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ScotchMist said:
How is you all?? Dandy?

I've not long got out of bed 8(... Not like me at all.. I went with a heroic dose of mxe last night which was grand, but it's left me feeling a bit ropey today... :(

I may also be quiting work for a bit and checkIng in to a rehab for a bit.. A little apprehensive but I'm pretty sure I've exhausted all other avenues.. We will see..

Anyone up to much other than making fanny pads ;) what they made out of kate?
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Hello sir :)

That sounds horrible:( have lots of water or some green tea, some vitamins, fruit etc. You're gonna be fine.

Depends on how bad is your addiction? Are you affecting other people with it? Be your own judge, but if you feel like you need a break/help imo rehab would the best thing to do. Don't forget about tiny classified ads also =D

Best of luck :)
 
englandgz74 said:
"I can see you now" on that picture on my fb page?....i just saw it and I don't get it??
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Just that I could actually see your face properly. I'm pretty new to fb, been trying to keep up with family and post some old pics up Felix has been scanning for me. It's hard bloody work this facebook stuff!

Dan - if you still like can you send me your name through, I wasn't using it when you last asked. Only thing is I have a no-drug chat rule.

lurching said:
You just did! But I'm sure they won't mind. Insensitive clots!
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I adore you <3

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Yeah I think it is what I need now. I've spent to many years trying to juggle it all, it's just getting worse all the time and my mental health is suffering for it as I try to please everyone around me, however in truth I just keep disappointing them all..

Time to step off for a bit, ive being toying with the idea for a while but was too concerned about those who rely on me financially.. A couple of months hardship is a small price to pay I guess whilst I get my act together, I'm no good to anyone dead which would more than likely be the outcome If I try to sustain what im doing..

Sorry for the morbid shit :\
 
ScotchMist said:
Yeah I think it is what I need now. I've spent to many years trying to juggle it all, it's just getting worse all the time and my mental health is suffering for it as I try to please everyone around me, however in truth I just keep disappointing them all..

Time to step off for a bit, ive being toying with the idea for a while but was too concerned about those who rely on me financially.. A couple of months hardship is a small price to pay I guess whilst I get my act together, I'm no good to anyone dead which would more than likely be the outcome If I try to sustain what im doing..

Sorry for the morbid shit :\
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It's not morbid. How are you supposed to be responsible for all these things when you're not fully well yourself. You can't. It's about time you put yourself first for a wee while to get better and fitter to take all that stuff back on again.

If your mental health is suffering its not going to get any better untreated or self-treated, that too many of us have done in the past. You're young, you have a good chance of getting over this without too much difficulty.

Sorry if that was a bit honest Mr Mist - but its about bloody time you got put to the top of the list and got well. <3

Other folk will just have to take responsibility for their own finances etc - that's how life goes. I brought 2 boys up myself without a penny from anyone else. Nobody suffered. Actually I thrived on the responsibility of it and my boys have a lot of respect for me and independent women. Stop feeling guilty.
 
I'm sorry to hear that scotchy mate. I'm often wondering how you're managing with everything. You did so well getting off the heroin and then winning the missus back. Is it just the mxe and dissociative stuff your having issues with or is it other stuff too?

Maybe rehab would be the best option for you in the long run as losing a month or two wages is a small price to pay for having the rest of your life back. I admit you greatly in having the common sense to recognise that matters need addressing before things get out of hand. Best of luck tl you mage and please keep me informed on how you're doing.
 
Not at all Kate, I appreciate honesty. <3

@ Englandz - it wasn't so much the phone was melting, it just looked a million miles away and my gigantic thumbs couldn't touch the right keys :D I'll have a look at what I sent now, did it make any sense? I'm sure it didn't say what I was intending to say but it was the best I could muster.. I'll get a decent reply back to you shortly..

@p4nda - yeah, it's bad enough.. im not using a great deal, it's the mental side which has got its grips in to me more than anything... The withdrawals will be a walk in the park compared to previous times, I really just need to get to the crux of the issue and have zero responsibility whilst I do it. As Kate said, just concentrate all my energy in to getting well again..

@Englandz - no mate, it's the heroin again.. I got off it as I have done many a time, but I never deal with the causes, which leads me back to it.. :( As im using so little so withdraw will be done with in a week fairly easily, maybe a bit of feeling ropey for another week. I just need that break with no responsibility to have counselling, CBT etc...
 
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Mr Mist - pick a date, get in somewhere and no more excuses. I'm sure your parents will be supportive. But don't back out this time. Do it.

You can sort work, family etc out and let them bitch, but this is FAR more important to do. All you can do is try and the time has come sweetie. This is long term thinking and action for your life - it may even save your life <3
 
Haha!! No worries mate. It did make perfect sense actually. I imagine just typing anything is a challenge in that state. Sounds awful actually....i don't think id fancy that one bit TBH...Each to their own though and having never tried it, I'm not really in a position to say what its like.
 
I will do... im a stubborn cunt who doesnt like to admit defeat... im Waving a white flag now though..




Time to get it done :)<3
 
ScotchMist said:
I will do... im a stubborn cunt who doesnt like to admit defeat... im Waving a white flag now though..




Time to get it done :)<3
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Well done <3

Keep us updated with your plans etc before going in. But you realise at one point you'll need a sabbatical from here too, as it can be triggering. We can letter, send Evey crystal postcards etc :D I for one would like to know your getting on ok.

You can do this %)
 
Cheers all, much <3

I'm not sure when it'll be yet as it's going to take a bif of planning and saving to cover all the bills and living costs of my family whilst I'm away.. needs to be done though, of that I'm sure...

I'll keep you all up to date on my plans, I'm feeling better in myself just knowing I have a plan.. The last couple of weeks I didn't have the motivation to even post on here, I'd given up.. spirits have been lifted now I can see an exit :)
 
Ta Evey.. I'll use TDS for my future moans on it though seeing as that's what it's there for.. I never really venture outside of EADD unless to go in the MDMA thread to tell someone that MDMA doesn't put holes in your brain 8)...

Updated the Index for you Chat if youre lurking anywhere ;) What with me being a good Mod 'n all :D
 
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