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eeevilgenius13

eeevilgenius13

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Hello, everyone. I've joined up as part of a sweeping effort to distract myself as I go through awful, endless bupe WD; this is by far not the first time, but I hope like hell that it'll be the last. I've been on subs for the past year, and I've stayed completely clean from my DOC (first oxy, then H, then methadone, then H), and used my subs only as prescribed, but I'm being forced to quit what works very well for me due to some legal difficulties. I'm well into day 7 and staying sane with the help of 20-40 mg daily of lope. I would very much appreciate any kind comments, insights, or anything else that distracts my brain from how much it hates my body right now. I'm doing this because I have to, but also because I want to, or at least the best parts of me want to, but you know how it is- Of course I want to be free from all of this misery and addiction, but it doesn't change the fact that I am one sick and miserable girl right now. Thanks to anyone who replies.
 
Welcome to Blue Light...I'm still going through wd from Methadone-33 days now and still feeling bad.I know how you feel- Good luck with your battle .
There's a lot of good, caring people here.....
 
Hang in there it gets easier day 7 is the worst.
Welcome to BL like Andy said there are lots of good people on here who can help you out.
 
Thanks to both Andy A and Trainspotter for the kind words. It's very, very hard, and all of my friends pretty much bailed on me when I got clean last year. Boo hoo, but I'm super thrilled with where I am now, and NOTHING will ever make me go back to banging dope again; all the same, it gets pretty lonely when all your friends ditch you cause you got clean. So thanks, guys, it helps.
 
Hi I live in South Africa. I dont know the "slang terms" for some of what u are wd from but I know heroin and methadone. I really hope u get better and finally are free of the physical and mental hold. I like coke and cat but only do it on weekends. Oh I am also a girl lol
 
Hey not real friends if they ditch u for NOT doing drugs. You know time is a great healer and I know from experience that drug addicts who turn away from a friend trying to get sober do it because they know they should be doing the same thing but are too weak-willed to do it. Nobody needs spineless idiots in their lives. Dont worty, karma will reward you fir your bravery. You need to let time work its maguc. Soon u will meet new and better friends.
 
Thanks. And yes, of course you're right.. but using friends are never real friends. Just a loosely grouped bunch of individuals feeding from each other like vampires and taking all they can while they can. I'm sure that sounds cynical as hell, but when that's the only tie you've ever had to a person, that's usually how it is. The thing is, most of my true friends gave up on me due to my years of struggling with addiction, and the drug friends ditched me when I got clean. Now I've got no friends at all. . .:/ But, I do have a very strong and supportive bf, who is also clean, and that makes a big difference. Also, I figure, my oldest friends will soon realize I intend to STAY clean this time, and maybe we can become close again. All things are possible if I stay cool and keep to my goal. Btw, this is the morning of day #9 and I feel pretty fantastic. I know it won't last, but I'm enjoying it while it's here. :)
 
eeevilgenius13 said:
Hello, everyone. I've joined up as part of a sweeping effort to distract myself as I go through awful, endless bupe WD; this is by far not the first time, but I hope like hell that it'll be the last. I've been on subs for the past year, and I've stayed completely clean from my DOC (first oxy, then H, then methadone, then H), and used my subs only as prescribed, but I'm being forced to quit what works very well for me due to some legal difficulties. I'm well into day 7 and staying sane with the help of 20-40 mg daily of lope. I would very much appreciate any kind comments, insights, or anything else that distracts my brain from how much it hates my body right now. I'm doing this because I have to, but also because I want to, or at least the best parts of me want to, but you know how it is- Of course I want to be free from all of this misery and addiction, but it doesn't change the fact that I am one sick and miserable girl right now. Thanks to anyone who replies.
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Hiya, I wish you well with getting sober and getting through the withdrawals. Well done on getting to day 7. You may find the recovery forums (and Other Drugs) useful.

- Other Drugs (OD)
- The Dark Side
- Sober Living
- Mental Health

Threads that may interest you;

- Suboxone/ Buprenorphine Megathread and FAQ V.18.0
- Personal Accounts of Addiction What's Your Story
- The Opioid Withdrawal Megathread

Please feel free to ask any questions re: the site and wishing you all the very best,
Evey

Hiya Noo,

You may be interested in the following sub-forum;

- European and African Drug Discussion (EADD) They're a friendly, caring, supportive bunch who have some interesting discussions, both drug and non-drug related. You would be more than welcome to join. They have a social thread called Gibberings .

Wishing you all the best too and please don't hesitate in asking any questions if you have any.
Evey
 
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abracadabra girl said:
Hi from Oakland, another decaying urban area :)
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Yeah? It can be super depressing, right? 3 out of 5 of the buildings flanking the one I live in are abandoned... This part of the city is the land that god forgot. It makes it tough during WD, because I can't walk around after dark, there are no thriving stores or businesses in my area. . . Moving is my next major goal. Once I get thru this, of course.
 
Captain.Heroin said:
I couldn't really say. I have PTSD, and I still have peripheral symptoms (goose bumps, yawning, runny eyes, runny nose, quick GI tract) - but I would say probably after 3 months to 4 months things started getting better.
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Damn. That's exactly what I was afraid of. But also kinda what I suspected would be the case. What I wouldn't do to be able rewind time and stay away from the !#@$!! opiates in the first place.
 
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