Raas, am currently in possibly the worst state I've been in since joining BL (a serious statement coming from me, and unlikely to be true - though I'm running it pretty close). The basic gist goes some thing along the lines of 10 hour pee vee binge and no downers - also run out of mexxy, maybe just 60 mg left.
Anyway, the long and short of it is that while I did my best to process your latest response to my post I can't really claim to be in anywhere near the mental clarity to give a proper response - not least due to my inability to even register what you said in your post to begin with. While this fact alone ought to obviously render this a pointless excerise, the fact is I cant think of anything else to do right now. Apologies for my rambling.
First off, having noted the number of posts from shambles I feel it a safe bet that he will have covered what ever I would have said myself so I feel I'm probably not gonna be adding much new. I also saw coltdan s been in the mix too so I definitely know most bases will have been covered.
The only thing I wanna say right now is that while I may be in a shocking state right now, I know my family, who I am currently back living with right now, are having a nights sleep - well mostly anyway. The same situation would not apply if I was still drinking. Not to mention the sleepless nights I endured as a child due to my dads choice to take alcohol over other drugs. He used to come home and smash the house up about 3 nights a week, until I grew up and put a stop to it myself.
I'm gonna have to bail now. catch you guys in a bit.