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Good to hear Delsyd! Props to you!

And hang in there Xork....it gets better. You are barren now, but the noribogaine starts to work some magic...

Crazy how our metabolisms differ.....I was out and about at the farm 24 hours post Ibo.....feeling like hell, and crazy tracers, but coherent enough to walk around, and even *gasp* drive the tractor (barely) to feed my cows their 400 lb round bale of hay...

The main part lasted 4 hours, with an additional 20 hours of weirdness....3 days later I was driving, working, etc....but very fatigued! Ibo (and kicking) wipes you out...

Sending good vibes your way Xork!

In additional news my personal life had gone to hell, and my 6 year relationship ending. Never felt such heartache before....ive always been the ender.....this is mutual, but driven by her. It's an awful feeling :(

Edit The Cure "carnage visors" is a forgotten masterpiece.

And I threw away my 3-MeO PCP and MXE....the rarer dissociatives are locked away far. Trouble for me atm....
 
amanitadine said:
Good to hear Delsyd! Props to you!

And hang in there Xork....it gets better. You are barren now, but the noribogaine starts to work some magic...

Crazy how our metabolisms differ.....I was out and about at the farm 24 hours post Ibo.....feeling like hell, and crazy tracers, but coherent enough to walk around, and even *gasp* drive the tractor (barely) to feed my cows their 400 lb round bale of hay...

The main part lasted 4 hours, with an additional 20 hours of weirdness....3 days later I was driving, working, etc....but very fatigued! Ibo (and kicking) wipes you out...

Sending good vibes your way Xork!

In additional news my personal life had gone to hell, and my 6 year relationship ending. Never felt such heartache before....ive always been the ender.....this is mutual, but driven by her. It's an awful feeling :(

Edit The Cure "carnage visors" is a forgotten masterpiece.

And I threw away my 3-MeO PCP and MXE....the rarer dissociatives are locked away far. Trouble for me atm....
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^Sorry to hear it, amanitadine. You have a remarkably good natured disposition, and from what I've read recently you've endured through extremely challenging times before, so I'm sure you'll come through stronger. Still, being (effectively) "dumped" for the first time after so long and presumably so many times on the other side of things (you've called yourself a "geezer," so that's on you!) must be very painful. You'll be gaining emotional wisdom that can't be learned any other way, though. I know, "fuck that," but it's true. I'm going into the sixth year of my relationship -- my longest ever, by far -- and it's hard to imagine starting over from here like you. The longest romantic relationship I've been dumped out of was a year, so there's a sense I don't appreciate what I'm telling you, but I did get "best friend dumped" at 22 by a person I knew since childhood who became a junkie, so I'm drawing on some semi-analogous experience. In any case a lot of PD seems to be going through rough times romantically, so you've got people to help out and be helped by.

That's a smart move removing yourself from those dissociatives. Using drugs to escape boredom is one thing, but using them to opt out of the painful shit we need to get through to really move on is how they can seriously undermine our lives. Of course that's practically a truism, but to those of us practiced with them who have access like you it can be far from obvious, so it's really to your credit that you've acted as you have.
 
I'm having romantic problems right now too. I'm at the place where I'd really just like to not have someone SO emotionally attached to me, but she only wants to be with me if I'm 'in love' with her. She's differentiating between 'loving someone' and 'being in love with someone' apparently being in love with eachother is the only way she wants our relationship to be, and I've grown more and more detached from her because she's depressed and bringing me down with her. Also she's broken up with me three times now and then taken it back each time. It's bullshit, but I'm putting up with it because she's also threatened to harm herself if I break up with her. She's always either stroking my ego or complaining about everything I do. On top of all this, I've been paying for almost everything we do together and she just got a job today. She also claims she wants to go to NA meetings now for some reason :?

I have to write a paper, but this was a good warm up. Fuckin' amphs :X
 
Delsyd said:
It's all good friends. I brought xork home with me. He is fine, just a little confused and feeling some anxiety but he is much more coherent than previous times I saw him. I'm sure he'll be back in a few days with the full story.
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That's good to hear Del :)
 
xammy said:
Is DOC good party drug? Considering its amphetamine effects I should have plenty of energy?

Would 3mg be too much? It's going to be familiar place (friends house) with close friends, but its my first time trying DOC.. would I be overwhelmed?
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3mg seems like a bit much for a party. I'd take around 1mg, maybe 1.5 if I'm feeling adventurous. I find that I really enjoy low dose psychs. Last summer I took .75mg and had a great time, and last week with ~12mg of 2c-b was also awesome.
I do plan to take higher doses of each next time I do them, but I don't plan on being at a party. I just don't find psychs very conducive to socializing, which is what parties are for usually.
 
Delsyd said:
3mg seems like a bit much for a party. I'd take around 1mg, maybe 1.5 if I'm feeling adventurous. I find that I really enjoy low dose psychs. Last summer I took .75mg and had a great time, and last week with ~12mg of 2c-b was also awesome.
I do plan to take higher doses of each next time I do them, but I don't plan on being at a party. I just don't find psychs very conducive to socializing, which is what parties are for usually.
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I got supposedly 1.7mg blotters and 2 of my friends tested these. Friend A took 2 of them and friend B took 1. B said he could've taken more (and he's tripped like 5 times max in his life) and friend A said it wasnt overwhelming (just the peak was pretty intense, but not disturbing in any way), and they did this at a club. So I'm going to take 2 (3.4mg) just because I'll be taking a break from drugs after this trip so its like a farewell. I'm going to drop at home and wait 3-5 hrs before entering the party, if I'm overwhelmed I just won't go there then :)
 
Wow... sorry for scaring you guys. I think I desperately needed to talk to another person directly, it felt like I had broken myself, there was no way to get anything whatsoever to add up or make sense. I have zero memory of the trip after I started feeling the rocketship. I felt like I was both asleep and awake for an entire week, as opposed to basically just Saturday and Sunday. So I had a substantial amount of panic that I was fucked at work. I also have all these weird twilight memories that I had been spending time with with occult people doing ceremonies, it feels so real but extraordinarily creepy. I feel probably 90% today, I was getting spells of confusion yesterday where I'd lose it for about 5 minutes, not freaking out just no idea what was going on.

Thanks for your thoughts everyone. :) <3 I feel in good spirits, no desire to use opiates, looking foward to relaxing today. Easily the most intense experience I had ever had. I wish I remembered it at all, I find it really weird that I remember nothing at all. I was so scared I had broken my brain because I was reading the results of my typing and it sounded schitzo.
 
^It definitely sounded like psychotic episode, for some reason people with psychosis go writing with caps and in a similar way. Good thing you're ok!

Your writing reminded me of that guy who made the "REVELATION CAUSED BY DATURA" thread or something.. He was having a real psychotic episode then (or just tripping on datura so hard, dont know), and I guess it happened again and everytime he went into this capslock mode.
 
Xorkoth said:
Wow... sorry for scaring you guys. I think I desperately needed to talk to another person directly, it felt like I had broken myself, there was no way to get anything whatsoever to add up or make sense. I have zero memory of the trip after I started feeling the rocketship. I felt like I was both asleep and awake for an entire week, as opposed to basically just Saturday and Sunday. So I had a substantial amount of panic that I was fucked at work. I also have all these weird twilight memories that I had been spending time with with occult people doing ceremonies, it feels so real but extraordinarily creepy. I feel probably 90% today, I was getting spells of confusion yesterday where I'd lose it for about 5 minutes, not freaking out just no idea what was going on.

Thanks for your thoughts everyone. :) <3 I feel in good spirits, no desire to use opiates, looking foward to relaxing today. Easily the most intense experience I had ever had. I wish I remembered it at all, I find it really weird that I remember nothing at all. I was so scared I had broken my brain because I was reading the results of my typing and it sounded schitzo.
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Relieved. That's a head scratcher because my ibogaine trip this year I remember basically nothing about. I took it on a Monday evening, and *do* remember bits of Tue and pieces of Wed, but basically it seemed to me as though I took it on Monday, woke up Thurs when it finally started ending.

Xork, I'd highly encourage you to keep hearing the bwiti music. Since I had no healer or shaman, I consider that music to have vital information to help heal you and in your noribogaine glow/ suggestible state ;) or whatever which should come on by tomorrow, I hope you can get the joy from that music I do.

I'll see you on AIM. Welcome home.
 
Xorkoth said:
Wow... sorry for scaring you guys. I think I desperately needed to talk to another person directly, it felt like I had broken myself, there was no way to get anything whatsoever to add up or make sense. I have zero memory of the trip after I started feeling the rocketship. I felt like I was both asleep and awake for an entire week, as opposed to basically just Saturday and Sunday. So I had a substantial amount of panic that I was fucked at work. I also have all these weird twilight memories that I had been spending time with with occult people doing ceremonies, it feels so real but extraordinarily creepy. I feel probably 90% today, I was getting spells of confusion yesterday where I'd lose it for about 5 minutes, not freaking out just no idea what was going on.

Thanks for your thoughts everyone. :) <3 I feel in good spirits, no desire to use opiates, looking foward to relaxing today. Easily the most intense experience I had ever had. I wish I remembered it at all, I find it really weird that I remember nothing at all. I was so scared I had broken my brain because I was reading the results of my typing and it sounded schitzo.
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*exhales in relief* so glad to see you back, now just remember to stay away from that fucking oxy;)
 
No shit, I missed that post. But Folley, I'll have to teach you some rituals that let you draw energy out without infecting yourself with it. Even remotely. ;)

It takes a village. We are all such fucking weirdos, but loving and good weirdos nevertheless.
 
I discovered that I had eaten a substantial amount of kratom yesterday when I thought I lost it, I don't remember this but it's clear I did. Nevertheless I don't seem to be affected by it at all, my body just feels like new kind of, no persistent desire to act any other way than I should.
 
Xorkoth said:
I discovered that I had eaten a substantial amount of kratom yesterday when I thought I lost it, I don't remember this but it's clear I did. Nevertheless I don't seem to be affected by it at all, my body just feels like new kind of, no persistent desire to act any other way than I should.
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Remember when I told you that once the ibogaine wears off, that's when you really get high? That 'new' feeling will continue to grow in the days, ibogaine 2013..I was able to take that glow and turn it into some tangable behavioral and outlook changes...well it also took plenty of bwiti music, and with encouragement of friends and family, even my original love E, who flew me out to CA for spiritual regeneration. It was enough to send me into full blown mania for a couple months, you can see it if you read my words from then. I sure needed that mania, after a decade of self hatred, it was refreshing to suddenly be so 'in love' with myself. Hey it worked, I finally started dating in 2013 again, and other than my 'little lapse' last month, life IS so much better for me post iboga.

So glad you joined the club. Basse, and put more of that damn music on, I tell ya...it's been perfected over 100s of years to heal you.

Edit: I heard a crazy story about Iboga. This is supposed to be the root of a nondescript bush, and it's haunted by a wise old spirit. Crazy story if there ever was one. I am told if one eats this haunted root, the Ghost inside fixes the body and mind of the eater, then gives lessons over 36 hours of space travel and many visions. This is so one can make good choices and keep the Haunted Root's had work intact.
 
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Okay will do. :) Thanks for all of your tremendous level of help throughout the whole process, seriously. Hopefully this has been educational to everyone, after I get some perspective I will of course write a full report.
 
Xorkoth said:
Okay will do. :) Thanks for all of your tremendous level of help throughout the whole process, seriously. Hopefully this has been educational to everyone, after I get some perspective I will of course write a full report.
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I do too. I hope this experience encourages NOBODY to do home ibogaine RXments. I think in hindsight, a trip to a tropical paradise, or Canada, to take ibogaine with a doctor and people watching out for your safety, probably is worth it. I mean, ya think?
 
^ Yeah it almost sounds like you could potentially go out of your head easily and create a thread like robottripping did recently :]

morninggloryseed said:
Edit: I heard a crazy story about Iboga. This is supposed to be the root of a nondescript bush, and it's haunted by a wise old spirit. Crazy story if there ever was one. I am told if one eats this haunted root, the Ghost inside fixes the body and mind of the eater, then gives lessons over 36 hours of space travel and many visions. This is so one can make good choices and keep the Haunted Root's had work intact.
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Not as crazy as some of the shit I've heard that we're spoon fed and supposed to instinctively believe
 
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