Mr. Meowfish
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 31, 2012
- Messages
- 214
Thanks for the info and support. Believe me - I would love to move to California. I've been there twice in my life and fell in love instantly both times. And sorry for the long posts - literally go days sometimes without talking out loud or to another human being - so once I start talking, I have quite a bit to say. Feel free to just disregard.
For the record - I have absolutely nothing wrong with Hippies, just the ones that live in my city. They aren't like normal Hippies at all. I've known and met lots of cool people that were Hippies, just never really became friends with them. The people here that are into those type of scenes - who go and see Dark Star Orchestra and Ekoostik Hookah and Papadosio all 5 times a year they play in my city............even those groups are super cliquey, and beyond that - there's this new breed of wannabe gangster / thug Hippies who think they're hard because they listen to a little bit of Hip Hop and Hustle Drugs, these "Hippies" even straight up carry guns. They just seem like walking contradictions. I've tried to befriend people of every genre there is - I do not discriminate whatsoever, but the majority of people that I run into are not like that. They have there little group, and if you aren't given an intro into their circle where someone vouches for you basically, good luck talking to anyone.
I asked this person who I met maybe 6-8 months ago - who is a Dreadlocked Hippie, almost the same age - I was getting trees from him. I asked him one day after I had met with him a few times if he wanted to kick it some time and just chill for a few - that I was trying to broaden my horizons and meet new people and I thought that we may have some things in common - and I should mention it was always Him and his Girl, so it's not like he thought I was gay. He just looked at me and was like - "I don't have time for all that, hit me up when you want something, I don't need friends, I need Customers". That's basically how 95% of people are here. The Love of my Life who I was with for 4 years was a "Hippie" for sure, but even she had no friends and couldn't meet people when she moved to my city. We literally spent 4 years, just us because we both couldn't find anyone with similar interests to hang out with.
This is my last comment about my life, and not MXE's seductive ways, because I know it's completely off topic. I just wanted to clarify - I have no problems with people who are Hippies - they are generally WAY more my speed than other people that I meet and are more likely to be open minded and on my level - but even the Hippie scene here is fucked. Even they are perfectly fine with using Heroin, Meth, Pain Pills - and not just casually, they just smoke and don't inject so they can still have a way to look down on you. If you went to a Festival here in the summer - you'll find an equal number of people selling Heroin, Coke, Crystal, Oxys, Perks - right along side genuine high quality "Family" LSD, Ketamine, MDMA, MDA, Mushrooms. People here are just strung the fuck out - and I'm over that shit. I may do MXE whenever I can find a reputable vendor, with good prices, and good quality - and I do generally IV - but I still live my life and try to be happy, not just be content being a Junkie, albeit alone. Seriously tho, just don't ever bother coming to Ohio, it's a fucking Black Hole of bullshit. I'm done ranting, I know this isn't a Social Thread.
Be Careful with the MXE kiddies..........I've done easily 100-200 grams in the past 4 years. I was there when the A.I.R.C.R. formed,then the UK ban, switched up to EU Vendors, then to some US Vendors that come and go. I've seen and done every polymorph and batch variety you can imagine. It is addictive, in multiple ways - but just like any "Drug", it's all about the positive aspects outweighing the negative.
For me, MXE still isn't boring, and still offers me insights into myself, humanity, being able to pick up on other people Vibes, and helping push me to dedicate myself to doing the things that I love instead of being stuck inside, in bed, depressed. I fucking hate Subutex - it is such a Hustle by the Doctors, and just barely keeps me well - but is so fucking hard to get off. I made it 21 days, and was STILL in awful, crippling W/D's. Subutex is reason #1 why I still use MXE - it competes with and overtakes the Subs weighing me down and depressing me. I wonder a lot if I would still use MXE, or felt the need if I got off of Bupe. I hope I get to see one day real soon because I am fed the FUCK UP with Buperenorphine. It is nothing more than Big Pharma becoming your Dope Dealer. I got off of Heroin 3 time Cold Turkey easier than this shit. It just never fucking quits, but I'm getting off topic again. There's my true introspective thoughts on MXE, which this thread has made me think a lot about in the past few days.
Thank You to those who Listened, to those who were Critics of what I said and am doing, and Thanks to those that offered advice on both sides of the fence. I may live in a bit of a fantasy land that I've created - but I still choose to be 100% honest with myself and will admit when something I said was out of line. Being stubborn and keeping the same opinions when brighter ideas are shared is pointless and ignorant - my goal is to grow everyday as a person, to be more open and versatile as a human being, to be more compassionate and empathetic. The person I'll be tomorrow, won't be who I was today - because if you aren't learning, listening, and taking in both critique and praise and putting it to use equally, you're just remaining stagnant, stuck in place. That's something that MXE has taught me. Being Self Aware in this day and age is really important, at least to me. Take Care BL - Thanks for the support and everything in between. That's why I come here.
For the record - I have absolutely nothing wrong with Hippies, just the ones that live in my city. They aren't like normal Hippies at all. I've known and met lots of cool people that were Hippies, just never really became friends with them. The people here that are into those type of scenes - who go and see Dark Star Orchestra and Ekoostik Hookah and Papadosio all 5 times a year they play in my city............even those groups are super cliquey, and beyond that - there's this new breed of wannabe gangster / thug Hippies who think they're hard because they listen to a little bit of Hip Hop and Hustle Drugs, these "Hippies" even straight up carry guns. They just seem like walking contradictions. I've tried to befriend people of every genre there is - I do not discriminate whatsoever, but the majority of people that I run into are not like that. They have there little group, and if you aren't given an intro into their circle where someone vouches for you basically, good luck talking to anyone.
I asked this person who I met maybe 6-8 months ago - who is a Dreadlocked Hippie, almost the same age - I was getting trees from him. I asked him one day after I had met with him a few times if he wanted to kick it some time and just chill for a few - that I was trying to broaden my horizons and meet new people and I thought that we may have some things in common - and I should mention it was always Him and his Girl, so it's not like he thought I was gay. He just looked at me and was like - "I don't have time for all that, hit me up when you want something, I don't need friends, I need Customers". That's basically how 95% of people are here. The Love of my Life who I was with for 4 years was a "Hippie" for sure, but even she had no friends and couldn't meet people when she moved to my city. We literally spent 4 years, just us because we both couldn't find anyone with similar interests to hang out with.
This is my last comment about my life, and not MXE's seductive ways, because I know it's completely off topic. I just wanted to clarify - I have no problems with people who are Hippies - they are generally WAY more my speed than other people that I meet and are more likely to be open minded and on my level - but even the Hippie scene here is fucked. Even they are perfectly fine with using Heroin, Meth, Pain Pills - and not just casually, they just smoke and don't inject so they can still have a way to look down on you. If you went to a Festival here in the summer - you'll find an equal number of people selling Heroin, Coke, Crystal, Oxys, Perks - right along side genuine high quality "Family" LSD, Ketamine, MDMA, MDA, Mushrooms. People here are just strung the fuck out - and I'm over that shit. I may do MXE whenever I can find a reputable vendor, with good prices, and good quality - and I do generally IV - but I still live my life and try to be happy, not just be content being a Junkie, albeit alone. Seriously tho, just don't ever bother coming to Ohio, it's a fucking Black Hole of bullshit. I'm done ranting, I know this isn't a Social Thread.
Be Careful with the MXE kiddies..........I've done easily 100-200 grams in the past 4 years. I was there when the A.I.R.C.R. formed,then the UK ban, switched up to EU Vendors, then to some US Vendors that come and go. I've seen and done every polymorph and batch variety you can imagine. It is addictive, in multiple ways - but just like any "Drug", it's all about the positive aspects outweighing the negative.
For me, MXE still isn't boring, and still offers me insights into myself, humanity, being able to pick up on other people Vibes, and helping push me to dedicate myself to doing the things that I love instead of being stuck inside, in bed, depressed. I fucking hate Subutex - it is such a Hustle by the Doctors, and just barely keeps me well - but is so fucking hard to get off. I made it 21 days, and was STILL in awful, crippling W/D's. Subutex is reason #1 why I still use MXE - it competes with and overtakes the Subs weighing me down and depressing me. I wonder a lot if I would still use MXE, or felt the need if I got off of Bupe. I hope I get to see one day real soon because I am fed the FUCK UP with Buperenorphine. It is nothing more than Big Pharma becoming your Dope Dealer. I got off of Heroin 3 time Cold Turkey easier than this shit. It just never fucking quits, but I'm getting off topic again. There's my true introspective thoughts on MXE, which this thread has made me think a lot about in the past few days.
Thank You to those who Listened, to those who were Critics of what I said and am doing, and Thanks to those that offered advice on both sides of the fence. I may live in a bit of a fantasy land that I've created - but I still choose to be 100% honest with myself and will admit when something I said was out of line. Being stubborn and keeping the same opinions when brighter ideas are shared is pointless and ignorant - my goal is to grow everyday as a person, to be more open and versatile as a human being, to be more compassionate and empathetic. The person I'll be tomorrow, won't be who I was today - because if you aren't learning, listening, and taking in both critique and praise and putting it to use equally, you're just remaining stagnant, stuck in place. That's something that MXE has taught me. Being Self Aware in this day and age is really important, at least to me. Take Care BL - Thanks for the support and everything in between. That's why I come here.