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Thank you for your inquiry. We hope this message finds you safe and well. We are very grateful that you survived your attempt. Strong emotions affect all of us - even those of us living in the monastery. It can be difficult if we do not have emotional support but it is important to not die just because of a strong emotion. You are not alone - many young people every day try and take their own life.
During the difficult moments when it seems like there is no other solution, no reason to continue, please just lie down, close your eyes and follow your breathing. Take refuge in your breath, and think and do absolutely nothing until the strong emotion has passed. Wait for the emotional storm to pass - you know it will, eventually. Strong emotions are just like real storms - they come, stay awhile, and then eventually must disperse. The sun will rise again. Even though, sometimes during the worst storms it doesn't feel like it ever will.
Dear friend, in our experience friends who are going through mental difficulty should stabilize their condition with licensed medical professionals before exploring mindfulness and meditation as a supporting treatment. Mindfulness alone will not be enough to help. After a few months of professional help, and perhaps medical treatment, if you wish, you could come and stay with us for one week and see if you receive any benefit.
We would also like to share with you some online resources that you may explore as you wish:
http://vimeo.com/plumvillage
https://www.youtube.com/user/plumvillageonline
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