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i officially like the L better than the MD though (used to be the opposite)
i mean MD is ok
but L is way better.
recreation wise, and health wise
L just makes my dnb sound ridiculously cray
and thats what i'm going for atm

mane has bars
dog says
"wrote my ex a love letter, said bitch i love drum and bass more than you, no regretta"
i think thats teh lyric. thats the most awesome thing i've ever herd
anyway
i'm going to get money and stock up on L.
so that i'm good for the next few monfs, seen?
i mean i'm going to amass up a stock of MD but the MD stock will be small
like a gram, if that.
cause manedog, i cant do that stuff without speed, and i'm not doing it again not at a party anyway
so there's criteria for me taking MD, whereas L i can do whenever (although i've yet to try daytripping...i like doing most drugs at night, not so much during the day. even when i was on heroin i'd mainly get it in at night...)
 
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thenightwatch said:
got a 3.75GPA this semester at school, but the closest college is 60 miles away and i can't afford to keep commuting there twice a week on a part time pay check. barely anything for work here in the middle of nowhere, don't think i can find a job lucrative enough to allow me to afford to commute that much. so i'm going back to full time at the factory, and hoping to save enough money that i can move closer to school for next fall. hating my life, probably going to be a really shitty winter here in michigan. debating suicide but that never worked before. drunk and posting in PD social when i should be posting in The Dark Side. oell, at least i'm not bemoaning in The Lounge.

<3 PD
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I am not sure what state you live in, but have you considered online classes? Not sketchy no name college online, but a legit community college/university in your state? Depending on who you live with/age/etc... I personally was able to get state grants that paid everything with some pocket change left over. Not to mention available loans. Some say it's a bad idea, but until they start throwing us in prison for unpaid student debt... fuck it!

I went back to school about four years ago, did one semester of actual classes and it was such a waste of time, especially for basics. I was lucky to have access to a fairly large comm college system worth of online classes. Using ratemyprofessor.com as a guide, I knocked a fair amount of credits about as painlessly as college can get. Very little work, 4.0 Then shit happened...

Not sure if you are trying to learn, work towards a specific goal, or just use college as a filler. Seems you want a ticket out of nowheresville maybe? Don't get discouraged, there are always options... just don't forget, wherever you end up, there you are...

edit: well I read further about your outstanding debt and shizz.... too late for any type of deferments/hardships?

good luck with the scholarships. anything is better than suicide, cuz it wont' get ya anywhere but more of the same ole same ole (unfortuantly)
 
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i'm currently pursuing an associates degree in Chemical Technology. lots of lab experience required, can't really do it online.

ultimately i would like to be a pharmaceutical chemist, but idk how reasonable that goal is. there are a lot of other directions i could go with that associates... all of them requiring a bachelors after the associates. but still, lots of options...

thank you for the advice, i appreciate it.
 
LSDMDMA&12758252 said:
.i like doing most drugs at night, not so much during the day. even when i was on heroin i'd mainly get it in at night...)
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I always seem to do my best tripping between 1am-6am, everything seems more still and quiet... sometimes I wish there wasn't so much stuff around ...

Sucks about your pill... were you allready messed up or just not paying attention?

I've got ~1/4g mdma... haven't done it in years and years. Never had pure mdma non pill form. I am more nervous to do this than the any of the trypts I have for some reason. It's weird.... physical reasons, wonder if I will get bored doing it alone etc etc. Talked to God for the first time on mdma a little over ten years ago. Long story short, first +4 filled with the light, hey where did that period of time go and who the hell was I talking too, how am I still driving down this road and wtf just happened. Completely irresponsible, but looking back the synchronicity illiuminates all of lifes perceieved bullshit pitfalls as being (potential) catalys for our largest/strongest periods of growth....

sorry. I am on a little bit of mxe. uhh.... I love it. <3 you mxe. also <3 you The Gaslight Anthem. Think springsteen with a little more edge... at least to me. Saw them with rise agains and hot water music in 2012 and didn't give a shit about them. Didn't even watch them, now I can't stop listening to them.... ugh.

also... as far as edm goes to the poster way above. How much will you hate me if I say I really like trap and dubstep. I really like metal and punk rock so it kinda goes like that.

pd social... if only my real life was social like this.
 
thenightwatch said:
i'm currently pursuing an associates degree in Chemical Technology. lots of lab experience required, can't really do it online.

ultimately i would like to be a pharmaceutical chemist, but idk how reasonable that goal is. there are a lot of other directions i could go with that associates... all of them requiring a bachelors after the associates. but still, lots of options...

thank you for the advice, i appreciate it.
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Man, you even posted you live in michigan and I completely overlooked that. Good job mxe... good job.
There are no online basics or anything you haven't taken? Any little bit is progress. I read/heard someone say the other day "don't pick a degree, pick a job and find the degree for that job" food for thought for me... maybe for you too.

The only real advice I can give you is suicide is pointless. I go through periods of contemplating it. The last one ended a few weeks ago when I smoked DMT for the first time. It was like "oh fuck I'm remembering what I try to forget blahblah" and the end result I look b ack over the last few weeks and I am not really thinking ab out suicide at all now. It's like I forgot that whatever the fuck life we have here is wayyyyyyyy better than it can be. Anyway, everything will be everything at some eventual eventuality, so cherish today and now and find whatever good you can. Or some such thing... easier said than done regardless.

Man, I haven't seriously drank in over almost four and a half years. I was shitfaced all day, every day for about four years before that. I can't touch it, drinking is me completely giving up and not giving a fuck. I think about it every once in a while, examine my reasoning, and it's always "i don't give a fuck and I dont' want to feel anymore". So ladies and gentleman, for your drinking pleasure, I bring to you .... methoxetamine... " :-)

"what does it feel like inside, does it hurt you at night, or does it keep you alive
set you on fire, on fire"

 
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I get quite sedated from pure MDMA too. But one of my favorite combos in the world is MXE + MDMA... if you take the MXE first, it makes the MDMA WAY more potent (like I usually take 200mg+ of MDMA but I have never taken more than 80mg with MXE), and it makes it more energetic, more mentally active, and even more blissful.
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I was wanting tO try this combo on new years but am a little skeptical. There arn't many reports and most of the ones that do exist say that this combo is more than likely very neurotoxic.

I was planning on candyflipping and on the comedown from the MDMA, take small 15mg bumps of mxe at the hotel to end the evening :) soooooo excited! Lol but I'd love to hear how it was for you xorth.
Have a lovely evening everyone <3
 
Manedogs.
i wanna try PMA.
cause i mean if you know its pma, you wouldnt take too much and youd be fine right?
Pma sounds like a combo of mdma alcohol and methamphetamine.
like turned the fuck up stimulated yet trashed.
 
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something about house sounds like it was made by a DJ rather than a musician to me a lot of the time, not sure exactly what makes it sound like that but that's just the feel I get haha.
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Well that's because it is made by a DJ, or at least the genre stems from Frankie Knuckles doing crazy things over disco records with a TR-909 so you're actually right. Doesn't mean it's a bad thing though..

Seriously, if you ever get the chance to see Dixon & Âme, or either of them alone, then do it. These people do mixing so well it becomes the music.
 
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thenightwatch - At my university, people pursuing bio and chem degrees often found paid work in the research or medical labs. Look for a school with a lot of federal research money/big medical program.

Also, the above advice re finishing all the pre-reqs and lower division classes at community college is great advice. Way cheaper, way more flexible.

3.75 gpa in college is great, esp with a hard science focus. Do your due diligence with scholarship and grant money. It is out there, especially with your grades and your focus. If there is a will, there is a way.

Think of yourself in 20 years, you could be crushing it with a great job as a chemical engineer. That what I always did when shit got rough and when I dropped out of college. I looked and said you know what fuck this manual labor bullshit, I would rather lift with my brain - not my back.
 
they need to make rick ross pills.
but dudes
since i've been clean, my love for a certain lady has returned with a vengence. Like last night i tried to sleep but i couldnt stop thinking about her.
I love her so much, even though she left me, and i so desperately want to win her back. I went and saw her like 2 weeks ago and when i saw her all i felt was <3 <3 <3
she's so pretty and unique and i love her so much. I cant bear to be without her. I really feel like she's the only person (other than my best friend, and obviously thats different) who really cares about me and isn't obligated to by society, ya know? Like i just want to cuddle her so hard and whisper in her ear about how i feel about her, she's the only good thing that ever happened to me since I was 18. Like she's so special to me, i'd take her over any other girl in the world. Like even the hottest model, i'd reject for her. She's really attractive to me as well, like when I saw her like 2 weeks ago, it was the first time we had been face to face for a yer, and when i saw her my jaw dropped. She was always hot imo but now she's even sexier and I just want her to know that, cause I know in the past I didn't make her feel attractive or appreciated, or special. But that can't be further from the truth in terms of how I feel. She's so amazing, she's got a great sense of humor and personality, and a great body to boot. I know I was a bad boyfriend, but that chapter of my life is over. I know I'm a little bit crazy, but I'm also crazy in love with her. I want to be the shoulder she can cry on when she needs to (but I dont want to make her cry, you know, but when things are going wrong for her, I want to be there to hold her and stroke her hair and tell her everything will be ok). I want to make her feel loved again, make her laugh when she's sad...I want to spend the rest of my life with her, she's the only girl I've ever had any kind of relationship with, and I want to grow old with her and be able to say you're my one and only, and that in my entire life, I was hers and she was mine.
Bay, if you read this, I love you, i will always love you no matter what, and without you I just feel hollow and alone. You complete me, you make me feel something that no one else can make me feel, and I need you in my life again. You're the most perfect girl a man could get, and I recognize what I threw away with my using, and I wont make that mistake again. I just want you to be my woman again, and I'll be your man. And we'll have a daughter together, name her something French, and i'll be a good daddy. Make sure she doesn't turn out like me.
I just cant take you off my mind, you're like a drug and i'm addicted.
I love you more than I can put into words bay
love you
<3 <3 <3
 
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I'm pretty sure she'll read this.
It seems like she has her own thing going on now though doesn't it?
 
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