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Suboxone Withdrawl

strongerthanUthink

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I came to this site to post about Suboxone withdrawl since I've just finally came out of it and wanted to share my experience. It's not worth discussing what lead me to Suboxone in much detail but in short, many drugs were picked up and experimented over the yrs and I never had issues leaving them -- any of them.....but after 2 surgeries and extended opiate use I found myself extremely stuck. I went to a clinic (against my judgment) and started methadone not knowing better -- i personally hated it after a few weeks and felt like a crackhead tbh, so after 2 or 3 months I quit cold turkey at 60 mgs. After 7 days of withdrawl I went back to clinic after they called and told me to come for suboxone....again, like an idiot, I did -- and I loved it!!! While taking it, it's the greatest thing in the world and, I felt normal finally after yrs of not. I was RXd 20 mgs a day (75 strips a month) for about 20 months......i finally decided to jump off it. I did like others said and bought a mass amount of vitamins, supplements, detox teas etc etc, I tapered to 2 mg, and honestly felt so bad after 5 days or so I thought F it , and jumped (if I'm going to feel like ass what was the point right? ?) -- anyways, wldnt suggest doing what I did now but if you find yourself in the same situation I just wanted to say , you CAN do it. For me, at day 4 I thought I can't so this (it wad HARD) BUT, I also cldnt go thru it a 2nd time knowing how bad I felt (it was hard enough to convince myself going in blind, to jump)......there's never a good time to feel sick, or give yourself the flu, so one day you will just have to suck it up and decide you want life back!# despite time frames I've read, it was really bad for about 11 days straight, and on day 12 i finally started to improve ......i have never felt so powerful and yet so weak at the same time in my life!!!! There's a strange EUPHORIA that comes from knowing you are going to beat it. Even when you still feel weak and bad......stuff smells better, wind feels better, birds chirp louder and music is just better than you remember....its like sensation overload and you realize , you've been living in a haze all along. I am now on 35 days of no suboxone or opiates and, I honestly never thought I would make it.....and I know most feel the same. You have to be mentally strong and tell your self you got in the situation and, you're gonna have to fight to get out of it. As far as vitamins and all that, it's a joke!! After day 4 I smoked some hydro (something I hadn't done in 10 or more yrs) -- and it truly helped -' ease all issues including no sleep to some degree. I'm now on board for medical Marijuana!!! The only other thing I would suggest id Imodium AD (but only when REALLY cant take anymore and only for a day or 2) -- around day 6 or 7, you're gonna have to force yourself to get up and get out -- i cld only take about 15 mins of activity before sitting down, but you have to push thru it.....Truth Be Told I PROBABLY Was 100% At day 30, BUT, It's NOT the 100% I once was - just have To Accept that, but I Hold Out hope that my Energy will return AND ill Be how I once was. Nothing is worth more than freedom.......and, I have to be honest, being free from drugs Def out weighs any and all else. I dug for months for success stores and found very few, so I wanted to let anyone know whose struggling, if i can do it so can you -- it is not easy, but it CAN be done, and YOU can have your life back.....the suffering in days 3-6/7 - it does start to go away and if you can just push thru it I promise in no time it will be a distant memory ---
 
Welcome to Bluelight:)

That's great you are off opiates now I know first hand how difficult Suboxone withdrawal can be I've been on it for just over a year. Have no intention of quitting anytime soon but it sure would be nice to be free from this drug.
We have a sober living forum section here is the link

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/269-Sober-Living

Good luck with keeping sober we're all rooting for you:)
 
Trainspotter, I've been thru a LOT in my life, but that was one of the hardest things I've ever done -- to choose being that sick, when you cld take something and make it all go away is the hardest struggle mentally and physically (I still had subs when I jumped, but choose not to take them) -- i loved them for a long time, it just gets old....relying on something every day of your life to function is not freedom. I no longer trust any Dr, and I will never put anything in my body again if it's not natural!! I will stick with the herbal routes LOL -- sub is a real struggle but the truth is, I believe now it DID repair alot of damage I'd done, so when you do quit and make it thru the bad first part, you actually feel GOOD!! I wish you luck on stopping one day.....trust me you can if you want to! TY for the sober living suggestion --
 
I can relate to a LOT of what you wrote about yourself btw.....only real difference is I'm a woman and never did IV stuff -- but started around 14 or 15 too, and what a coping mechanism!! Lol -- all of it......it was always much easier to deal with life, numb. I welcome having feelings now and I'm trying to learn how to live like we were intended to live (good days and bad days) -- seems the smartest people I've ever known have been messed up in some way, because they see how messed up the world is and it's nice to ease the thoughts for a while.
 
Trainspotter, I've been thru a LOT in my life, but that was one of the hardest things I've ever done -- to choose being that sick, when you cld take something and make it all go away is the hardest struggle mentally and physically (I still had subs when I jumped, but choose not to take them) -- i loved them for a long time, it just gets old....relying on something every day of your life to function is not freedom. I no longer trust any Dr, and I will never put anything in my body again if it's not natural!! I will stick with the herbal routes LOL -- sub is a real struggle but the truth is, I believe now it DID repair alot of damage I'd done, so when you do quit and make it thru the bad first part, you actually feel GOOD!! I wish you luck on stopping one day.....trust me you can if you want to! TY for the sober living suggestion --

I know what you mean my friend its such a mental struggle to get off Drugs like opiates knowing all you need to take the pain away is to take a pill. Your mind will be screaming at you take the pill tale the pill cmon what are you waiting for GIVE ME WHAT I WANT!! Its terrible and I have watched so many good hardworking people succumb to this addiction thinking they are strong willed and tough only for them to end up a junkie with no will to do anything in life except get high, so sad I tell you. I too have been through a lot but this is one of the hardest things I've struggled with the ironic thing is the drugs were supposed to help me deal with my other problems instead it became its own problem bigger than the rest.
 
I can relate to a LOT of what you wrote about yourself btw.....only real difference is I'm a woman and never did IV stuff -- but started around 14 or 15 too, and what a coping mechanism!! Lol -- all of it......it was always much easier to deal with life, numb. I welcome having feelings now and I'm trying to learn how to live like we were intended to live (good days and bad days) -- seems the smartest people I've ever known have been messed up in some way, because they see how messed up the world is and it's nice to ease the thoughts for a while.

Sorry to be just getting back I was in an area with no cell/internet service for miles most of the day yesterday. That's great you can relate to my profile thanks for reading:)
Well addiction is still addiction whether there were needles involved or not doesn't make much of a difference. Seems such a young age looking back eh? There we were thinking we knew everything didn't think drugs could bring us down then one day we realise our coping mechanism is hurting us more than its helping us. I seemed to know though that I was addicted as soon as I first tried a percocet and the narcotic hit my blood stream I knew I was in for a world of shit. I felt like superman like I could do anything yet I was relaxed, content, and didn't feel anything at all. This felt great and I knew I would probably end up chasing this high to the gates of insanity yet I kept doing it not caring about the consequences for whatever reason I felt I deserved what was coming to me. I sent to be different in this aspect when compared to other drug addicts because most don't think they will be addicted and make excuses to continue justifying their drug use whereas I d to know this was my baby and I would do anything for it. I didn't need to create reasons to use I just did it.

I bet its weird feeling things now but in a good way. Do you find you appreciate the little things more often now that your sober? I hate that I can't even remember what its like to no have a drug flowing through my veins it doesn't seem right yet I continue to do so.
I'm gonna send you a friend request so we can stay in touch and I really hope you stick around mabye you'll be able to help me instead of the other way around. You seem intelligent and I hope to see you on the forums more often:)
Thanks so much for sharing your story
 
i to stopped taking suboxone ! however i transitioned back to oxy for pain ! i now find that the oxy is only keeping me from going into WD and only helps my pain slightly ! subs have made my tolerance extremely high!
 
Awesome post...it is very encouraging to hear that you have jumped. .I too have searched aimlessly for suboxone success stories and there are very few out there. I have been on buprenorphine for almost 3 years. ..it has given me control of my life but I am looking for a quit date...I have tapered to 2 milligrams many times only to get right back on higher dose when I get my script filled...it is definitely a mind battle for me..I have on several occasions while on 2 milligrams daily, start skipping days and have went as long as 3 and half days with nothing..but I just can't seem to lay it down...again thanks for the post..it is awesome. .
 
I been through the hell of bupe wds followed by over a year of PAWS was on bupe for only 2.5 years..
i admit, i didn't catch up on all the reading (there's a lot in this thread). Will get to it tomorrow.
Right now just trying to make up for my time lost here by welcoming new members.

So.. Welcome To Bluelight.

I've been battling benzo addiction since being off opiates for 2 years now (was addicted to benzos long before 2 years ago though, that just when i stopped opiates) benzos are a whole other brand of beast. Be glad that you don't have to deal with it along with opiate addiction wds.. god, 2 heavy ass monkeys on my back at once, was ready to just drop.. shows how strong humans can be especially when put in a corner like that.
I flushed 300ish suboxones and 1000+ tramadols when i quit. one night i said fuck this shit im DONE, and have been since despite occasional kratom.

Sorry there's part of my story, i promise ill catch up on reading this thread after my dr appt tomorrow.

-HOOD
 
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