Dude holidays are stressful as shit so give yourself a break.
Isn't that the ironic truth
DWEdawg you're a funny guy and its good to see that you wanna talk about this stuff deadset there's no need to be so hard on yourself man you're still young as fuck still got a solid 50 years of banging ahead of ya if all you do is just take it easy when it comes to getting fucked up, doesn't mean you don't have to never get smashed but its just moderation man. I'm in a situation right now where for the next forseeable 10 months its just better if I be sober, its not impossible because I've done it before and you yourself surely have too once not tooooo long ago like in the big picture man you still got a fat fucking big picture sitting up there waiting to be painted all you just gotta to is take this situation right now by the hips and decide what you wanna do with it.
I know its not easy coming sober but its always them first month maybe two, once you're over that hump shit gets so much better and your brain just starts getting its shit together so well, its an amazing thing the human brain surely don't underestimate yourself on that one either you're not the worst socket wrench when it comes to wit on here and I say that honestly, you haven't cooked it beyond the point of no return yet you still got a long ways to go on that one which is a great thing.
I was flicking TV channels a couple months ago and these two dudes were sitting at the little kitchen round table and they were talking about their bud smoking habits and one said to the other:
"you know them brain training games that you get on your phone how if you do them every day your mind becomes sharper and clearer?"
"yeah"
"well what does smoking weed or drinking every day do to ya?"
I'm paraphrasing but that hit me harder than a fucking freight train when it came to any anti-drugs message that didn't have the scientific evidence of what damage the drug causes to ya, I thought that was nuts. My point there though is man that if you continue down the 'fuck it' path SOOOOOOOOO YOUNG MAN YOU STILL GOT YEARS OF LIVING TO DO then its just like fuck its gonna be a long and torturous 'fuck it'. Hep C isn't the worst thing in the world we got mad advances in medicine these days and think in at least the 50 years of banging you'll be doing by then thanks to the sick upgrades performed on said medicine and Viagra, think how much further you'll be able to go. If you doubt that think how far we've come in the last 50 years; THE INTERNET IS 25 YEARS OLD. Think of all the Hep C positive swinger sites that will be set up by then due to the mad overpopulation.
You got a lot of talking and a lot of partying left to do; just keep the partying in moderation, take a full grip at this man you'll save heaps of dosh
every week by not getting fucked up all the time, you'll be able to handle just about everything once you're over the hump, its just totally worth it man and that's what I've been saying to myself, we're not the only ones and there's millions more saying the same thing. This is a mad fucking essay but I saw ya made this and I thought nah surely I gotta have a geeze, this is my honest 2 cents dawg and even though it went on for days I thought I'd take 10 mins out of my day to really say something decent to you because you're a sick unit and you can surely beat this, you're on top of this its not on top of you that is what you just gotta keep saying to yourself.
Peace mang, goodluck aye
