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Gibberings CLXXXI - Is it Christmas yet?

Just smoked 2 pipes of crystal meth didnt feel anything 4 5 mins then BOOM fuck its too bleeding strong am gurning like fuck all jittery. Dont like it.
Glad i have xanax and thorazine. Shit! 8-/
 
....soon... :p

"soon" is meaningless :p

Aye I do know all about drying bl paint, but still one enjoys a lil trolling on the other side of the mod panel ;) Apparently I was caught being naughty in the lounge and someone told my hubby 8)

How's your day going chatty?
 
Yeah it's not going too shabby... had some great roasted butternut squash & pepper soup for lunch. Other than that, just been doing a bit of this & that.

Been a horrid day outside though which pisses me off because I like to walk around a bit whilst I'm having my cigarette instead of being couped up under the summer house porch bit... pretty tiny & the rain is coming onto it anyway today. :!

And your good self?
 
I'm recuperating and feeling better for having some stress and pressure off my shoulders for now. But being "good" thanks.

It's not rained here but its a low, moody sky. Nippy. I like the rain. As long as your wrapped up well in the right kit it can be refreshing. Though I appreciate maybe not for cig smoking. You eat lovely food - do you cook it?

Stress and feeling ill has totally diminished my appetite, been over a month now and although its always good to lose a few pounds, I'd rather not by these means. My clothes are starting to look shit on me.
 
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It's not rained here but its a low, moody sky. Nippy. I like the rain. As long as your wrapped up well in the right kit it can be refreshing. Though I appreciate maybe not for cig smoking. You eat lovely food - do you cook it?

I don't mind the rain if I'm out hiking or something in my Rab but you are right, it's far from ideal for smoking... as for cooking, all of what I've linked recently has been my folks cooking but I make some nice dishes too when I am in my flat.

Sorry to hear your illnesses of various types have taken away your healthy appetite... much the same has happened with me. Lost a stone this year. 8)

My appetite is getting better now though & I'm starting to slowly put weight on again... just in time for Christmas. :D
 
I'd rather not! :D

It's a sad situation but the right community is beneficial to some not others and vice versa if you know what I mean. That whole situation I see as damaging to all...

Aye, same old. I need to take some time off, but I don't want to waste it on sitting at home moping, but there's nowhere I particularly want to go either.

I wish it were late March already. :\

There' a long way to go until March. It's getting dark up here already :|

It's good to get outdoors, even for a short spell of daylight. Why are you not considering a trip somewhere? Big wide open spaces, raw elements, some time out of urban / city life? Even a night or 2 away on a wee journey puts a lot into perspective. Big ole planet this and off course I recommend Scotland. There's some great standing stones to visit here, quite "magical" and very grounding.
 
I don't mind the rain if I'm out hiking or something in my Rab but you are right, it's far from ideal for smoking... as for cooking, all of what I've linked recently has been my folks cooking but I make some nice dishes too when I am in my flat.

Sorry to hear your illnesses of various types have taken away your healthy appetite... much the same has happened with me. Lost a stone this year. 8)

My appetite is getting better now though & I'm starting to slowly put weight on again... just in time for Christmas. :D

I'm sorry to hear you've went through similarish shit, its not a nice place to be is it. Good news that your recovering and your folks are keeping the nutrients tasty and encouraging your appetite.

Get your kit on and an umbrella and go to the bottom of the garden to smoke - can you set up some "private space" there for yourself to get out the house? I'm a fresh air freak, I get cabin fever quickly and hate it if I get funny about going outside..

I'll recover, I always do. There's an underlying condition in me that triggers off with too much stress etc, but I always bounce back - just takes a bit of work and careful management. Thanks for your kind words <3
 
It's a sad situation but the right community is beneficial to some not others and vice versa if you know what I mean. That whole situation I see as damaging to all...

Couldn't have put it better myself. I mean, it's not as if the farmaz affair didn't prove that once and for all, but I guess this situation is technically different, while still effectively being the same. But rules, due process etc.

There' a long way to go until March. It's getting dark up here already :|

It's pretty dark here too.

It's good to get outdoors, even for a short spell of daylight. Why are you not considering a trip somewhere? Big wide open spaces, raw elements, some time out of urban / city life? Even a night or 2 away on a wee journey puts a lot into perspective. Big ole planet this and off course I recommend Scotland. There's some great standing stones to visit here, quite "magical" and very grounding.

Ha! I nearly did end up in Scotland during late summer, but I didn't go through with it because I went a bit crazy for a while. Manageable crazy, but crazy nonetheless. Oh, and I paralysed my hand, which isn't recommended.

Besides, I'd end up pitching up in some shitehole village full of Presbyterians. :D

I need to go and spend a few days in Cork soon, just to visit some of my dad's haunts and tie up a few loose ends. Maybe that can be my getaway. I just keep putting it off, as per fucking usual.
 
Couldn't have put it better myself. I mean, it's not as if the farmaz affair didn't prove that once and for all, but I guess this situation is technically different, while still effectively being the same. But rules, due process etc.

It's not intolerance that makes me say that, its recognition of vulnerability. :(

Not all rules are fit for purpose.

Ha! I nearly did end up in Scotland during late summer, but I didn't go through with it because I went a bit crazy for a while. Manageable crazy, but crazy nonetheless. Oh, and I paralysed my hand, which isn't recommended.

Besides, I'd end up pitching up in some shitehole village full of Presbyterians. :D

I need to go and spend a few days in Cork soon, just to visit some of my dad's haunts and tie up a few loose ends. Maybe that can be my getaway. I just keep putting it off, as per fucking usual.

Anything that takes you out of that city for a wee while would be beneficial. Going "home" is always epic - like an ice bucket challenge for the soul! It's worth doing, its a path that needs treading... Instead of buying more drugs on the internet buy a return fucking ticket instead, ok <3

Oh how I miss nagging you ;)
 
Meditating and deep breathing atm + a bit of h smoked is helping my panic recede slowly.
My advice Never touch c meth. Am still trembling tho
 
Yeah, I see you're making up for lost time on the nagging front. ;) <3

You're right though, as usual. I've just got this irrational fear of losing it if there isn't somebody there to keep me on a level and make sure my shoelaces are tied. I've put adverts in the local paper, but nobody seems to want the job.
 
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Aww Ed, I hope you are calming down now. How did it go with the councillor? <3 Have you had a sweet cuppa, something soothing apart from heroin? You need to take better care flower x

Yeah, I see you're making up for lost time on the nagging front. ;) <3

You're right though, as usual. I've just got this irrational fear of losing it if there isn't somebody there to keep me on a level and make sure my shoelaces are tied. I've put adverts in the local paper, but nobody seems to want the job.

You weren't offering enough benefits for me to apply for the job and travel time was too much :p

I'm not going to be here for long on BL, this is a passing phase, so I better make up on the tough love, nagging front.

You need to lose it to find it. It needs to happen to clear it out of you to let the new in ;) Trust me on this one...it is "just" emotional pain, honestly that doesn't kill you. Not like a cancer or a heart attack :( but scary, yes, very. Buy that ticket you. Do I have to nag you elsewhere off BL?
 
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