Chicago Heroin v. The return of Chinky

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Nah, I was just fucking around, bro. Relax man. lol. I wouldn't know about your biznazz if you didn't state your case. I was being very sarcastic bro, unfortunatelly, emotion doesnt translate very well in text. No bro, I have absolutely no issue with you.
Peace man. Good luck with your indeaveours(whatever).
 
drunkendJesus said:
God damn... You guys are killing me!! I just moved out here (out side Peoria, Farmington) from Philly. Had a hell of a habit there. 2 weeks of subs. A few days of lope, and I'm still regretting moving out here. Sooooo, does Peoria have a street scene? Lol
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no street scene in peoria dude. I'm in bloomington. I have a connect in peoria though
 
Hey I am down with you guys battling it out with texts and shit. Like get real personal and shit until you decide to actually fight and fuck each other up... But please guys don't text while driving. From a harm reduction stand point.
 
I want to get high so bad. It is almost the same feeling of desperation you get when you first start getting sick and you are broke or your connects aren't answering. Makes me literally feel the same types of physical symptoms like aches, kicky and punchy, the shits.. But you hold on to that one thing, and for me it's the fact that I'm white, I have a place and I'm surviving. I watched a thing on YouTube about these small cut off jungle towns in Africa. These fuckers are so hungry that if you feed them something as simple as rice they will die, because their organs can't break that down. They need to be nursed back to the point where they can maybe be able to digest the food. Then I feel bad because I am over eating because I am partly replacing my dope addiction with shit food that makes me happy for that one fucking moment. It's gonna get worse before it gets better guys. Haha fuck, hold on I'm coming
 
ShooterSince01 said:
no street scene in peoria dude. I'm in bloomington. I have a connect in peoria though
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That sucks man... Even if I did know where to go it would still be tough. Moving company let my car fall off the carrier somehow so I'm out here in the corn fields, about 30min from Peoria itself and no real way to get there without inventing a reason to need a ride there. Believe me, I'm plotting.... That insurance check is going to roll in soon!
 
How the fuck does "king" and "broke' fit inthe same sentence? LOL! I text and drive while im in the hood cooonstantly! ...But only in the hood. That's real harm reduction there. Dude, I used to get the same way when I was really into crack back in the days. Shits, can't think of nothing else real pissed off all the time. But you have to remember that at this point it's all in your mind. Being white is a perk indeed. I'm glad somebody said it. People walking around with that "white guilt" on their shoulders because of "white priveledge" that is perpetrated by the fucking leftist agenda. I'm white and very proud. But all bullshit aside, the other day I was driving through Maywood and texting a buddy and I almost hit a "gentelman of dark complection". Fucking idiot was riding in the middle of a lane at night. Would have fucked up my car!
Like somebody on here told me long time ago,(when I was on house arrest)that when you quit dope you tend to gradually put on weight. I didn't believe him. For one, I have an incredibly fast metabolism and it's impossible for me to put on any substantial weight...But within like 2 months, I blew up!!
About those imeciated fuckers that don't have any food...They should stop breeding. If you can;t feed don't breed. Simple. I understand the human genetic need to procreate but at some point logic has to prevail. If not...well. That logic applies to me and my girl with whom I've been with for many years and unfortunatelly, for majority of those years, I was a complete fuck-up. So the last thing I would want to do is bring a kid into the world where I can provide no real stability.
Morals and values we have an abundance of but kids cost a lot of $.
Just keep doing what you've been doing...minus all the shit food. I'm sure you know that if you go back to getting high, it's like getting a second full time job. Just keep reminding youself why you quit.
Later man. Take care of yourself.
Car fell off of a carrier?! ...That's a lawsuit!...
"Farmington" That pretty much sums it up. ...Shit! Maybe they have some fly barn parties or some square dancing at the Elk's lodge or the town hall? I was out in the boonies the other day and I was seriously thinking, like WTF do people do out here and where?!
BTW, If I were you and trying to maintain your annonimity, I would edit your post. I'm sure moving companies don't have cars falling off trucks every day. It would be kind of easy to figure out who you are given the right circumstances. You never know who reads this shit.
 
Hey guys its ur boy jay from the chi just checkin in. I never thought i would say this shit but i grabbed some fresh light grey diesel from my guy and hes like, "man i just mixed it myself instead of my wife jus let me know how it is it should b the same." So i grab my usual half jab grab one out the bag pop that bitch open tooted while i was at the good ol bus stop, the bus arrives and i sit down u know get cozy even though its only a ten minute ride sure enough i nodded off i wake up the fatass black lady kicking my leg sir u cant sleep on the bus, earlier i let u stay cuz i didnt need to go to the bathroom i look up its fucking 4 oclock i copped at around noon. how many times did u go back and forth she well u got up a few times and moved. luckily i was a block from where i stay so just walked home emptied my pockets grab the rest of the bags i look at the one i tooted and there was still half left in there. i look at my phone 15 missed calls from my guy wit a text saying ay man watch that shit i cut it wrong im just thinking in my head thank god im a snorter. So it looks like i wont have to shop again for a little bit becuz this shit for once actually surpassed my expectations gotta give dude credit just one bus ride from the house total.

But yeah itchy i wasnt being serious either u give some pretty solid advice and overall decent guy unlike some person i know that criticizes everything anybody says and tries always dick sizing we all know who im talkn bout.
 
@jay. lol. What's the point in dick sizing? ...I know I got the biggest one... LMAO!
One time I was nodding on the blue line and I kept riding back and fucking forth. DING-DONG O'hare...DING-DONG Forest Park lol! and that shit went on like four times until I was sber enough to stay awake. Or there was a time where I walked from Cicero ave./290 all the way to Lincolnwood like Dempster and some shit, (with no coat in the wintertime) I had like cuts and bruises all over. The last thing I remember was getting high with a nig(I was getting him high is more like it) and then him struggling to pull my coat off my back and going through my pockets, while I'm passing out from the dope. That's why I text and drive while in the hood. I ever see that nigger again, my car is going to be "Oh oh! Better get maaco" moment.
Anyway, my connect has done me right! I'm nodding like a mother! A couple of strong ipa ales and a k-pin are always a plus.
Speaking of that jab, I had it in my coat pocket and went to take my dog out and when I took the poop bag out of my pocket I thought I flipped it out. I was out there like a crackhead walking my dog back and fourth(I wish she was a drug sniffing dog)looking for it. I gave up and then found it in my garage. Relief.
Have a good night folks.
Take care of yourselves.
 
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itchy u sound jus like me but the people i know from the westside wouldnt rob me becuz they know the next time i see them i would slice there ass up (but that must of really sucked getting ur jacket yanked off and having to walk home in the middle of winter talk about things going from good to bad). Im always on foot no car so i have so many contacts on the street that i really have helped out and done a lot of favors for before so im seen as a local not a suburban white kid in a car. wut i meant by the whole dick sizing thing was a while back i got into an argument wit one of the mods or at least he acted like one and he was like ur habit isnt even real if u dont bang ur dope than u never would understand heroin addiction he was like trying to say im a newb and how his habit is so much bigger as if having a habit was cool or something i dont know about u guys but its a constant battle to try and at least make an effort to better urself i would leave this whole life behind in a second if it was just that easy. im not proud to b a junkie
 
@jay Yeah, dude, I used to go on foot allthetime, cause no reason to get yourself AND your car impounded. When I used to fuck around with crack I was like one of the locals. (Iwas there everyday, couple of times a day) But this was just one opportunistic nigger that just thought he could get over, cause I was fucked up.
As far as that bullshit about not having a real habit unless you bang, that's complete bullshit. You don't have to bang to have a monster habit. I fucking hate people like that, that think it's fucking heroin sheek to have a habit. Being a junkie is not cool, you are absolutely right. I don't bang and I wish I didn't have to fuck with this shit at all. I mean, it took me like 5 bags to acheive something that remotely resembles being "high" last night. Like a person is cooler cause they slam rather than snort. Yeah, good luck with that. I wish I knew who you were talking to Jay. Some idiot no doubt that doesnt even come on anymore.
 
I wonder what happened to like welderman and Gwen and someother people that used to be regulars....
Hope all's well for them.
 
Hahaha get any king hooked on dope they will be broke at some point!! I always took care of my bills and shit up I definitely could have a lot nicer of a life if I didn't start with the junk, no doubt about that. Expensive hobby
 
I do definitely think that once you start shooting your recovery instantly becomes more difficult. I think age effects that too. If you start at 16-20 it is gonna really seem impossible to see a light at the end of the tunnel. That lack of hard times,good times, adult experiences at that young of an age (again everyone's situation is different) will not allow you to understand that there is something else out there that is worth it. I started dope the usual suburban white boy way. Pills, then they became harder to find and were expensive and then was introduced to dope. I was like holy fuck it's the same shit but stronger and cheaper and so easy to get! The whole process started at 24, I'm 32. I did it because I am a workaholic and it made me unstoppable. I could keep myself going and bust my ass 20 hours a day because I knew I had that warm cozy blanket waiting for me every single night when I get home. Then slowly it became I chip alittle all day to keep going and then just get hammer smashed face when I got home. Then the sickness, overspending on delivery (getting middlemaned) and all the while getting burnt out as fuck, trying to stay well. If I discovered this shit when I was 18, I'd be dead 100%. But I don't think that snorting or shooting effects your level of addiction, try telling nsb he hasn't struggled. I have never heard him talk about shooting. How about chinky, regardless of the rules he put in place for himself, someone tell him he hasn't struggled and he never shot. Shits rough
 
huh. first time I shot dope was in like 1989-90. Last time was in 2002-3.
The only reason I haven't started again is because I've been almost able to keep my use down enough so I can get high sniffing, even if it takes 4-5 bags at a time on a bad week.
And i have a family. Two weeks ago, I was thinking, I should just bang this shit and stretch these bags out longer. Then I knew I was a stupid motherfucker.

I oughta stay offf this site and give myself a chance to get straight. But now I got two guys calling me with fire and after a week or so, I just cave.

I disagree - shooting does affect your level of addiction and chance of recovery, from my experience and what I've seen others deal with. Some just get needle fever. Others get hooked faster, harder, and quicker on darts. And once you start crossing those lines you said you'd never cross, and crossing them faster and caring less, basically you're down the rabbit hole and you're exposed to a lot more dangerous shit from a harm reduction standpoint on top of it. And it's much easier to OD. Ask Shay if he banged that unmixed strong bag, instead of snorting half and passing out for 4 hours, he mighta dropped before he got on the bus. I know people who fell out in fast food restrooms on fent bags that are lucky to be alive.

the struggle and the addiction is the same, the bottom and the side effects are potentially much worse, with much worse consequences.
 
Pizza king said:
I do definitely think that once you start shooting your recovery instantly becomes more difficult. I think age effects that too. If you start at 16-20 it is gonna really seem impossible to see a light at the end of the tunnel. That lack of hard times,good times, adult experiences at that young of an age (again everyone's situation is different) will not allow you to understand that there is something else out there that is worth it. I started dope the usual suburban white boy way. Pills, then they became harder to find and were expensive and then was introduced to dope. I was like holy fuck it's the same shit but stronger and cheaper and so easy to get! The whole process started at 24, I'm 32. I did it because I am a workaholic and it made me unstoppable. I could keep myself going and bust my ass 20 hours a day because I knew I had that warm cozy blanket waiting for me every single night when I get home. Then slowly it became I chip alittle all day to keep going and then just get hammer smashed face when I got home. Then the sickness, overspending on delivery (getting middlemaned) and all the while getting burnt out as fuck, trying to stay well. If I discovered this shit when I was 18, I'd be dead 100%. But I don't think that snorting or shooting effects your level of addiction, try telling nsb he hasn't struggled. I have never heard him talk about shooting. How about chinky, regardless of the rules he put in place for himself, someone tell him he hasn't struggled and he never shot. Shits rough
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i agree I didn't start doing dope til like 22 but was doing pills for years and I feel like if I would have started in high school 16-17 like kids now a days I would be dead..even though I feel im more of a cerebral drug user starting that young peer pressure is a bitch and I feel I would have been shooting dope like everyone else was..starting later I just was smarter and saw other people dieing and it was all with the needle and I just was like fuck that..i love getting high but I don't want to die, as long as sniffing was getting my high I saw no use switching

although I would love to
 
I have often been tempted by the allure of shooting, cause people describe it as a completely diff. Experience from snorting. But besides not being a big fan of needles, I feel like if I ever took that turn(with my addictive personality) I would never go back to snorting and eventually wind up a statistic. I don't give a shit if I have to snort 5 bags to get off, I don't think I want to take that plunge. I think it would take snorting off the table forever. And I like doing rails. My sinuses don't though but that's not a good enough reason for me. I would like to do it just for the experience but I don't think I would come back from it and that's what keeps me away.
 
Yes I am a female and a bit new to this.. I've been around it for years just didn't dabble that much with it. Is there ever a right reason for our vices? Typically we use them as coping mechanisms or to forget something, we all have our reason for our vices. BTW that sounds like it was a pretty view, I haven't taken a long drive in a minute.
 
Hi Female :) 'Is there ever a right reason for our vices?" I might have a repressed issue/memory ot perhaps that vague recolection of the janitor playing a game with me called "shomme yours and I'll show you mine" LOL! Just kidding... Are you talking to me Momento? Yes, it was a sight to remember, girl.(driving southern IL) But getting back to the sublect, I think in my case, I simply likrthe feeing of being able to disconnect. What are your reasons for pushing so hard? As you know per our prior conversations, I have not lied to you or anybody else om the board. I was going to write something more pertenent and relevant in my response but find myself nodding way too hard and having to correct the spelling on almost 80% of whatecer I'm writing and it's just too tiresome to proceed. Im more than willing to philosophy on any subject amd answer any questions you may have in the future...but not now. lol.
Take care of youself and please reconsider your angst to get high or at the very least, ponder why.
I'm going...Take care folks.
Be safe.
Later.
 
That is exactly why.. I need to disconnect. I need to not care for one second of the day, and stop over analyzing. Anxiety is wonderful isn't it ;) I know exactly why I really don't need to ponder it more then I already currently do.
 
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