heres the deal, since my tee years when i first discovered alcohol, i found it greatly relieved my social anxiety, i could easily meet people and be the life of the party..i have social anxiety and ontop of that i am very introverted, a bad mix if you want to be outgoing and live the party life..unless, that is you have drugs..drugs will obliterate social anxiety and u can have a blast and do all the social things a normal person can do..after many years of trying various drugs, some were amazing at quelling the social anxiety and helping me be more extroverted but they also have drawbacks as we all know..there have been times i have gotten sober which i have to admit is the easy part..STAYINg sober is the hard part especially when you an anxiety disorder..i have tried ssris and they either didnt help or they helped a little but left with me with nasty side effects..i have heard so may people that get sober just recommend "you have to try new hobbies like snowboarding or join sober social clubs" but this is not easy when u have social anxiety and are very introverted..im not 100% sober atm, maybe 50% but i have managed to find a few sober friends..problem is, when i hang out with them, we either go to the movies or just stay home playing board games..damn, i have to be honest, after a very short while this stuff gets boring fast!its not like i can just go out to bars and be sober due to anxiety..i have forced myself out to bars and other social gatherings sober and the end result is either just 'ok' or it becomes uncomfortable..
what doesnt help is im in my mid 30s with no kids(dont plan on having them) and many of my friends are either druggies or family men working 60 plus hours a week and have kids they take care of when they arent working..i do have 2-3 sober friends but damn, after 2-3 weekends of doing sober things my mind goes numb almost and many times i would almost rather be home watching netflix or playing xbox as i get about the same enjoyment out of it..problem is, doing this all the time isnt healthy and i feel like im 'missing out' on the social aspect of doing drugs and all that fun stuff..its almost like when others get clean, everything they do sober becomes magically 'fun; again whereas that never happens with me..i have dogs i take hiking, i workout all the time, love certain tv shows but in the end, its usually me sitting home watching tv and going to work the next day..
so i guess what im asking is, how do you folks that use drugs to get over social anxiety and introvertedness get over this hurdle?i mean, when i have my sober times i feel like the most boring person on the planet but get some of my drugs in me, and im ready to socialize and meet people etc etc..its kind of a catch 22 situation..
any advice?
what doesnt help is im in my mid 30s with no kids(dont plan on having them) and many of my friends are either druggies or family men working 60 plus hours a week and have kids they take care of when they arent working..i do have 2-3 sober friends but damn, after 2-3 weekends of doing sober things my mind goes numb almost and many times i would almost rather be home watching netflix or playing xbox as i get about the same enjoyment out of it..problem is, doing this all the time isnt healthy and i feel like im 'missing out' on the social aspect of doing drugs and all that fun stuff..its almost like when others get clean, everything they do sober becomes magically 'fun; again whereas that never happens with me..i have dogs i take hiking, i workout all the time, love certain tv shows but in the end, its usually me sitting home watching tv and going to work the next day..
so i guess what im asking is, how do you folks that use drugs to get over social anxiety and introvertedness get over this hurdle?i mean, when i have my sober times i feel like the most boring person on the planet but get some of my drugs in me, and im ready to socialize and meet people etc etc..its kind of a catch 22 situation..
any advice?