Yep, I'm totally scared of the withdrawals but I'm nowhere near ready to be off maintenance. I have psych appts starting next Tuesday and I'm back weekly with my atods counsellor (drug and alcohol) which is good, plus one NA meeting a week and self help tools at home. I would happily go to NA everyday if I could like I did when I was in the city but this is the only one I can access and it's a two hour round trip through the bush at night to get there.
I probably won't change to methadone, actually feeling a lot better now. I just don't want to have to go back to visiting the chemist every couple of days where at the moment I go in once a week, pick up my 224mg of suboxone and my diazepam and I'm on my way, no supervised doses or anything.
I'm not changing drs! I'm happy. I did just get a call saying I had a spot in the public clinic which is closer (1 hour instead of 3-4) but I told them to give it to someone who needed it more. I have it pretty good only travelling down every three months (I can go more if I want but this is the minimum to stay on the program with him), having no supervised doses, weekly takeaways, never had to do UT's except at my first appointment obviously which I don't even remember I was that fucked up. The public clinic is free but I would have to go over more often (it's still a two hour round trip) plus have less takeaways and do UT's. I don't mind doing them but I haven't used since being on the program so it's just another thing I don't have to worry about in my current situation. I pay my dr $160 every three months plus $150 in fuel but that's fine, and it gives me a reason to get back to the city and see civilisation and friends! We only pay $20 a week at our local chemist for the meds no matter the dose so that wouldn't change if I went public. And I seriously don't have time for appts every couple of weeks. I've now got weekly psych appts. I have found someone three hours away that does dialectal behaviour therapy, yay! Plus weekly atods counselling, NA Meeting onxe a week, then a business to run (60 hours a week) and five children who have school and kibdy and everything that goes along with that, two daughters that dance (one over seven hours a week and the other three hours), two boys who do 6 hours of gymnastics a week, five who swim (three competitively), one who sings, two who do horse riding, one who has physio appts after a hip operation, one who needs chiro and also psych appts for add and other things, 3 who play soccer, one that plays rep soccer plus futsal, then school excursions, camps, I help on the canteen plus in class reading and that's not even mentioning the housework and the shopping and the cooking and all the rest of it. I also have a friend who is in great need, she's had her three kids under two taken by child services and doesn't have a car so relies on me for pretty much everything and her situation had escalated with her 16 year old attempting suicide two days ago (we found him) so I have spent the last few days driving her over the countryside to hospitals. None of this I mind, I have a very blessed life , just don't need to add extra sub appointments on top of all that while I'm still doing well, I haven't used and my dr is also a nutritionist so great with that kind of help too, in the way of supplements to help with stress.
Lol, I'm raving on, haven't been on here for a few days and that was a long winded way of saying I'm not going to change drs as I have it pretty good
Thanks everyone for the info. My dr said I can change to methadone if I really want to but I've decided against it due to info here and the lack of takeaways etc.
Thanks all.
