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Getting Prescribed Benzos For School?

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yteek

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I've been on the benzo train the past, years ago, so I know the ropes.

This time around, I really just want to get some effective fast and short lived relief, not klonopin, been there and done that.

Take them a few days of week without abuse, school is going to be hard, but I need it to be bearable especially for the first few weeks.

I know the whole benzo=bad approach, and then there is the ignorance is bliss approach, but is there a common ground where you can get away fine with a little benzo usage? I mean some drink a few beers during the week, get away fine, can benzos be used with the same idea?
 
I think it depends on the individual, same as with any substance or even addictive activity. Some of us are vulnerable to abuse/addiction and some using the same substance seem to not be vulnerable (although I think this can change). It sounds like you dealt with dependence with benzos before? Would you be taking them for anxiety? The problem is that they "help" by masking it in the beginning, which robs you of your power to actually develop strategies to move past it, and by the end they actually cause more anxiety; not to mention tolerance which escalates quickly.

I think a better route would be lining things up to support you for your specific anxieties. What will make you anxious? The workload itself? There are fantastic classes at every school designed to help you learn how best to learn. There are tutoring options and school counselors (highly underutilized) and all sorts of individual options like study groups or even a study-buddy to keep you on track and on top of things.

If it is social anxiety, again, I would stay far away from the idea that you need a substance to overcome that. What you ned are small do-able steps that can help you adapt to your own nature and personality while increasing your self-esteem. Often the perception is worse than the reality. It took me a long time to adapt to my nature and it was not easy but eventually I found strength in my small victories over my own negative self-talk and learned to just be.

Sorry if I am just blathering here about things that don't even make you nervous. :) Set me straight and we will continue the conversation!
 
The thing in the past with klonopin and it's delayed onset and long duration, it really doesn't hit with the significance of something like Xanax. It's like the methadone of benzos, xanax would be like heroin with the quick onset and notable effect right away. As teenager I was prescribed clonazepam and with sheer ignorance fell into the trap of daily use, with little relief, continued to use despite little to no benefit and increased dosage, tolerance, and dependence followed.

I've tried Xanax and I know that gives me more relief, no need to build in my system either.


I've tried therapy, still go, but I have health complications that impact my anxiety to beyond bearable and where as I think benzos would be probably the most viable thing for the moment.

Looking at the pros to cons, makes me want to try again with them even more.

Would I like to be able to present myself as the funny and charismatic person deep down I know I am, fuck yes, would I like to fool around and flirt with the females, fuck yes, I would.

Then, without any aid, I know I'm going to be fucking miserable.
 
Imo benzos can be beneficial in overcoming anxiety, including social anxiety. I'll use my case as an example.
I never do any public speaking unless I'm told to, it really is my biggest fear. If I had any benzos right now, I would take some and voluntarily speak publicly. That will help me learn that public speaking isn't as embarrassing as it seems to be... so next time, I'll be able to do it with no help.
Also, after a few months of being inactive, I wanted to go to the gym... but for some reason I felt embarassed about it... so I popped a xanax, and went there. Ever since, going to the gym causes zero anxiety.
Is your use recreational or therapeutic ?
If you're using them to treat anxiety, they will make it worse in the long term, so you may wanna try to overcome it in some way.

Tl;dr yes benzos can be used from time to time like beer, just be careful.
 
I need them as an aid, I mean I have worked towards my issues, but physiologically speaking, the physical aspect of anxiety with the first day is enough to drive anyone mad.
 
"The thing in the past with klonopin and it's delayed onset and long duration, it really doesn't hit with the significance of something like Xanax. It's like the methadone of benzos, xanax would be like heroin with the quick onset and notable effect right away. As teenager I was prescribed clonazepam and with sheer ignorance fell into the trap of daily use, with little relief, continued to use despite little to no benefit and increased dosage, tolerance, and dependence followed.

For this go around, I'd like a small script, maybe for a month, and even with that possibly have a family member hold them. I'm not super worried about getting dependent, but just incase, could have that as a safety rebound. You know there are people that use a little xanax here and there do fine, but on the net, all you hear is the negative, which there is, but often, you don't hear much about a neutral ground between the ignorance of abuse and the hell of discontinuation.

I've tried Xanax and I know that gives me more relief, no need to build in my system either.


I've tried therapy, still go, but I have health complications that impact my anxiety to beyond bearable and where as I think benzos would be probably the most viable thing for the moment considering the muscle relaxant and antiseizure effect that for some reason is useful to my neurological issue of dystonia. I've been dealing this for years, so I know pretty much all the ins and outs, but just posting to debate and discuss rather then just contemplating with myself.

Looking at the pros to cons, makes me want to try again with them even more.

Would I like to be able to present myself as the funny and charismatic person deep down I know I am, fuck yes, would I like to fool around and flirt with the females, fuck yes, I would.

Then, without any aid, I know I'm going to be fucking miserable."

Added this here, couldn't edit the post, but it has few more tidbits of info.
 
I was typing while you posted.
I feel the same way bro. Anxiety really sucks, have you tried other stuff? Like tricyclics ?
If blushing is a major issue, there's a surgery to stop facial sweating (they cut a particular nerve), and no more blushing is a side effect of that surgery. But that's really a last resort.
What about beta blockers? They can stop the physical side of anxiety. Shaking, fast heart beat, etc..
 
I've tried beta blockers, no longer effective at all, even at higher doses.

Also, I can't edit my post, but I meant to put I've been dealing with this for years,it came out as "dealing this for years", not a drug dealer, but had to make that clear, can not edit my damn post.
 
The doctor gave me 20 1mg Ativan and ugh.

Wouldn't even right up some more Lyrica that I was given to by a neurologist.


He's really anti-drug and he mentioned he wanted to shy away from controlled substances like Lyrica, Lyrica ain't even really much to worry about.

Despite all that being said, he is a young guy, up to date , but completely ignorant and bias to ssri's and all that jazz.


He was really selling the antidepressants, but I rather not go that route.

The thing is you can mention the negative aspect of some controlled substances, by all means, do the same for hell hole of issues that come with other psychiatric drugs. I'm all for it if you dislike potentially addictive medicine and you would like to prevent issues in the future but please do realize that these other drugs like Lexapro for example can be no walk in the park.

If you ask me, the antidepressants these days are just as habit forming and capable of causing physical dependence.
 
2mg of klonopin in the morning to keep your anxiety lower during most of the day they last a long time then maybe 1 mg of xanax twice a day as needed for more intense anxiety
 
I kinda wanted to bump this up and see any other input.

Going through school this semester, kinda felt like touching on this again.
 
How are you doing in school and did the Ativan help you? It might be beneficial to try other meds if that's what your doctor wants you to do.
 
OP,

From a strictly non-recreational, anxiety standpoint, your issue is very simple : Tolerance Withdrawal.

If you can address the underlying cause of the anxiety more often than the medication itself, symptoms will improve.
 
I survived, didn't do good well grade wise, but I would like to thrive and not just get through it.

I got some neuorlogical issues, I'm not really open to today's meds for the most part cause they can complicate that, and then the plethora of potential bullshit that goes with them. Benzos can fuck me up, but I feel like a little here and there ain't gonna do much negative, plus helps with the muscle tension aspect of my condition.

In my head, I see it in best case scenario, take some xanax a few days out the week, like some people have a drink, and just use them to get what I want out of life. Might be a fucking crutch, but I rather collect my chips with that, then sit around like a duck with nothing.
 
Same as with any drug, it's about the person not the substance.

There are some substances that are more risky but there's no one that can definitively tell you whether you will be safe using a particular substance.

One thing I will say is that it's very easy for a benzo habit to creep up on you, it's all too easy to fall in to the habit of popping the extra one here or there and before long you're using them to regulate your feelinngs at every opportunity which leads in to full scale abuse. This doesn't happen for everyone by any means, but it's a pretty common story with benzos.
 
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