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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo) 2 - Tory Britain in Flames

lurching said:
I do, prolly because of my background in exact science instead. I often wish that wasn't so, cos I could sure use some more sweettalking skills.
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Yea I get that. When I did my Psychology degree we had to "nitpick" over stuff especially if we were undergoing an experiment. We had to be our own critics n it really is surprising how much you find wrong. Nonetheless it was useful when writing up the reports.

Evey
 
One Thousand Words said:
Find a passion now, it doesn't even have to be anything with career in mind, but at least make it something that requires a degree of effort and another social circle.
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I think this applies to most people - having a few hobbies that you're passionate about, with their associated social circles, is hugely worthwhile.

One Thousand Words said:
Even today I have started a sailing course so that I can one day sail the Pacific.
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Ooh, nice. Gis a shout if you ever need crew! %)
 
Chatative said:
You can coast without going to lectures you know... for 1 of my courses I only went to a single lecture, didn't borrow any notes & got a good mark cramming for it.
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it all depends on the subject i would think, with the social sciences you can just read the books, write the essays and not attend any lectures, (or seminars, God I hated those things, my mental health was at its worst and i was going through a phase of acute self consciousness and paranoia and not just being a dossing cunt, the seminars were hard to be in, as you were expected to come prepared with vocal contributions to make) i only attended 1 lecture in the whole of one of the modules towards the very end, unsurprsingly i had to endure pointed looks of strong dissaproval for the whole hour, i would sometimes go weeks without turning up to uni, i was much more interested in all the drugs that were constantly coming into the house i lived in.

I did a year of a computiing degree before switching to Psychology. That was completely different, if you misssed ONE lecture you'd be fucked because you wouldnt understand the next one. I'd imagine it would be the same for all highly factual/scientific/ type courses.
 
Very true MDB. I was just pointing out it is *possible*. :)

I must say I rather despised Seminars too. Was never really one for voicing my own opinion. I turned up to one at 9am having been taking Meph until 3am, which was brutal... it was a hot day & I just sat sipping water hoping I wouldn't be asked a question. Thankfully the class had people in who had missed their's being as it was on a Friday & was very full. Same deal with another, which it turned out was cancelled last minute. I frequently turned up having done little or no work to many others too.
 
I don't mind voicing my opinion (shock) but the people in my seminar groups were twats so I didn't usually bother contributing much. You had to go unfortunately because they marked attendance for seminars but I turned up to several not just on a comedown but still blitzed on coke complete with 'toilet breaks' every 20 minutes or so. Whoever said I wasn't classy. I didn't even read all of the books for my exams, just based answers on what we'd read in seminars so fuck knows how I even passed. Clubs are a good idea, I know, but I am just so unmotivated most of the time I never get round to doing anything - partly because I always find drugs more of an interesting proposition.

Still not feeling great, massively anti snoo. I feel more and more alone everyday, everyone ends up giving up on me and don't know how much longer I'll be able to resist the pull I'm feeling. Some things help, talking helps but I'm pretty sure it's not going to be enough.
 
Yeah, I'm not sure if it is the same for you... but even in some of the seminars for honours courses, people wouldn't prepare or bother to contribute. Made it sort of pointless to put the work in yourself. Better just to take notes in the seminar so you didn't have to sit twiddling your thumbs for an hour or two.

We were allowed to miss 2 seminars without good cause without running the risk of being kicked off the course. (i.e. without a Doctors note etc.) I pretty much used up that quota for every course that had seminars. My usual way was to save them up for before Christmas or Easter so I could take an extra week or two off for drug taking. ;)

It sounds rather like things haven't been going your way as of recent amongst other things going by earlier posts... just to reiterate what was said by Shammy, you might be in a rut at the moment but that doesn't mean the future is bleak. You don't know what the future holds, it's just as likely to improve. I was given this quote on a worksheet to do with anxiety, but it applies elsewhere too:

Montaigne said:
'My life has been full of terrible misfortunes, most of which never happened'
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Obviously a lot of things have happened don't but try to read into things too much or get down about what might happen. (or not for that matter) I think you'll find that when the new semester comes around, things should start to look up, if not before then even.
 
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SummerSerenade said:
Still not feeling great, massively anti snoo. I feel more and more alone everyday, everyone ends up giving up on me and don't know how much longer I'll be able to resist the pull I'm feeling. Some things help, talking helps but I'm pretty sure it's not going to be enough.
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Is the coke not exacerbating those kinds of feelings? I know it had a tendency to do that to me after a while. Not saying that your sense of isolation and loneliness isn't real, far from it, but stims (and coke in particular) have a habit of making situations look far worse than they are.

Of course, if it ever gets too bad, then come and stay with me for a while. It'll not be creepy in the slightest, and I'll spend most of my time lecturing you about the importance of taking your education (and your future) more seriously. How great an offer is that? :)
 
SummerSerenade said:
I don't mind voicing my opinion (shock) but the people in my seminar groups were twats so I didn't usually bother contributing much. You had to go unfortunately because they marked attendance for seminars but I turned up to several not just on a comedown but still blitzed on coke complete with 'toilet breaks' every 20 minutes or so. Whoever said I wasn't classy. I didn't even read all of the books for my exams, just based answers on what we'd read in seminars so fuck knows how I even passed. Clubs are a good idea, I know, but I am just so unmotivated most of the time I never get round to doing anything - partly because I always find drugs more of an interesting proposition.

Still not feeling great, massively anti snoo. I feel more and more alone everyday, everyone ends up giving up on me and don't know how much longer I'll be able to resist the pull I'm feeling. Some things help, talking helps but I'm pretty sure it's not going to be enough.
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I'm sorry to hear how you're feeling honey. I hope you feel better soon. You're not alone. I know it's not much but you've got us here, and we're here to support you.

Evey
 
Me and a couple other BLers lost a great friend last night. not sure why I'm even writing this, its a sad sunday for me and many others I suppose. :(
 
For most organisms it's better than not-life. Much to learn you have still , young padawan.
Take up a diary for your existential woes, this is not the place. Or maybe it is. I'll be geting my coat.
 
Life is fucking amazing but shit things happen to everyone so no point in crying about how shit life is. fucking embrace it and everything you have in it, never know when it'll be gone. Was looking at the Facebook of the friend who passed and seen a comment from him which rang true here: "You have control over your emotions so you choose how you react to a situation, it's your choice to be sad in any situation and you can change that" (existential rant over)
 
Summer if you are feeling down a lot of the time you should definitely consider a break from drugs. They really don't help you and can make a bad situation a whole lot worse. I struggled with chronic, low grade depression for years and I never thought the drugs had anything to do with it. I stopped using drugs a few months ago and I can honestly say my mood has improved so much. I still struggle with horrible social anxiety (which I didn't realise I had when I was using) and have a pretty miserable life overall but at least I can enjoy myself sometimes and I don't try to kill myself anymore.

Even if it's only two weeks, it would be worth finding out, and you have nothing to lose by it!
 
class-a-team said:
Summer if you are feeling down a lot of the time you should definitely consider a break from drugs. They really don't help you and can make a bad situation a whole lot worse. I struggled with chronic, low grade depression for years and I never thought the drugs had anything to do with it. I stopped using drugs a few months ago and I can honestly say my mood has improved so much. I still struggle with horrible social anxiety (which I didn't realise I had when I was using) and have a pretty miserable life overall but at least I can enjoy myself sometimes and I don't try to kill myself anymore.
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very good advise. it's nearly impossible to understand this until you take a break. Im in a very similar situation to this, I know that stopping drugs for a while will create a positive snowballing effect in my life.
 
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