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March Getting Clean Thread v. If I can do it, you can too!

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2 weeks clean today. I figured id be happy but I'm not. I'm not feeling well, my fiancé says she's not feeling well today. I can't find my damn social security card and I need it so I can get this job...fuck this day
 
315 days, somehow.

I feel fortunate enough to have had the experiences I got to have early on in recovery, because now I always have something to think about and remind me that there are better things in life then getting high and I'll never experience those things again if I relapse.


Edit- I was asked to speak at a meeting on Thursday, at the rehab I went to actually.
So I get to go back and sit on the other side of the rooms I got sober in and be the person telling my story to a bunch of people brand new in recovery, instead of being one of the people whose sitting there brand new. This is going to be an experience for sure...
 
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CaseFace said:
315 days, somehow.

I feel fortunate enough to have had the experiences I got to have early on in recovery, because now I always have something to think about and remind me that there are better things in life then getting high and I'll never experience those things again if I relapse.


Edit- I was asked to speak at a meeting on Thursday, at the rehab I went to actually.
So I get to go back and sit on the other side of the rooms I got sober in and be the person telling my story to a bunch of people brand new in recovery, instead of being one of the people whose sitting there brand new. This is going to be an experience for sure...
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Ace, Case.... a year coming up!

Evey xxxx
 
I got all sortsa out focus.. got hit with some god damn stress while i already had a full plate.. slipped way outa today and way into tomorrow.. got hammered by a whole inedible feast of anxiety, hopelessness, and self doubt.. hung in there and a good person posted just the post I needed to see.. so funny how its all in the way we are looking at things.. but I went from what the fuck was I thinking to YEP, your right on the beam.. so funny how we can at times lose sight of the beam, even being right on it.. has to do with the self doubt.. such an strong and in intimate part of an addicts life... so yeah I will get through this and I will do what im doing.. and its the right thing to do..

FUCK im smiling now but it really is so amazing how it can suddenly feel like the world is coming to an end.. nut that shits all in my head.. so CHARGE.. and for safety reasons I wrote a few things down.. you know so if I start thinking nuts again..

Nice push but I win again, bitch<3
 
I've been sober for 385 days today.

never sick, addy, case, oxyghost, mocmoc, captain, maya....everyone! it's a pleasure to share this journey with you. i think we've got something pretty special building here with this thread. keep it up everyone. much respect and admiration to each and every one of you.
 
Hey captain how goes it I'm real impressed you got off bupe that's a real tough one I just started my blue light profile today I've seen lots of posts by you though. I was wondering howyou got off bupe I have been addicted to subutex for a year now via injection after a 3 year prescription pill problem, and after that heroin for 4 years. I now take aprox .5 mgs of bupe every 6 hours. Did you inject sub's while tapering or switch to under the tounge. Thanks for any information I don't know my way around this site yet so sorry if I put this in the wrong place.
 
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^^ CH is definitely the person to ask about IV Bupe addiction. I'm sure he'll have loads of advice for you.

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I'm struggling right now, and I'm so fucking grateful for everyone here. All of you. I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for Bluelight and SL/TDS.
 
Eveleivibe said:
Hiya TheAgnostic. Well done on six clean. That's really ace. And you did good in not getting those pain meds - so hats off to you.
I like your thinking in going to meetings, if they're for you. Please come here for support too if it helps you, whatever helps keep on with it. The move may be a test for you but I think you can do it as long as you are honest with yourself n keep up the support ie meetings n what-not.

All the best,

Evey xxxx
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Id like to thank everyone for there support, the transition home has gone rather smoothly, just job hunting at the moment and hopefully gettin my first car by the end of the week. (Thanks to sobriety in actually able to save money imagine that)
But I've tried to stay busy just been helping my mom w/ my baby brothers and hitting meetings when i can.

And to eve, AA is the only thing that's worked for me, i think someone could make it w/o it but they'd have to do the basic AA principle and help another junkie/alcoholic i think that's what it boils down too.
Is there pretty good AA in the UK Eve? J.w. i know it started here in Ohio where i live so the meetings here are pretty orthodox.
 
Thanks case I can tell there's lots of great people ready to help on here nice to meet you And yes captain H is the man ;)
 
CaseFace said:
^^ CH is definitely the person to ask about IV Bupe addiction. I'm sure he'll have loads of advice for you.

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I'm struggling right now, and I'm so fucking grateful for everyone here. All of you. I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for Bluelight and SL/TDS.
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Yeah, man. It ain't always easy.. I mean, it's never really easy, but some times it's really not easy. Keep your head up and remember, as long as you stay clean and don't pick up no matter what, everything else will work itself out.
 
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^^nice NSA^^

I hope that you are feeling better.

Learning to "be" my cravings and urges appears to be the path for me.

I'm taking another run at this thing right now...
 
The last few weeks have flashed on by. The winter was long, and a lot of us have been struggling, are always struggling. I've tasted the suffering in the air and felt the echoes of people's pain. Even here, base one, the mighty oak, the pressure is intimidating. But as I've been reading through several months worth of sobriety threads, I'm reminded that we're an obstinate and strong family. We've taken some losses lately. We carry them with us. A couple steps back are par for the course, but we're due for some progress. We're all artistic souls, but let's show some discipline. I was reading the Tortoise and the Hare to my kids the other night. I've been the hare lately. I've been too confident, playing too loose with this challenge, this fight against my addictions. I realized I'd lost respect for my enemy. I feel like this is happening to a lot of us during this season. We've been napping, meanwhile, our addictions, they've been holding on, slow and steady, and caught up. Time to wake up from the nap, respect the enemy, take back control, regain the lead. Peace, everyone.
 
Still clean and feeling good.

Court got postponed another month, so I got even more time now to build some more clean time, more outpatient, all that good stuff, and make myself look as together as possible. I couldn't do any of this if I wasn't clean.

It's scary though because... for the first time in a very very long time.. I actually have something to lose. I have a good life right now. I'm clean, have a great relationship, working a full time job, all this positive shit. I don't want to lose it.
 
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