heron tonight.

[Pob]

Sorry, I misspelled the title. It's meant to say "I* Overdosed on heroin* tonight." I'm still a little shaken up from it all.

TL;DR: I'm lucky to be alive. Thank you God for not bringing me home. I'm never doing heroin again.. It could have killed me dead.

Tonight, I overdosed on heroin. A friend of mine hit me up, and said that he was getting a 50 sack. I immediately told her that I wanted a point of it and that I was coming over to enjoy it with her. We then went to the gas station and got some red bull. I also bought a pack of cigarettes. I had been drinking Bud light Lime'ritas all night, and had probably had 6-7 of the smaller ones. As we were leaving the gas station parking lot, I snorted about one point of some very high grade heroin.
I asked my friend where my brother was over and over, and panicked. Thats I guess about the time that I lost consciousness and layed in the grass.

My brother then as he stated gave my CPR, and instantly checked my vital sign. He then realized that I apparently wasn't breathing, and that I needed medical attention. He then called 911, and told the operator that he thought I was overdosing, and that they needed to send an ambulance. Thats when I woke up. I woke up to sirens going off, and the feeling of a shaking ambulance racing down the highway. I remember being strapped down very tightly, and the EMS trying very hard to get me to come back. They were attempting to ask me many questions, but I was very high. From what I heard after being given narcan, and waking up, is that I was found unresponsive and that I was very lucky that I hadn't died.

They put me on a breating machine, and apparently performed an EKG, or something. I don't know what that meant, but I found a green bracelet on afterword that said "EKG completed."
In the ambulance my shirt, and pants were cut straight off so they could access my skin I guess. I was given an IV in my hand, and both arms, and was strapped down in the hospital. All I remember when I was in the hospital was shaking violently after being given narcan. I was given a drug test for some reason in the hospital and they had to give me a catheter because I was unable to pee after doing so many opiates. They make it rather difficult for me to urinate for some reason, or another. In all, this has been the most eye opening experience I've ever gone through.

I'm never using heroin again, and I have decided to only smoke cannabis for that matter. No drug is worth my life, and I now realize that. I only have God to thank for keeping me on this earth, and not bringing me back home for being so irresponsible with a very strong substance. Thank you God. Feel free to leave your two cents. Please be mindful, I've gone through a lot in the last 12 hours.

Thank you Bluelight community for listening to the craziest thing I've ever gone through in my life..
I'm only 19, and I want to enjoy the rest of my life. Not die from something that was too powerful in the first place to ingest.
- - M. Chase

 

[Kcwhite]

sounds like you have been where many a person has not made it back from. I've overdosed several times over the years and as dumb as it was, that never made me want to quit. In fact, it had nothing to do with why I finally ended up quiting. I'm still thanking God for sparing my life... several times. I'm glad you made it out alive! I hope that really was your last time with lady h, because frankly too many of us are dieing. Godspeed friend, I wish you the best of luck in your journey to recovery.

 

[Pob]

sounds like you have been where many a person has not made it back from. I've overdosed several times over the years and as dumb as it was, that never made me want to quit. In fact, it had nothing to do with why I finally ended up quiting. I'm still thanking God for sparing my life... several times. I'm glad you made it out alive! I hope that really was your last time with lady h, because frankly too many of us are dieing. Godspeed friend, I wish you the best of luck in your journey to recovery.

Thank you for your encouraging words Kcwhite. It means a lot to me after what I've been through tonight. I wish you the very best with your recovery as well. It's a hell of a drug. I also promised my family I wouldn't let anything like this ever happen again too. Thats another reason why I will never go back. I'm still in shock all of this happened. O_O I have needle mark in the side of my neck, what is that from? It's pretty sore still. I was unconscious when they did it I believe.

 

[Kcwhite]

I believe the needle mark in your neck would be from when the emts administered narcan to you to.reverse the effects of the overdose.( i forgot to mention that it was narcan, not norco they gave you, norco is an opiate pain killer and you now know what narcan does) I could be mistaken, but that's usually where I got hit iirc. Are the marks on a vein or a random spot on your neck? Please for your sake do not ever forget or minimize this experience, that's what I did. So I came to believe I was invisible to a degree. I would always say, well I didn't die so it must not be my time. Do you have any plans or thoughts as far as recovery goes?

 

[Pob]

I believe the needle mark in your neck would be from when the emts administered narcan to you to.reverse the effects of the overdose.( i forgot to mention that it was narcan, not norco they gave you, norco is an opiate pain killer and you now know what narcan does) I could be mistaken, but that's usually where I got hit iirc. Are the marks on a vein or a random spot on your neck? Please for your sake do not ever forget or minimize this experience, that's what I did. So I came to believe I was invisible to a degree. I would always say, well I didn't die so it must not be my time. Do you have any plans or thoughts as far as recovery goes?

Thats what it's called! Narcan. Not Narco. My mistake. And There is only one needle hole in my neck, and I believe it's right on a vain. And I know what you mean, I have a friend that overdosed about a month and and he is already using again. It scares me to death.. I've seen him come so close to Od'ing so many times even before the time he did, and had to go to the hospital. and I only have one plan as of now. I'm going to start going to NA meetings in hope that I can find some new drug free friends that know what I'm going through. I know one of the reasons I started using again was because of the people I surrounded myself around, but thats not the only reason. Most of them inject themselves many times a day, and that is the last thing I need right now in my life, is people that will not be supportive of my decision to become clean again. It's not easy coming off of it, but I know it's for the best.

 

[d-nihl]

shit bro, sounds scary...I hope its enough to keep you sober! god speed.

 

[Pob]

shit bro, sounds scary...I hope its enough to keep you sober! god speed.

It definitely was very scary, and absolutely is enough to keep me sober. I'm going to get suboxone today, and I'm going to start my recovery.

 

[Kcwhite]

Thats what it's called! Narcan. Not Narco. My mistake. And There is only one needle hole in my neck, and I believe it's right on a vain. And I know what you mean, I have a friend that overdosed about a month and and he is already using again. It scares me to death.. I've seen him come so close to Od'ing so many times even before the time he did, and had to go to the hospital. and I only have one plan as of now. I'm going to start going to NA meetings in hope that I can find some new drug free friends that know what I'm going through. I know one of the reasons I started using again was because of the people I surrounded myself around, but thats not the only reason. Most of them inject themselves many times a day, and that is the last thing I need right now in my life, is people that will not be supportive of my decision to become clean again. It's not easy coming off of it, but I know it's for the best.

That's prolly the best thing you can do at this point. I wish you the best of luck with your recovery. Remember, you dont have to use ever again! All you have to do is don't pick up that first one. Good luck man! I hope you get where you want to go in life.

 

[OrangeSunshine]

It definitely was very scary, and absolutely is enough to keep me sober. I'm going to get suboxone today, and I'm going to start my recovery.

How long have you used Heroin? I know from experience that if you have not been a long term user of heroin or opiates/opioids that suboxone can have some undesired effects on your body.

 

[Kcwhite]

How long have you used Heroin? I know from experience that if you have not been a long term user of heroin or opiates/opioids that suboxone can have some undesired effects on your body.

this guy has a very good point! If you can get by without it then don't get it. I know from experience that addiction to sub is horrible! Try to get your recovery off the ground without sub or methadone. If you do have a long term addiction to h then sub and methadone can be beneficial ,if you do not have a physical addiction to h then forget the subs bc you will regret it.

 

[herbavore]

OP, I am so glad that you survived. I am going to tell you a cautionary tale right now and I hope that it helps you. I am not telling you to cause fear or to project anything negative onto the wonderful resolve that you feel at this moment, simply to give you a heads up. When you have a near death experience it has a powerful way of resetting your priorities, of stripping you down to your truest self. There is a lot of strength in that but you have to grab that moment of clarity and do hard work to hang onto it.

A year before my son died of a morphine overdose, he "died" of a heroin overdose--his first time injecting. He, like you, was not breathing when he was revived and given Narcan in an ambulance. He had the same passionate resolve to change his relationship with drugs. What he did not have was a clear understanding that drugs were not the real problem, they were the symptom of the deeper problem of healing the despair inside. You need to go all the way back to what needs and wants and pain in your life calls out for oblivion. What needs to change in you, in your world, in your family maybe or your perceptions of yourself? While you have this beautiful love for your life, grab the tiger by the tail and use the strength of this experience and keep going forward. Heal what needs to be healed in you.

Read about suboxone and everyone's struggle to get off it when they feel ready--they are pretty convincing that if you do not have to go on subs to stay off heroin, you should try to simply get off everything. Smoking weed may help you initially--maybe even long-term--but even that I would say is also up for debate. Learning to be completely drug free is a liberty that allows you the control of when and how you may choose to change your consciousness in the future. It is all about having a healthy relationship with yourself.

 

[neversickanymore]

I'm never using heroin again, and I have decided to only smoke cannabis for that matter. No drug is worth my life, and I now realize that.

This is a quality idea 4$hure

Glad your still with us!!

 

[Pob]

That's prolly the best thing you can do at this point. I wish you the best of luck with your recovery. Remember, you dont have to use ever again! All you have to do is don't pick up that first one. Good luck man! I hope you get where you want to go in life.

Thank you very much for all of the pointers, and heads up Kcwhite, and you are absolutely right, if I don't use ever again, how will I ever possibly go down from it again? I plan to go back to school at some point, now that I am getting sober.

 

[Pob]

How long have you used Heroin? I know from experience that if you have not been a long term user of heroin or opiates/opioids that suboxone can have some undesired effects on your body.

I've been using for about a year and half now, and had been taking oxycodone for approximately 6 months before that year and a half. I've tried to stop twice now, and I've relapsed twice now. I'm currently physically dependant, so as much as I don't want to use suboxone, I don't think I'd be able to handle going through withdrawls without them. I have used suboxone in the past, as well as methadone, but suboxone seemed to work better for me. Thank you for the heads up on suboxone though, you are 100% correct on that point.

 

[cj]

I'm glad you survived Pob! Mixing alcohol and dope is a very bad idea. It doesn't sound like you have a huge habit so hopefully your withdrawals won't be too bad if your physically addicted. Suboxone has helped me but it does have nasty withdrawals if you stay on it a long time. For me it was either maintenance or prison,death,rehab. I couldn't stop using because of the cravings and PAWS. Sub isn't like a magic cure for all your problems but it adds stability in that you never have to worry about withdrawals. No need to steal,hustle, ect. If I dont have money I just eat a sub and go on with my day. But yeah like Herbavoe said being off opiates completely is preferable if you can do it.

 

[Evergreendreams]

Im happy that you made it through this. You are wiser now than before, you have had an experience and maybe some day you will be able to help others because of this. It happened for a reason, you are blessed you made it through this. Im glad you have chosen to see the positive and live your life to the fullest. What a scary experience..Im worried some day this will be me. That's why I always try to be very very careful and always research my drugs and combinations before I do anything! Not saying that was your mistake at all, just speaking from my personal worries. Glad you are ok.

 

[herbavore]

I am so very glad that you not only survived but learned from your experience.

 

[What was it?]

Sorry, I misspelled the title. It's meant to say "I* Overdosed on heroin* tonight." I'm still a little shaken up from it all.



Tonight, I overdosed on heroin. A friend of mine hit me up, and said that he was getting a 50 sack. I immediately told her that I wanted a point of it and that I was coming over to enjoy it with her. We then went to the gas station and got some red bull. I also bought a pack of cigarettes. I had been drinking Bud light Lime'ritas all night, and had probably had 6-7 of the smaller ones. As we were leaving the gas station parking lot, I snorted about one point of some very high grade heroin.
I asked my friend where my brother was over and over, and panicked. Thats I guess about the time that I lost consciousness and layed in the grass.

My brother then as he stated gave my CPR, and instantly checked my vital sign. He then realized that I apparently wasn't breathing, and that I needed medical attention. He then called 911, and told the operator that he thought I was overdosing, and that they needed to send an ambulance. Thats when I woke up. I woke up to sirens going off, and the feeling of a shaking ambulance racing down the highway. I remember being strapped down very tightly, and the EMS trying very hard to get me to come back. They were attempting to ask me many questions, but I was very high. From what I heard after being given narcan, and waking up, is that I was found unresponsive and that I was very lucky that I hadn't died.

They put me on a breating machine, and apparently performed an EKG, or something. I don't know what that meant, but I found a green bracelet on afterword that said "EKG completed."
In the ambulance my shirt, and pants were cut straight off so they could access my skin I guess. I was given an IV in my hand, and both arms, and was strapped down in the hospital. All I remember when I was in the hospital was shaking violently after being given narcan. I was given a drug test for some reason in the hospital and they had to give me a catheter because I was unable to pee after doing so many opiates. They make it rather difficult for me to urinate for some reason, or another. In all, this has been the most eye opening experience I've ever gone through.

I'm never using heroin again, and I have decided to only smoke cannabis for that matter. No drug is worth my life, and I now realize that. I only have God to thank for keeping me on this earth, and not bringing me back home for being so irresponsible with a very strong substance. Thank you God. Feel free to leave your two cents. Please be mindful, I've gone through a lot in the last 12 hours.

Thank you Bluelight community for listening to the craziest thing I've ever gone through in my life..
I'm only 19, and I want to enjoy the rest of my life. Not die from something that was too powerful in the first place to ingest.
- - M. Chase

I am sorry to hear what you have gone through and it's the right decision to quit heroin (I did too). Though to be honest, I find it highly unlikely that 1 bag (50-100mg) snorted could give you a serious OD, even without a tolerance. Let's say it was 60mg of pure heroin. Most people would be pretty blasted and vomitting but not breathing? IV is a different story. Long story short, i think it was fentanyl, alpha-fentanyl or 4-Methylfentanyl. Whoever is selling this, tell your friends that are still using to stay away I'd recommend.

Given you have a certain tolerance and even physical dependence it's even more weird....hmm....could have been the combo with the alcohol.

 

[What was it?]

OP, I am so glad that you survived. I am going to tell you a cautionary tale right now and I hope that it helps you. I am not telling you to cause fear or to project anything negative onto the wonderful resolve that you feel at this moment, simply to give you a heads up. When you have a near death experience it has a powerful way of resetting your priorities, of stripping you down to your truest self. There is a lot of strength in that but you have to grab that moment of clarity and do hard work to hang onto it.

A year before my son died of a morphine overdose, he "died" of a heroin overdose--his first time injecting. He, like you, was not breathing when he was revived and given Narcan in an ambulance. He had the same passionate resolve to change his relationship with drugs. What he did not have was a clear understanding that drugs were not the real problem, they were the symptom of the deeper problem of healing the despair inside. You need to go all the way back to what needs and wants and pain in your life calls out for oblivion. What needs to change in you, in your world, in your family maybe or your perceptions of yourself? While you have this beautiful love for your life, grab the tiger by the tail and use the strength of this experience and keep going forward. Heal what needs to be healed in you.

Read about suboxone and everyone's struggle to get off it when they feel ready--they are pretty convincing that if you do not have to go on subs to stay off heroin, you should try to simply get off everything. Smoking weed may help you initially--maybe even long-term--but even that I would say is also up for debate. Learning to be completely drug free is a liberty that allows you the control of when and how you may choose to change your consciousness in the future. It is all about having a healthy relationship with yourself.

These are really wise words. Couldn't agree more. Peace is within. Happiness and misery can be found in the external world but peace is within.