Gibberings CLXXX - one hundred and eiiiiiiiiiighty!

[acieed_ed]

Its half one wednesday morning and eadd allways seems to fizzle out around 00.30 - now.
Im only up cos am insomniac.
What time is it where you are?

 

[class-a-team]

We're an hour later. It isn't so difficult I'm just fuuuucked

 

[class-a-team]

Aghhh I just logged in to my fb and I noticed that a friend of mine posted the status "what day is it today???

Not good. Not good at all.

 

[acieed_ed]

Ic drinking im guessin cud be wrong? Had a nice bag of gear 4 hours ago tis worn off but still scratching. Payday today nice. Owe a lot of it for gear grr.
i often lose track of what day it is esp after xtc spaced out

 

[class-a-team]

Nah just a little drink, weed and meph. It's the weed that's the problem.

I have things to do tomorrow unfortunately. Can't remember the last time I went to bed when it was dark outside but I'm optimistic about tonight.

Glad to hear you're getting decent gear. I really don't miss gear over here half as much as I thought I would.

 

[acieed_ed]

Well too easy access to gear is the prob i doing 2/3 days straight withdrawing for 1 to 2 days not nice.
Lsd is my fav drug by a mile but when im off gear i crave it more than any other drug. Ur missing out on nothin its both heaven and hell

 

[class-a-team]

Yeah LSD is probably amazing but I'd never try it, I'm not a fan of the trippy stuff really. And that sounds like a pretty shitty situation. It never was Heaven for me so I'm lucky in that respect.

 

[zzz101]

knock knock

 

[smackydowners]

whos there?

 

[zzz101]

tank

 

[smackydowners]

tank ooo?

 

[zzz101]

tank ooo?

no problem you're welcome

 

[foolsgold]

morning all hows things ?

 

[lurching]

Wagwaan EADD. First day of training and new job today, was actually going incredibly well, remember actually thinking "I can't believe nothing's gone wrong yet!" which is just asking for it really. Then right towards the end, with about an hour to go before freedom, ended up having a very physical panic attack on the shop floor in front of several customers and staff members (including two other girls who'd only just started the job as well) which came completely out of nowhere. I've had attacks like this before but never in public so hadn't yet warned my manager about my anxiety/depression etc as I didn't think it would effect the job, at least on the first shift. Had to leave the floor to attempt to calm down and finally ended up leaving early as I couldn't compose myself back into a level where I could functionally interact with customers. My manager was nice about it and has said I should still come in for my second shift tomorrow, but am feeling pure dread at the thought, cos of the extreme embarrassment, humiliation and self hatred I felt from the incident (what sort of a first impression must that have made!) and cos I'm afraid something similar might happen again as I still can't pin down what triggered it. Proper grim Hope things are going better for everyone else x

Do a quick youtube search to make sure no customers have filmed it But honestly, this sounds like a sales/retail job and would that really be the right gig for you if you have anxiety issues to this extent?

 

[foolsgold]

right catch you lot later of to my counselor back in a while

 

[Chatative]

Good luck with your counselor.

 

[Sammy G]

Aye, good luck.

 

[SummerSerenade]

Yes good luck FG.

Couldnt be fucked going to my only lecture today (I don't think I've ever actually been to that lecture but anyway...) so I'm finishing the last of my booze off. Have run out of bagels but as I have no idea what I am doing for the rest of the week I don't know if I actually need to go food shopping or if I can safely wait until next week.

I might wait until next week anyway as I am rapidly running out of money and need to buy some more coke. Which will hopefully be better quality than the slightly dubious batches I've had recently. I mean, you could say what kind of coke do you expect for £50 a go but to that I'd say err... stuff as decent as it fucking used to be which at best was almost on par with the stuff I get back home for £110 a g.

I miss having enough money that I didn't give much of a shit. On that point, does anyone know any good ways to make money online? Ideally without having to move much further than perhaps going to the post office a couple of times a week. Also without doing anything illegal or having to take my clothes off before anyone suggests that 8)

 

[acieed_ed]

Morning eadd
Brekkie -
10 mins ago had a free pipe of v strong crack followed by a monster bag now of H and yes the 1972 eagles tape is on. Hope everyone is having a good morning
plur to the max comrades B-)

 

[lurching]

I miss having enough money that I didn't give much of a shit. On that point, does anyone know any good ways to make money online?

Your parents stopped paying for your coke habit? WTF is wrong with them?