Cocaine SUCKS
Hello! Everything is going to be okay. Just know that anything you honestly and deeply don't want to do, will find a way and try to plant itself into your life. You can't let that happen. I know this is the NMI thread, but let me tell you a little story.
I used to be really addicted to cocaine and I thank the lord I'm not anymore. The first day I tried it, I bought the day after. And the day after and the day after. I never stopped. I kept on using because it made me feel like I was the happiest person in the world. I did cocaine every single damn day for 6 months. All it did was boost my energy until I had to do another line and burn the fuck out of my nose at the end of the day. I was putting myself in a very bad position every time I bought.
I would do it the moment I woke up, at school and at work, and for the rest of the day. I knew how to make whatever I had, last me as long as I needed it to, because it soon became all I wanted, and I never wanted to run out before I bought more. But soon, once I started doing more and more, trying to get the huge energy boost, I would start to feel weak. Nights came where I physically couldn't snort any more coke because of my nose hurting so badly, and I would cry and just pray that I would come off of it as soon as possible so I could try to get some sleep. Sometimes I would do my last line at 9 or 10pm and wouldn't be able to fall asleep until 5am or so. That was an hour of sleep each night for me when I had school in the morning. I would wake up less healthier than the day before, bruises every where. 10-15 bruises on my arms and hands, all over my back and legs. I looked really sick and people could tell something was wrong. I only did it for 6 months and I had people telling me by the 2nd or 3rd that they could already see my cheekbones rising.
I never really wanted to stop doing coke in the first place, and I didn't really voluntarily stop either. I was arrested for possession and almost everything I had got taken away from me. It was the end of the world for me.
Trust me, you don't want to go down any path that involves cocaine, it ruins your life. You think you're invincible and have all these racing thoughts that seem so amazing, but its just the devil playing tricks on your mind.
But once I stopped, I stopped for a long time. Didn't have the money to get any because I lost my job. But then I started again, did it for about a week. Yea, when you first do it, you can tell that you have to chase lines to get that same first high but when I stopped for months and started again, I didn't even like it. I hated it actually. I did it over and over trying to feel what I felt before, but it just was not the same. All I could think about was the memories I had of my burning nose, sleepless nights, and my weak, aching body. I didn't even feel energetic when I did it again, no boost at all, no happy and excited feelings, nothing. I just felt hate. Hate that I ever touched it again. I thought that this was what I wanted, to at least say goodbye to my old friend, but it was never any friend of mine. And it's definitely not going to be yours, nor treat you right. It will do you so wrong, you can't even think straight. So, do you want that?
No mountain is too great, and the hill that you have to climb up right now isn't that high. Just leave the coke in the ditch okay. Throw it out. Don't finish the rest of what you have. Tell your friends you'll do more later but don't. Use that as you excuse to GET OUT NOW. You still have a chance, and everything will be okay. I promise. Just please listen to me. Its no fun. If you want an addiction, find a hobby. Find something that you know can get your mind off of it any time you need to; something you can always trust that will keep you from doing it. I read. Call me crazy but its the only thing I can do and not do drugs at the same time. I read 7 THICK books in 3 weeks. I read nonstop and I don't even think about touching drugs when I'm lost in the pages of a really good story. You'll be okay if you stop before it's too late.
Good luck, I wish you the best!
Much luvvvv, Micayla
I'm just about to graduate from uni and I joined Bluelight because I want to be informed. I've been doing coke for the past four days, every night, anything from a gram to 3 grams a night (It's weak coke), I'm kinda worried that I'm starting to form a habit/addiction. I've spent so much money, it's weird how I keep wanting more and justify the purchase. I don't really have anyone to talk to about this. I would love to talk to someone. I have an addictive personality and I really don't want to form a drug habit. So can someone please send me a message? I'm snorting lines right now.. I can't stop 
please help x
