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Ya, I've heard it's a fucken bitch to get off. Fortunately I have never gotten physically addicted to opiates, but I have definitely been through my own psychological mess.

Right now I'm back to chipping on smack once a week, but I'd like to cut it out entirely. Tho with my new roommate, that's just not an option ATM. I can't help him get dope from my people without doing some myself :|. One of my best friends wants iboga, but idfk how he's going to get it. It sucks 'cos not only has he been one of my closest friends for 4 years, but he's also incredibly smart with so much potential. He had a scholarship to Wake Forest to study molecular biology or some shit & pissed it away within 6 months because of an IV coke habit.

Addiction, to me, is one of the most heartbreaking diseases/conditions I've ever heard of. It's absolutely mind-boggling how people can throw absolutely everything they have in this world right down the gutter for another high. The drugs take hold at such a deep level of oneself & delude the person into doing anything to get more. It really saddens me how people don't realise what a sinister thing addiction is. When someone has their family relationships back, a good career, a house, etc. & go out one day & within weeks everything is gone, it's fucking depressing. But at the same time, I'm not sure if I fully subscribe to the "addiction is a disease" mentality that so many in *A & rehabs push. I know I was mentally addicted to heroin; I spent almost every penny I earned on it, but now I can do it once a week & never think about it. I know several people who were even physically addicted to opiates & can now just drink a few beers or something. Maybe we weren't 'true addicts' but I know what I went through & it's hard to reconcile that with 'once an addict, always an addict' etc. that is preached like gospel in the rooms.




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It really is humorous to see what dope goes for online.
i checked somewhere and one vendor doesnt know what a stamp bag is, another is selling stamps(that are blanks
...) And showed one dumped out and it looked like garbage dope, like straight trash cut.
the people selling bags actually werent charging all that much but a gram of black tar is apparently worth more than a damn gram of powder.
i could get a gram of powder heroin cheaper than tar goes for on there by just buying like 20-25 bags here...
and shit last year i couldve gotten 20 bags at least for the amount a half gram of tar is going for...
i wisj i could sell most likely garbage dope to people who would never be able to cop themselves irl liks they do online.
i could make a few phone calls right now and get probably 3 or 4 different bags if i had money and a ride downtown.
And i never heard someone call a blank bag a stamp. Shit we all just call them bags or tshirts or some shit, never stamps on the street. At least when youre buying. Or at least when i buy.
 
So I'm finally unemployed again. Mixed feelings. Its great to not have to wake up early everyday but still I liked my job very much. Feels absolutely great when everyone's at work like saying you did a real good job and will be missed and hugs you (I was the only guy there, only women :D). If I'm lucky, I will be back there in summer if they can hire people.

Anyway, getting drunk as fuck tonight. Cheers!
 
LSDMDMA&AMP: Addiction is addiction man. Poppy tea contains morphine, codeine, and a bunch of other opiate alkaloids, if you think the withdrawal isn't real, try getting on it. Try doing kratom all day every day for years. It's real, man. :) I've done heroin and many of the other opiates too, I've even been addicted to heroin briefly, and I can say from that experience that it was the worst withdrawal I've felt. But the withdrawal from poppy tea lasts for weeks because the high lasts for like 12 hours or more... like how methadone withdrawal lasts forever. I will say I've never shot anything and for that I'm thankful, I'm sure it makes it a lot worse. I guess I'm just saying, don't judge, until you've been there. Being addicted to opiates provides the same sort of experience regardless of what it is, it's just the severity that is different. But it's the same feelings, the same pattern, the same life-draining process.
 
My mother OD'd on methadone, I don't know if she took anything else but they found that in post mortem. Fucking opiates.
 
Xorkoth said:
I'm sorry man :(
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Thank you. I still have a mother, my biological mother died when I was 2 year old so I don't even really remember her. My father died when I was 8 but I didnt know him either. My aunt adopted me so I have a loving family. Still it makes me wonder what life would be like if they were still alive.
 
Oh okay, well that's good. Still, I can't imagine having to deal with something like that. My parents are so stable and non-drug using... and I'm glad for it. I'm not so glad with how much I have been worrying them though.
 
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. I will say I've never shot anything and for that I'm thankful, I'm sure it makes it a lot worse.
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I think IV use is some kind of limit - when you cross that line you will most likely be fucked.. at least in my experience. I wonder how good the rush would feel, but at the same time it disgusts me to use needles and shoot shit into your veins. I would only go through that with pure morphine with doctor/someone with experience to give me it intravenous with clean needles and stuff.
 
I got morphine when I was in the hospital from an IV drip after the nurse failed to hit my vein like 3 times (which is astounding my veins are abnormally protruding) and I was baffled that anyone would throw away their lives for that high. I was just very unremarkably stoned for a few hours with my back more relaxed than usual, the kroll show on comedy central was just mildly more humorous because of it.

however opiates + dissociatives can produce such an awesome dreamlike state I can see why someone would fancy that.

edit: lol I find it kind of crazy that my little brother got his wisdom teeth removed like a few months ago and when he was in the hospital they IVd him with fentanyl and ketamine, then gave him nitrous and when he wasn't anesthetized they were like, 'well you seem to be tolerant to the effects of drugs.' The fact that they are giving people K+nitrous when they're getting teeth removed doesn't sit that well with me. Especially because that honestly seems like one of the worst drug combos for your brain if abused enough
 
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edit: lol I find it kind of crazy that my little brother got his wisdom teeth removed like a few months ago and when he was in the hospital they IVd him with fentanyl and ketamine, then gave him nitrous and when he wasn't anesthetized they were like, 'well you seem to be tolerant to the effects of drugs.' The fact that they are giving people K+nitrous when they're getting teeth removed doesn't sit that well with me. Especially because that honestly seems like one of the worst drug combos for your brain if abused enough
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What in the fuck? I got my wisdom teeth removed without any medication whatsoever rofl. I got some ibuprofen for the pain afterwards but thats it. Fentanyl and ketamine for wisdom teeth? haha. Was it some really hard operation that they had to do surgery or something?
 
Yo thenightwatch, remember how I said I ran out of MXE? Well this vendor I ordered last time is getting some more soon. I could order a gram or more. Would be fun, but it could fuck me up. Last time I had no problems using it only weekends, but I have this university entrance exam coming up. And now I don't have to work. Maybe I should skip this opportunity to order 1-2g of MXE..
 
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^ I find that while dissociatives can produce awesome healing and be very therapeutic they can fuck with your motivation to do real world things. As long as you keep your schoolwork on the top of your priority list I think you should be fine. but be wary it's easy to stop caring and keep doing mxe

edit: I've never had more than a few grams of MXE in my possession at once so I've kind of rationed it, and because it's such an awesome all in one party drug IMO it's the most addicting dissociative I've done. Still I never found myself wasting the day away on MXE and would definitely regret a dose not taken in the right set and setting. Idk I keep going back and forth on this one in my head haha
 
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xammy, i may have more dissociative experience than you do, but you know yourself better than i do. :) if you think having it in your possession would cause you to form a destructive habit, then don't get it.

also, have you still been talking to that girl? i got excited for you when you were telling about her. :)
 
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xammy, i may have more dissociative experience than you do, but you know yourself better than i do. :) if you think having it in your possession would cause you to form a destructive habit, then don't get it.

also, have you still been talking to that girl? i got excited for you when you were telling about her. :)
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Thats the problem, I have never been addicted to anything or used anything too much really.. and i dont want to start now

About the girl. I dont remember what I wrote about her last time, i was super excited then. It seems that her previous relationship havent finally ended yet. She really doesn't start any converations on facebook or anything. It feels nice to talk with her on the phone, but if she isnt as interested as I am, I don't even want to try. I will remember her for the rest of my life for sure, but the feelings I have for her arent as strong they were in back in the days.. Anyway I hope the best for her in the life.
 
xammy said:
What in the fuck? I got my wisdom teeth removed without any medication whatsoever rofl. I got some ibuprofen for the pain afterwards but thats it. Fentanyl and ketamine for wisdom teeth? haha. Was it some really hard operation that they had to do surgery or something?
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I think everyone in America gets put out with ketamine or something like it for wisdom teeth. I mean they have to open up your gums and pull them out, sometimes they're impacted and they have to break the tooth too. Wisdom teeth are the biggest molars, it's definitely a surgery. What did they do, just give you novocaine? I was asleep for it.
 
Yes, quite often I have had buyer's remorse. Shitty feeling, it is.

EDIT: Got a date for Sunday afternoon! Good times...
 
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