moreso i feel my anxiety has gotten much, much, much worse than it ever used to be before doing any drugs. and i have certain sensations that have stuck with me which affects my functionality.
i'm not sure if it's an anxious thing or something more serious, but sometimes i get a sensation where my vision and physical awareness seems to wobble or shake, though it's only a psychological thing and not actually physical... as far as i'm aware. it's hard to even really explain it, this is the first time i've ever put the feeling into words. the feeling seems like it's some sort of seizure my brain is having... it feels like electricity and very zappy.
i would love for some insight into this. it's ruined a huge part of me.
i've used rx amphetamines, benzos, opiates, occasional psychedelics here and there, lots of weed. now i only use vyvanse and kpin as prescribed, and kratom. cleaned up from everything else... and now i'm left with a weird and bothersome feeling in my head and eyes that feels like some sort of very short seizure type of thing. i've heard of ''temperal lobe seizures'' which sounds like it, although i have no idea. that's just a thought and really i haven't read much about that particular disorder. it's probably not a temperal lobe seizure, but it does feel like a brain seizure of some sort. that's all i can really relate it to other than serious anxiety... which i take wellbutrin, lexapro and kpin for. seems like they manage to get me out of bed and make me feel less anxious. i've had this sensation before this combo of meds.
mostly after using psychedelics and a lot of mdma and e tabs is when i started experiencing this. i remember the very first time it happened i was at work and just froze for a minute staring out into space. yep, i'm a weirdo. ugh.
feels like everything sort of zaps and stops, tingling and serious discomfort and fear for a few seconds kind of. with flushing and heart rate increase. super tough to explain it but this makes me want to look further into it and those symptoms. weird. maybe someone can relate 8(
kind of off topic, my bad.