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the path to truely finding your inner self? WE DRUGGIES HAVE GOALS THREAD 2014!!

Get to fuck. Seriously.

My plan for the immediate future is to carry on relearning how to live like a normal person, or at least close enough to pass muster. It's a slow but pretty gripping (and ultimately rewarding) process that requires so much time, effort and attention that there's barely any place for drugs. Handily, through my own sheer heroism and the wonders of medicine, I've reduced my drug consumption down to almost zero anyway. I'm really proud of this. Not that drugs are off the menu entirely; I still enjoy weed and the odd oxy here and there, but they're no longer a big part of my life.

I want to move pretty soon and I have the cash to do so, which is good. I also have enough to treat myself to some time away and some nice material objects of various kinds. Eighteen months ago, I'd have blown the cash already on smack and speed. This feels good.

So my goal? Carry on. Congratulate me later.

Get to fuck. Seriously.
 
Learn to forgive others and myself.

Learn not to hurl out of windows.

Learn to be sober and such.

Just learn, really.
 
Just be a better person than you were last year. The things that you think 'wtf was I thinking' forgive yourself but try not to repeat them.

The rest will happen :)

I'm in a really great place in my life - yes were sort of programmed to want more but I really don't need it.
 
My main goals this year is to finish my Masters. I only have two surgery units to complete which are the easiest of the course.

Buying a new place to live in the next couple of months as my current place is too small now my kids are older. Depending on the place I will have to design and renovate.

Head into the wild with my camp gear over winter and catch up with some mates who I've haven't seen for a while due to work and study. Dance around a fire under the stars is well overdue.

Teach my kids how to snowboard now that have learnt how to surf.
 
My goal this year is to go out more and do more drugs.

Everythings going well in my life except for no gf and a lack of a social life. I've been focusing on work too much these last couple of years, time to get things back on track ;)
 
This is something I've always struggled with - goals! I don't push myself or set them because I'm scared I will fail them. I have some serious family and past issues which seem to have me stuck in quicksand when it comes to doing anything much like "normal" people do. With the exception being my children - looking after them is the only "goal" I reliably keep!

I guess my goals are -

To keep trying things for chronic pain and therefore I will be able to at least set the basic foundations.

To dip my toe in the waters of another job (or even studying, which I used to be so good at and I do love!), and take steps towards having another source of income other than my job which is in the sex industry which I hate (got to be honest! =D).

To travel.

To get better at cooking and other related things.

I guess i just suffer from apathy! Although I do enjoy things, often times life seems so dull!
 
My main goals this year is to finish my Masters. I only have two surgery units to complete which are the easiest of the course.

Buying a new place to live in the next couple of months as my current place is too small now my kids are older. Depending on the place I will have to design and renovate.

Head into the wild with my camp gear over winter and catch up with some mates who I've haven't seen for a while due to work and study. Dance around a fire under the stars is well overdue.

Teach my kids how to snowboard now that have learnt how to surf.

You know your local market better than me but... buying something to renovate can be more expensive than a new build ? If you need any design / build advice etc give me a shout and Ill do my best to help.
 
This is something I've always struggled with - goals! I don't push myself or set them because I'm scared I will fail them. I have some serious family and past issues which seem to have me stuck in quicksand when it comes to doing anything much like "normal" people do. With the exception being my children - looking after them is the only "goal" I reliably keep!

I guess my goals are -

To keep trying things for chronic pain and therefore I will be able to at least set the basic foundations.

To dip my toe in the waters of another job (or even studying, which I used to be so good at and I do love!), and take steps towards having another source of income other than my job which is in the sex industry which I hate (got to be honest! =D).

To travel.

To get better at cooking and other related things.

I guess i just suffer from apathy! Although I do enjoy things, often times life seems so dull!

Travel! There are a few good cooks on here, what cuisine you looking at ? Do you need information, what puts you off ?
 
Handily, through my own sheer heroism and the wonders of medicine, I've reduced my drug consumption down to almost zero anyway

Awesome achievement!

You've definitely been one of my heroes for a good while now <3

Well done!

Lube up fella - I'll bring a cake (not that the lubing and cake have any relationship :D :) )

I'm already there filming, tryin' my best to keep a steady hand ;p


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TheThe - True Happiness This Way Lies

...

TheThe - True Happiness This Way Lies

And have you ever wanted something so badly
That it possessed your body and your soul
Through the night and through the day
Until you finally get it

And then you realize that it wasn't what you wanted after all
And then those selfsame sickly little thoughts
Now go and attach themselves to something or somebody new
And the whole goddamn thing starts all over again

Well, I've been crushing the symptoms
But I can't locate the cause
Could God really be so cruel?
To give us feelings that could never be fulfilled

Baby, I've got my sights set on you, I've got my sight set on you
And someday, someday, someday, you'll come my way
But when you put your arms around me
I'll be lookin' over your shoulder for somethin' new

'Cause I ain't ever found peace upon the breast of a girl
I ain't ever found peace with the religion of the world
I ain't ever found peace at the bottom of a glass

Sometimes it seems the more I ask for, the less I receive
Sometimes it seems the more I ask for, the less I receive
The only true freedom is freedom from the heart's desires
And the only true happiness this way lies

... dedicated ...
 
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You know your local market better than me but... buying something to renovate can be more expensive than a new build ? If you need any design / build advice etc give me a shout and Ill do my best to help.

I just sold a house we spent a couple of years doing up. It helps that the mrs is an interior designer so that counter balances my colour blindness. We have our eyes on a couple of converted loft style warehouse apartments that don't need much in the way of renovation, simply refreshing. We don't plan on living in a construction zone. The key is finding the right one with a river view that hasn't already been over capitalised by the previous owner who now wants unrealistic price for it.

This is what we aim to achieve with the end result.....
http://www.realestate.com.au/property-apartment-qld-teneriffe-116804379

It's just a matter of finding the right place with the barebones to achieve it, without sinking a fortune to do so. We have found one with real potential I just need my builder to view it and give me his opinion. Heritage listed places can be a minefield though that's why we have taken 6 months looking around.
 
This is what we aim to achieve with the end result.....

I would have to say I don't like it - the contrast on the flooring / walls is a bit stark ? If you look at the spacing of the beams - you go living room, kitchen and bathroom. Not my type of space :)

Few years doing up ? Did you turn a profit ? I'm going to be building soon - three or four floors, middle income and will be making a nice profit.
 
I would have to say I don't like it - the contrast on the flooring / walls is a bit stark ? If you look at the spacing of the beams - you go living room, kitchen and bathroom. Not my type of space :)

Innit - looks like an Ikea advert.
 
I'm not

I have mostly been doing mindfulness this year - never really got much out of "setting goals" because you're always living in the future. I tend to be haunted by the past quite a bit so this mindfulness idea of simply thinking about what's going through your mind at each second has helped me through.

well i cant say any of us are "normal" though i am interested to know of coping with my emotions and am slowly learning, i do feel setting goals can be silly for some, though after breaking up with my ex (crazy relationship) losing my dog , becoming addicted to etizolam, made me set out some goals.. though obviously these goals can change throughout my journey to finding myself and happiness on a whole.

I am a very pessimistic person ...

oooo and good responses guys, marketing is an interesting one clord0.. i mainly dropped ouf of sixth form studying a load of things i didnt really want to study, well i did, but at the time i wasn't ready ., to interested in other things, i feel 16-17 wasn't the best time in life to start studying as i found drugs and wasn't really motivated, was taking on too much at the time for my brain.

So since then i have been in and out of jobs, have been from working in a phone store to a security guard, hated everything, found poker and it suits me, though it isn't easy.. i enjoy the freedom though, it suits me . even though i spend much more time inside 8) (another goal, get out of house more) saying that friends wanted to go out for drink tonight but i turned it down, mainly because alcohol makes me do daft things and i dont like the hangover :)

but yeah thats me.
, its good to write things down even if you aint posting them anywhere and just reading back through them as gay as it sounds can be really good for me..

anyways i am finished up so thought i would post in again, thought there wouldn't be as many responses, but its cool, i hope that we can push each other forward in acheiveing/ sustaining our goals <3
 
I would like to try and learn to use a computer properly and educate myself more in subjects such as history & politics.
 
So bare - your goals are ?

I love rambling and never quite get them down,

So..

Get off etizolam completely (down to 5mg finding it hard though)

keep up with the gym 3 times a week (to help me physically and mentally)

become a better player with better disclipline and way of living.

Move out of england!

There we go, i got them out :)
 
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