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requiemblue

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Hi guys, just looking for moral support. I ingested 15 mg of oxycodone, 500 mg of butalbital and 20 mg of klonopin. (Insane benzo legal tolerance) I can feel the sleep coming on. I do NOT want to die or hurt myself.

I was in a horrific car crash 2 weeks ago and got a concussion and it has skewed my thinking:/ created intolerable headaches. Anyone with PTSD and dangerous self medication tactics, please talk to me. I need someone to talk to. Again- know my body and not in imminent danger. Just tired of it all. Thank you.
 
I just saw this and I hope you are doing OK. This forum is for support in terms f questions for moderators or technical help in how to use the site. I hope you come back and let us know you are OK and we'll get this moved over to TDS where you can get some emotional support.<3
 
Just remember you are not alone. We just have to keep moving forward and try to think positive. Life is a tough ride especially with being an addict, but we can all do this. Ive had clinical depression, general and social anxiety disorders since I was a kid and each day is a struggle, but try and keep things simple and dont take things too serious. Most ppl say life gets easier with age, thats what im hopeful for and who knows....something great could be just around the corner!

Keep up the good fight everyone
 
requiemblue said:
Am I in the right thread? Haha I'm even a burden on BL &#55357;&#56474;
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I think erikmen just meant that we are all in the same boat whoever frequents TDS. You just might get differing or less understanding comments in other sub forums on BL.
 
No iv called before. They only call the cops on you if you say some ridicylous shit on the line. Like "hey I just ate a bunch of anthrax fuck thr world", cops would be sent. But if you call just to vent they dont call the cops.
 
Sorry to bump- seriously. Just wanted to let you guys know I'm ok. Had to go to hospital..was in status epilepticus after they put me in the PSYCH ward and a barbaric psych ripped me off 6mg Kpin/12 years onto LIBRIUM. I was in the unit for 3 weeks, 7 seizures. I am reinstated on my klonopin and will be doing a slow taper. It was hell- although I was asleep mostly.

I know my organs started shutting down, I'll spare you the gross details. But I'm ok now. It was utterly horrific. Surprised I didn't die.
 
That sounds horrible how they discontinued the klonopin, leaving you open to seizures. How are you feeling now?
 
Well, something horrific happened tonight and I'm still shaking. My friend shot me up with heroin and I felt good for one minute then no memory. I was foaming at the mouth and nose, with no pulse, cyanotic. This friend is a retired ER nurse, so she gave me mouth to mouth. I'm NEVER banging H again; this has never happened. I'm sorry- I know it doesn't answer your question but that was a severe brush with mortality. I feel extreme guilt and horror.

I'm feeling much better back on the Klonopin. I suppose I'll still take my Ambien tonight and wear my BiPap. Just so shooken up, dude. Jesus. I'm sorry to ramble. It's 3am and I'm too scared to sleep.
 
How come I read these stories over and over again? Retarded psychs/docs with no regard for peoples medical/drug histories, seizure risks etc? Holy shit

Glad you are alright
 
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