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the path to truely finding your inner self? WE DRUGGIES HAVE GOALS THREAD 2014!!

Bare_head

Bare_head

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So guys, the path, the journey you have been down, do you think it has taught things about yourself in that you have truely found your inner self? by that i mean do you feel at ease with who you are and understand life and what it means to you.

Do you have goals? we are after all just normal people :) ...

Post your thoughts on how you have developed as a person throughout your experiences (share them they interest me!)

Post your goals , whether its getting out the house to see a friend that you havn't seen in a while, saving up for a trip away, whether its getting off the gear by the end of the year, hey it cud be to become a millionaire by 2015 share them! i wanna see our goals, and hopefully with the good guys we have in here we can help one another along and push people forward in acheiving , im sorry i dont post much here anymore (trying more to) but i wanna get to know this community still and hopefully be some kind of help in here, i am after all on the path to recovery and have big goals for myself..

Getting off etiz,

becoming stronger physically and mentally,

experiencing other cultures (travel the world),

Find a S/O who i love personality wise

find who i actually am and what i want in life, i know its to be happy but what is it that makes me happy, im rambling now because iv'e had some morphine and etiz, but i love you EADD'rs and wanna get more involved in these forums..

Anyways its sunday so im sure i wont be getting much responses today tomorrow (unless your tripping) and maybe this thread wont even hit off, most of my threads i write i delete and dont post as my english through lack of practice has become really bad and im pretty embarrassed, its half 4 i should be asleep <3

move thread if u want , or i will delete, but i really can relate to alot on these boards (some more so than others) but that is the world we live in .

Many regards, Bare_head
 
Fuck Etiz that shit is pointless and makes you soulless for a couple hours.


I hate setting goals because I never achieve them, and I have no idea what I want in life anyway.
My only goal right now is to try to get fit but with browsing the internet all night and drinking in between (very) short periods of working out I doubt this will ever be achieved.
 
To clean myself up over summer before my 2nd year at Uni, get a job whilst at home, hopefully being at home will make me cut down alot on usage of stims and smoking weed. Binged far too much on drone and weed haha. Taken an affect on me which I can't have whilst doing a degree.
 
ino :( but i got in deep, im tapering down , come from like 12-15mg a night to 5 within a month, doing pretty well .. i had lots of problems i shoved them down my neck in the hope it would shut the pain away, it did, but i lost my ex (good thing) lost alot of money (not really a problem) and i have been a recluse for 6 months, 4 weeks into the gym im down to 5mg and and pushing forward, sleeps hard tho !

I think ur right on setting the goals part, i think that people can become overwhelmed by overthinking all their plans and in turn have a negative effect, so maybe this thread is pointless, i dont drink so i dont know where im gonna go after etiz, maybe malta, or andorra , get away from everything. im on the right path tho thats the main thing, just need to curbe my anxiety as coming off etiz and weed , i will do this! i also want to become healthy aswell,

its a marathon not a sprint as they say plmar, i wish you well in whatever it is you want, just cut the drinking out and concentrate on yourself, do you use alcohol as a social enhancer/ rectreational use/ anxiety issues?
 
clord0 said:
To clean myself up over summer before my 2nd year at Uni, get a job whilst at home, hopefully being at home will make me cut down alot on usage of stims and smoking weed. Binged far too much on drone and weed haha. Taken an affect on me which I can't have whilst doing a degree.
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yeah well i was a college dropout, weed made me lazy and unmotivated, but i found i used it to self medicate cause of anxiety which in turn didn't have the best effect on me, aside i hope you can curve your weed usage man and stims (they fun but do take a toll on the body like my devil etiz is doing)

what are you studying btw?
 
I'm kind of hoping to be made redundant. I'm in a job I don't particularly like, but pays well for the amount of work involved, so I'm not going to leave unless I get pushed (can't think of a job I'd like to do otherwise). If I get made redundant I'd get a year on full pay and have the time of my life travelling. Vaulting ambitions, here :\

That, and getting off the codeine. I reckon it plays a big part in making me ok with a pretty naff situation.
 
Bare_head said:
Anyways its sunday so im sure i wont be getting much responses today tomorrow (unless your tripping) and maybe this thread wont even hit off, most of my threads i write i delete and dont post as my english through lack of practice has become really bad and im pretty embarrassed, its half 4 i should be asleep <3
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Aw, don't be silly, it's a great idea for a thread. And for what it's worth, I always thought you were a native English speaker.. particularly impressive given your morphine/etiz. Don't be intimidated, get more involved if you like EADD. <3

spudgun said:
I'm kind of hoping to be made redundant. I'm in a job I don't particularly like, but pays well for the amount of work involved, so I'm not going to leave unless I get pushed (can't think of a job I'd like to do otherwise). If I get made redundant I'd get a year on full pay and have the time of my life travelling. Vaulting ambitions, here :\
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I was in a similar position and took the plunge and fucked my job off a few months ago.. plannig on spending the summer doing fun and travels and figuring out some sort of job plan in the autumn. In your situation I guess it's worth holding out for redundancy pay, but if not.. just save up and go for it. YOLO etc.

But yeah, my vague goals make me sound like a massive hippy, but..
Find a job that I find more meaningful/rewarding than sitting in an office
Do more yoga and eat less meat
Be better at telling friends/etc how I feel about them
Spend some quality time alone
Say "yes" to things more often
 
Get back on the track & in the gym over summer and get fit again.
Make time for fun AND uni work - at the moment it's very much one or the other and it's only going to get harder to balance the two.
Be more sociable outside of direct friend group
Actually decide what I want to do with my life
 
Bare_head said:
what are you studying btw?
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I study marketing, what were you doing before you dropped out? I considered dropping out at one point but didn't see any better options, have you found a career since dropping out?

I've found it de-motivate me a LOT at points and fall behind on work, but I always manage to pull myself together, quit smoking and up the caffeine and nicotine to help me power through the work. The freedom of being at uni on my own has meant I've smoked so much more than I used to so it's taking its toll, I'm setting myself a goal to become disciplined and know how to moderate properley.
 
YOLO etc.
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You're right - I guess I'm waiting for something to happen, but if it doesn't then I'm going to have to take the plunge. Things just aren't sustainable right now. Some heavy stuff happened last year and, as a result, I'm kind of stranded on my own here in the smoke, and the job I do means I don't really have any colleagues. I love it here, but it's really easy to get lost.
 
Yep. :) Sounds like it'd be a bugger to miss out on redundancy pay, but if you're in the sort of job where you get hounded by recruitment agents, at least you won't find it too difficult to find a similar position if you can't find something you enjoy more. Or you could ask about taking a 6 month sabbatical? I was offered one when I quit, but really just wanted to leave.
 
I can take a sabbatical, but I have to know I want to do so and bank up leave three years in advance 8(. I work in the public sector, so, whilst the benefits are pretty mint in some respects, it's not exactly the most flexible environment. One good thing is I'm not tied to an office - it's the way forward, definitely recommend it if you can find a way:).
 
Get off subutex asap and become non chemical dependant and remain clean.
Get on top of my mental health problems and break contact with the hospital and psycs.
Once health sorted try and salvage life and get back into work if possible.
 
its good idea to write down ur ideas.

it is euphoric completing them.

quit job , done
going traveling , going to do

it is possible that ill be sober for few months, which will be bad for me, but good.

will have to stop drugs, mostly just weed, drone, etizlam which will be good to stop. oh and mXe . having no weed and mxe is the worst.
 
swampdragon said:
YOLO etc.
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Get to fuck. Seriously.

My plan for the immediate future is to carry on relearning how to live like a normal person, or at least close enough to pass muster. It's a slow but pretty gripping (and ultimately rewarding) process that requires so much time, effort and attention that there's barely any place for drugs. Handily, through my own sheer heroism and the wonders of medicine, I've reduced my drug consumption down to almost zero anyway. I'm really proud of this. Not that drugs are off the menu entirely; I still enjoy weed and the odd oxy here and there, but they're no longer a big part of my life.

I want to move pretty soon and I have the cash to do so, which is good. I also have enough to treat myself to some time away and some nice material objects of various kinds. Eighteen months ago, I'd have blown the cash already on smack and speed. This feels good.

So my goal? Carry on. Congratulate me later.
 
Bare_head said:
we are after all just normal people :) ...
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I'm not

I have mostly been doing mindfulness this year - never really got much out of "setting goals" because you're always living in the future. I tend to be haunted by the past quite a bit so this mindfulness idea of simply thinking about what's going through your mind at each second has helped me through.
 
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