Man oh man... I went to an amazing electronic music show last night, Androcell. His live show was phenomenal, it reminded me of Beats Antique more than anything else I've heard, he even had a belly dancer. And the visual display was WONDERFUL, truly beautiful and great, probably the most effective visual display merged with music I have ever seen. I felt like his music was controlling my brain and body. I did take the MXE + 2C-I combo last night for it so that helped of course, but I found with Beats Antique and now also with Androcell that the music is almost like a magical spell that creates a group mind sort of thing. But oh shit, if you get a chance to see this guy live, DO IT. It was wonderful, beautiful, profound.
We stayed up after til like 6am chilling... we played the recording of the jam I had showed up at at the end of earlier that evening and which I joined for that end part. I thought it had been pretty scattered and not noteworthy, but it turns out it's pretty much genius-level jamming, I can't wait to get it on CD and share it, it's sublime and crazy. I do finally have a jam we did on CD which I can post on Youtube and share with you guys, it's 41 minutes of D major jamming, quite good, not the best we've done but I'm looking forward to sharing it.
To top it all off, when I woke up this morning the other girl I am into texted me and asked me if I wanted to trip today and hang out and play music with her and paint and stuff. I said yeah for sure. I am bringing some 4-HO-MET and 2C-C. I'm also going to cook dinner for us. Her daughter is with her father this weekend so I think she's going to be the maximum amount of fun she can be. This will be a good test to see if it;s worth pursuing and bringing up with the girl I've been seeing, or if we're just going to be friends.
Ah life... you're so good to me right now.
Everything including an opiate-free life

. I suppose that's a bold statement assuming you all have more self-control than myself (which I'm almost certain that all of you do(except for llama no offense lol)). Seriously though, I will eat a .357 hollow-point if I find out my talk of tianeptine caused Xork to relapse and the same pretty much goes to you Laika. I know that sounds dramatic considering I don't really even have personal relationships with you guys, you're all just such good people

. I will say nothing more as I'm sure xork is getting slightly annoyed with me repeatedly voicing my concerns. Just tread lightly is all
Edit: How many emoticons are appropiate for one post? Zero? Ten? 3.1415926535ect.?
I decided to give both my phenibut and my tianeptine to a friend to hang on to for me so I can only use them appropriately at random times where they'd be useful... I'd been feeling the pull of phenibut strongly lately so I added that to the arrangement. I certainly still have polydrug addiction tendencies after ibogaine but one huge difference is that now I have the insight and the motivation to do something like this, and remove the potential issue from my life. Whereas before I would have just said I can handle this and kept it around at home, and perhaps slowly increased my usage.
I have only used the tianeptine twice, at a max of 60mg. At that level it does feel lightly opiate-like and immediately transforms my mindstate into feeling positive and happy, but it doesn't feel like I took an opiate, it just feels good. So I can see the pull, but at the same time I don't want to get rid of it entirely because it can be a useful tool in some situations.