FentanylKing
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I am new here....obviously. I have used this sight for years and...well... ill do what i can to give back. I am an extensive drug user for the last 5 years...and I mean extensive. But my true calling has become opiates of all kinds. Especially Fentanyl. I use to be a cop...don't get scared...my drug abuse changed my ways and I couldn't bring myself to arrest somebody who was using the same shit I did. Often times I jacked whatever they had and let em go anyway. So I quit and delved into the world of underground sex trafficking...lol actually drug abuse.
The Funny thing is I am strangely comfortable with my drug abuse![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
. I also came to terms with the detox process. We must pay for our sins, and the sin of opiate abuse is consistently detoxing
. I myself detox at least once a month. But the wages of my sin is the ability to maintain something I could never accomplish; even with all the worldly accolades behind me. Lets look at them. I want you to see that it doesn't take a bottomless reject to be a junkie
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I have:
1. A Masters Degree In Psychology
2. A Bachelors in Criminal Justice
3. My own Business
4. I am a former Police Officer
5. I had an Illustrious career in the Army Special Forces Combat Applications Group
6. I own my own home and lots of nice stuff
7. I've had 2 trophy wives and a string of hot girlfriends that used me for sex %) lol.
8. I have an a grueling medical history, including the victory over cancer.
9. I have the most beautiful wonderful daughter in the world
So, you were like, #8 doesn't fit into your list of self proclaimed accomplishments right? Wrong?...Out of that list I am most proud of my injuries because every one of them has not only led me to where I am, but has been earned by courageous acts on my part. They allow me to remember who I really am. They are my focal point between reality and a synthetic opiate coma. I've come full circle with who I am. Most of my life has been a lie to myself. I use to think that accomplishments defined who you were, but i have realized they don't. Being true to yourself is the greatest accomplishment of all. Who knows maybe ill quit drugs some day, but maybe I won't. However i'll never lie to myself again. Drugs make me happy because I want them to. They have allowed me to see things in a whole new light. They have allowed me to see the world and myself for what it really is. They also numb the pain of my existence; probably the #1 reason why people use drugs.
During my opiate addiction I have developed a friend. The purple and yellow dragon. No matter how long I try to catch him he is out of my reach. My brother and father know him too, and they frequently try to catch him so that they may possess his power. The power to stay high indefinitely. His name is Fentanyl. We affectionately refer to him as "Fenco D", "The Dragon", and "The Fabled One". If that seems silly to you, it's because you aren't a real drug addict
lol. Pushing on...this my friends, is not only the most dangerous drug in the synthetic opiate arsenal, it is also the best high, if one knows how to harness its power. And...it is the drug of my choice.
Now I'm not into the whole SWIM thing. I abuse and use drugs and I am solely responsible for that, and I WILL INEVITABLY bare the consequences. However, all of you now know where I stand. I do not take sides; I do not judge. I am all for abstinence or "getting clean", if that's what you really want. I am not a martyr or visionary, I am a lowly lowly drug user. But, I know who i am and I know what I want. DO YOU!
UPDATE: Somebody PM'd me and asked what I do now: I am working on my Doctorate now and doing my resident training. I'm also a part time clinical counselor and prescribing practitioner specializing in PTSD and Drug abuse.
The Funny thing is I am strangely comfortable with my drug abuse
. I also came to terms with the detox process. We must pay for our sins, and the sin of opiate abuse is consistently detoxing. I myself detox at least once a month. But the wages of my sin is the ability to maintain something I could never accomplish; even with all the worldly accolades behind me. Lets look at them. I want you to see that it doesn't take a bottomless reject to be a junkie.I have:
1. A Masters Degree In Psychology
2. A Bachelors in Criminal Justice
3. My own Business
4. I am a former Police Officer
5. I had an Illustrious career in the Army Special Forces Combat Applications Group
6. I own my own home and lots of nice stuff
7. I've had 2 trophy wives and a string of hot girlfriends that used me for sex %) lol.
8. I have an a grueling medical history, including the victory over cancer.
9. I have the most beautiful wonderful daughter in the world
So, you were like, #8 doesn't fit into your list of self proclaimed accomplishments right? Wrong?...Out of that list I am most proud of my injuries because every one of them has not only led me to where I am, but has been earned by courageous acts on my part. They allow me to remember who I really am. They are my focal point between reality and a synthetic opiate coma. I've come full circle with who I am. Most of my life has been a lie to myself. I use to think that accomplishments defined who you were, but i have realized they don't. Being true to yourself is the greatest accomplishment of all. Who knows maybe ill quit drugs some day, but maybe I won't. However i'll never lie to myself again. Drugs make me happy because I want them to. They have allowed me to see things in a whole new light. They have allowed me to see the world and myself for what it really is. They also numb the pain of my existence; probably the #1 reason why people use drugs.
During my opiate addiction I have developed a friend. The purple and yellow dragon. No matter how long I try to catch him he is out of my reach. My brother and father know him too, and they frequently try to catch him so that they may possess his power. The power to stay high indefinitely. His name is Fentanyl. We affectionately refer to him as "Fenco D", "The Dragon", and "The Fabled One". If that seems silly to you, it's because you aren't a real drug addict
lol. Pushing on...this my friends, is not only the most dangerous drug in the synthetic opiate arsenal, it is also the best high, if one knows how to harness its power. And...it is the drug of my choice.Now I'm not into the whole SWIM thing. I abuse and use drugs and I am solely responsible for that, and I WILL INEVITABLY bare the consequences. However, all of you now know where I stand. I do not take sides; I do not judge. I am all for abstinence or "getting clean", if that's what you really want. I am not a martyr or visionary, I am a lowly lowly drug user. But, I know who i am and I know what I want. DO YOU!
UPDATE: Somebody PM'd me and asked what I do now: I am working on my Doctorate now and doing my resident training. I'm also a part time clinical counselor and prescribing practitioner specializing in PTSD and Drug abuse.
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