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steewith2ees

steewith2ees

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Im really keen to make a start to stop using drugs throughout the day, in an ideal situation id wait until early evening before enjoying some bud with a film, some good telle or xbox

However this is generally not the case. I was up at 7 but have no tobacco, as i looked for something to smoke i found a spliff with barely 2 drags off it so of course despite only still being half awake i smoked that, realising that yet another day has already gone down the pan. As I have to go into town later to see a drug nurse about blood test results ill probably end up going into the bank as theres a bit of money in there which should cover some class a's might as well if im already out. And thats the way my thinking goes. Pretty pathetic. So im going to use this thread to keep track of what im taking today and why and lets see what room for improvement there is at the end.

07.30 - Spliff + Bong

08.00 - One more bong. My dads up so im going to put Moonrise Kingdom on to watch with him. Ive heard its good.
 
8.20 bong x 2. had to calm my self down after my mother blatently robbed my only lighter and have had to spend 10 minutes making one out of old spare parts. My dad has gone off in a huff in the meantime to do some housework. Im putting the film on

edit - 8.32 hes back
 
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I've started keeping my etizolam diary again, my dose has been erratic whilst taking and coming off kratom, but i have now started reducing by 0.1 ml (=0.2mg) per day until i can notice the difference and then i will hold up on that dose for a few days until i adjust if and when that happens.

I am now able to get through the days with nothing more than last nights etiz though i do feel kind of flat and my confidence is a bit shot at times. But it will return. The evenings are a bit more tricky, i have 1.8 mg of etiz early on and as few beers and / or shorts and / or noids as possible. Just had the equivalent of 3 cans of average strength beer last night, so thats not too bad.
 
Yeah it probably is, but it isnt waht i would class as anyhwhere near 'problem drinking', even though if i was to maintain that for the long term it would be bad for my health. I dont intend it to be a long term thing. It's mainly boredom that is the culprit and some way of making the evenings different to the days. I should think that when i finally get a job then this kind of thing wont feel so necessary every evening, i see no problem with a few drinks a few nights a week
 
No, drinking within sensible limits two or three times a week really isn't a problem. Not that I'm drinking myself right now.

You're right; being in work you have far less time to get bored, and the window for recreational drug opportunities becomes much, much smaller; like a couple of hours every evening at most. Plus you're often exhausted from the day's activities.

I need to find another evening drug (apart from weed) for those moments when I really do need a break from reality. Opioids do the job nicely but they obviously pose problems. Kratom's good occasionally but it's useless after a week or two. Benzos are a terrible idea for anybody who's prone to depression.

I need to work on both ideas and sources, but I'm struggling on both fronts sadly.
 
I tend not to let work get in the way of drugs, the results are usually entertaining.

I really need to abstain from all drugs, I know id be better off all round without them but the hedonist in me still has some power.

I've vastly reduced of late, stims down to once a month only a few benzos and I'm still off the booze, a train wreck still feels like its just round the corner though
 
Every day:

11am...24mg bupe
2-3pm...10mg diaz
evening...couple of glasses of wine or beers
11pm 15mg diaz
 
God Im crap at this. I ended up spending the day taking drugs forgetting, of course, to record what id taken. From what i remember i never saw the nurse, so i ended up back home with 4 bags of gear, 2 whites and a gram of weed which coma-ed me out for the rest of the day.

Yesterday I saw my key worker at my local DSP, I thought Id get a bollocking so I made sure my brain was cushioned with another 5 mg pyrazolam. No drug test though and I now have a month worth of scripts so its all good that end. Came home with 2 more whites an 4 bees and another gram of weed which together with 60ml methadone knocked me out untill about 7pm. Waking back up with very little weed left I took 80mg Flubromazepam which rubbered me back out in next to no time. Woke up at about 01.00 this morning, 10mg Etizolam and back to sleep. Im now running seriously low on the ol rc benzos, I have about 40 2mg diclaz left and a strip of etizolam but I need to restock on the other colours next week when I get paid.
 
Right - Im going to have another go today. Ive been up since half 5. Ive had a coffee and a bowel of porridge and am ready to face the day.

06.40 - Bong. I now have one bongs worth of weed left and no car for a drug run into town until 12.00. What to do on the meantime. was going to watch an episode of weeds but Gravity 3d is always good at this hour of the morning when stoned, and my parents house is quite big so I can lick up the noise without disturbing them. Too much
 
No ive been shit this week ill elaborate when i get to a computer. This is my first attempt at posting feom phone so bear with ne
14.00 - 2 whites which wernt anything to shout home about - im now parked up and im halfway through my 1st bag. I think ill wait until i get home before i do a splif
 
Why are you seeing a key worker and a drugs nurse? Are you trying to give up drugs or are you just wasting people's time? Why don't you get a job or volunteer and do something with your day then you might not feel the need to take drugs during the day.
 
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